Helping your Empathic side: Just Look Up

Before I came to America last month to do this radio show and start the process of trying to get my visa and so on, I sent a message out on Facebook to the people I would be spending a lot of time with to explain to them that as an Empath I will have times in my life where I will need to detach and spend time alone.
That they weren’t to take it personally. In fact I’ll just show you the message.
It is as follows:

I really don’t like socializing unless I have to. I prefer to sit and work on my connection then have down time. I don’t like being told, I like being asked, I don’t like sharing my life unless I want to share. I am a private person unless I want to be public. I am a Scorpio. I like to decide when and where I go. It’s hard for me to express this to people who are comfortable being social. I get accused of being a snob or rude but I’m not. I’m independent and I like to know my surroundings before I charge into them. People think because I’m a hurricane with them I’m a hurricane with everyone but I’m not. AT ALL. I don’t like crowds, I don’t like being in unfamiliar surroundings and I don’t like being babied. I’m not complicated. I’m just Scorpio. I want you to help me be independent and you’ll get loyalty in abundance. But I don’t like people talking about me, sharing my life, deciding my life or assuming things. My life is an open book only once I take the lock off.
Why? Because I deal with death every single day on levels 99% of the population can’t even imagine. My articles on mental health are being published, my clients rely on me to keep their issues confidential. I take what I do very seriously. Not to mention the grief and heartache associated with my work. It’s so much for me to carry these burdens on my shoulders. I take people’s fears and turn them into hope. No-one understands that in order for ME to be free of these burdens I need time to my self. I need time to sort the emotions out in my head and release them so they don’t become my burdens too.
Please don’t be offended if I say no to something or don’t want to do it. Please understand that in one 20hr working period I may have held a man grieving for the loss of his child, helped a man decide not to hang himself, helped a woman change her career path, passed messages on to a grieving husband, taught 6 students Medianship through murder and done some Physics. My job and my gift are as protected to me as my children are. If I ask you not to share, or give me space, or help me understand something it is nothing personal. You just don’t know what goes on in my life that day.
I absorb everything like a sponge. When I’m out with you, you see people having fun, you see people being people. I hear blinding noise, I hear their fears, worries and thoughts, their broken hearts and suicidal thoughts, their debt worries and dishonesties. On top of which I’ll then have the dead telling me how to fix them all which is impossible even though it’s all I want to do. I was born just wanting to love everyone. Because I can’t that is a burden for me. So I avoid it as much as I can and let the universe decide who I am to help.
If your in my life it means I love you. If I let you in it means I trust you. But I trust you only once. It’s not easy being me. I work long hours to help people. If I want to stay home it’s with good reason.
Please try and understand that and it’s about to get worse because when I get to America I’ll be working as much as possible. I need to earn money to provide for my family and pay taxes when I’m there. The things I’ll experience will be bigger than even I’m used to. Being thrust into the limelight the second I’m working. No time with my kids, missing my man, work on my mind, people to employ to drive me, manage my career, travel costs, rent to pay etc…my burdens become mine pretty fast.
But I do it because it’s my dream, my dream job, my dream friends and family surrounding me in many states and continents. I’m a sponge. I need to wash myself out and let myself hang out to dry. Otherwise I will become heavy with the things I absorb. So please if you don’t hear from me, or I’m quiet or anti social it’s nothing you’ve done. I’m just doing what I need to do to release my energy so I don’t end up like the people I’m in America to help.
It’s not easy being the one person 100,000 people plus a year come to for advice and guidance.
But I do it because I can. I do it because I want to. I do it because I am Scorpio, I do it because I am Debbielee. I am the person I am born to be.
Thank you all for reading this if you did. That in itself means a lot to me. My only fear in life is letting people down. I don’t want to be doing that for anyone.
But it does often come at a detriment to myself.

Since I wrote that post I have been around hundreds of people who I have absorbed their thoughts and emotions like a sponge.
I read people every second of every day even when I’m not reading them as my job. An Empath absorbs everything around them like a sponge.
If your not an Empath your never going to understand what it is to be one.
We can’t be around gossip, we can’t be around prejudice, we can’t be around hate or negativity because we absorb it and reflect it back IF we don’t know how to handle it.
Most people don’t know how to handle it so they become depressed or suicidal.
This is why people in the new age philosophies piss me off so much. Because they use this word like it is peanut butter and it like peanut is cloying to my palate and drives me nuts.

Anyone who is an ACTUAL Empath doesn’t tell people they are one because it evokes a whole range of issues so it is easier to just never tell people. An Empath is more than someone who cares, it is more than someone who sympathizes and it is costing people their lives and I’m the one who has to pick those pieces of suicide and depression up.

I have been around thee most horrendous situations since I have been in Wisconsin and there has been absolutely nothing I can do about it because I’m in a confined space most of the time and as I started to feel myself get weighed down by the negativity that has been surrounding me with peoples thoughts, griefs, sadness and inner turmoil’s my beautiful and very patient teacher Pauline Wardel Braddon came to me and said ‘Just look up’.
At first I wasn’t sure what she meant. My student bumblebee did a reading for me and he kept saying in this reading to Just Look Up.
And because I file stuff like that away in my head it comes out just at the right time.

Yesterday I couldn’t stand it any more. I HAD to get into my quiet space and try to decompress everything that is going on in my head.
I’m dealing with my gift, and my empathic side while trying to figure my future out, work with clients in my usual day job I do in the UK and my students, along with my radio show and missing my boys and fiancé all at the same time.

No one will ever understand what it is to be me. And I can’t talk to anyone about what I am because no one understands. It is never as simple as ‘letting go’ or ‘talking about it’.
It builds up like lime scale and over time it can wear heavy on ones soul and the only way to remove it is to do what you need to do to remove the scum that becomes hard on your heart.
That is why I say, have an outlet. Whatever your thing is. do it. It helps, it really does.
But once in a while it isn’t enough. So like yesterday when I couldn’t stand it any more I had an incredible moment with a Spirit in the place I was staying and then my teacher came and reminded me to JUST LOOK UP!!!
She then went on to explain it like this and I share it with you.

Go somewhere quiet and lay on your back. And just look up.
Because looking up will what is there will always be more simplistic than what is around you and inside you.
Looking up will be a plain ceiling, with one maybe two colours of objects to purvey.
Looking up will be a beautiful night sky with dark blues and stars, or a sky of greys and blues with whites if it’s a nice day.
Looking up is calm on ones mind and looking around or within is a kaleidoscope of colours and emotions that can be overwhelming to your mind. So lay down and just look up.

So I did just that. I went to my room where I get changed. I put my blanket on the cold floor and turned the lights off and just looked up. Before long my mind stopped racing. My heart began to beat a little slower and before I knew it I was calm and relaxed again having started to think about simple things like how good it feels to hold my boys in my arms.
How nice it feels to be held by my fiancé. Kittens that look like Hitler or Kitlers as my friend Becca calls them.
I felt the negative leave me. I felt it drain from my soul.
I went to see my friend Colin Slife race the other day. He is an incredible car racing prodigy who will be a Nascar champion by the time he is 19-20 years old. He is an inspiration to me and the perfect role model for my boys and children everywhere.
At 14 he raced against grown men and did so fantastically well I was proud and honoured to be a apart of it. I LOVE cars. I loved watching him drive 100 times around that track.
BUT with hundreds of spectators there it was impossible for me not to absorb peoples thoughts.
There were affairs going on, people wanting to kill themselves and deciding how, people secretly HATING each other with such venom in their hearts and some of it was directed at that poor boy.
I of course had to protect him and ended up blowing the lights out in the stadium because of it.
But I also saw sexual predators eyeing up some of the kids playing and women hating on other women because of the men there were with etc…
At one point I nearly ran out of there. I can NOT under ANY circumstance be around negative minds and hearts because with my gift it can turn dark and dangerous.

I could kill someone with my thoughts, if I transmitted that kind of bad energy out to the people who made me angry I could crash their cars, make them go nuts or worse.
With great power comes great responsibility. I take what I do very seriously. People trust me with their deepest darkest thoughts and fears and I am proud to say I have built my reputation on three things.
My Confidentiality.
My Honesty
My Knowledge.
People know I speak the truth when I counsel them. That my intentions are honourable and my heart is in the right place.
I observe EVERYTHING. The curse of a Scorpio is we watch and observe our surroundings even when we appear dopey and docile.
The students I stay with for a while freak out because before I leave them I ‘read them’ and make observations that ring true to their very core.
I floor them and it makes them go away from me happier and more focused and a little shocked because they assume the whole time I’m just a big floppy haired Muppet who swans around all dazed and confused.
But I pay attention to every detail. Because of this I need time to decompress and a lot of people just don’t get that sometimes it means in order to do that I need to Just Look Up.

My students under s certain level of ability know they will never be allowed to watch me read, or hold sessions with fellow students.
My life, my feelings, my work is 100% confidential. This is the basis and foundation of my very existence.
I make no apologies for this. There are only two people in this world who have built trust with me over the years to decompress to verbally and I was married to one and about to marry the other.
My balance.
My ex on one side and my current on the other. They are my scales. They are the two that have seen me develop my gift over the years and don’t judge me when I have melt downs or cry.
You can explain this to people till your blue in the face but I trust very few people with my inner thoughts and cerebral process for the simple fact that no one will ever understand what it is to be me.
I live by the voices in my head. I don’t judge, gossip, criticize, condemn or try to complain.
Writing is my outlet for expression as is working out and music.
But while I might be the worlds first Paranormal Scientist and while my life appears to be cool and super happy fun time it is hard and exhausting when you absorb everything like a sponge.
An Empath is telepathic as well and 99% of people who are suicidal hear voices thinking they are losing their minds not knowing they are hearing Spirit of the voices of people they have encountered that day or week.
If you don’t have an outlet it builds up like a volcano and will erupt into something dark if you don’t have an outlet.
So I’m sharing this with all of you who feel like your heart wears heavy with the burdens of the world.
Go somewhere quiet, no people around, lay on your back and Just Look Up.
Stay there until your mind is clear. Look at the simple shapes and colours. It really does work.
You’ll come out of it exhausted but then have something to eat and watch how incredible it feels afterwards.
I feel fantastic.
Sometimes even caring people need to be a little selfish. If you don’t take time to rinse out that sponge your soul becomes dirty from mess you absorb around you, you simply end up smearing your own life with the filth you absorbed and you deserve so much better than that.
You were given your good heart for a reason and you can’t let ANYONE under ANY circumstances taint that in you.
It is okay to remove yourself from the negative in your life. If you are around people talking mean about people, if your around prejudice and gossip it is okay to shut yourself off. They will never understand what it is to be you.
You get one shot at this life. Don’t make yourself have to come back because you didn’t award yourself the time to just look up while others look down.

The choices you make today directly affect the consequences of those choices tomorrow. So make better choices for YOU not anyone else.
As I always say ‘Live your life for others, make them happy, live your life for you, make you happy’

If the people in your life truly care about you they will understand and give you time to do you.
If not, they aren’t friends and shouldn’t be in your life in the first place so maybe the universe is trying to tell you they are one of the negative things your soaking like a sponge.
whether it be your job, your school, your friends or family, your society or your street, if your an Empath your going to absorb it all.
The New Age movement should be ashamed of themselves for wrongly identifying themselves in such a manner and I will make sure now I have a Talk show on WRMN1410 that people know the truth.
They aren’t the ones picking up the pieces of what an Empath really is.
I am. And because of that once in a while I need to remove myself to a dark room and Just Look Up.
Until you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders don’t judge those of us who do.
Because one day it will be your weight we carry on our shoulders too and you won’t want us faltering and stumbling when we do it.

Helping your Empathic side: Just Look Up

Before I came to America last month to do this radio show and start the process of trying to get my visa and so on, I sent a message out on Facebook to the people I would be spending a lot of time with to explain to them that as an Empath I will have times in my life where I will need to detach and spend time alone.
That they weren’t to take it personally. In fact I’ll just show you the message.
It is as follows:

I really don’t like socializing unless I have to. I prefer to sit and work on my connection then have down time. I don’t like being told, I like being asked, I don’t like sharing my life unless I want to share. I am a private person unless I want to be public. I am a Scorpio. I like to decide when and where I go. It’s hard for me to express this to people who are comfortable being social. I get accused of being a snob or rude but I’m not. I’m independent and I like to know my surroundings before I charge into them. People think because I’m a hurricane with them I’m a hurricane with everyone but I’m not. AT ALL. I don’t like crowds, I don’t like being in unfamiliar surroundings and I don’t like being babied. I’m not complicated. I’m just Scorpio. I want you to help me be independent and you’ll get loyalty in abundance. But I don’t like people talking about me, sharing my life, deciding my life or assuming things. My life is an open book only once I take the lock off.
Why? Because I deal with death every single day on levels 99% of the population can’t even imagine. My articles on mental health are being published, my clients rely on me to keep their issues confidential. I take what I do very seriously. Not to mention the grief and heartache associated with my work. It’s so much for me to carry these burdens on my shoulders. I take people’s fears and turn them into hope. No-one understands that in order for ME to be free of these burdens I need time to my self. I need time to sort the emotions out in my head and release them so they don’t become my burdens too.
Please don’t be offended if I say no to something or don’t want to do it. Please understand that in one 20hr working period I may have held a man grieving for the loss of his child, helped a man decide not to hang himself, helped a woman change her career path, passed messages on to a grieving husband, taught 6 students Medianship through murder and done some Physics. My job and my gift are as protected to me as my children are. If I ask you not to share, or give me space, or help me understand something it is nothing personal. You just don’t know what goes on in my life that day.
I absorb everything like a sponge. When I’m out with you, you see people having fun, you see people being people. I hear blinding noise, I hear their fears, worries and thoughts, their broken hearts and suicidal thoughts, their debt worries and dishonesties. On top of which I’ll then have the dead telling me how to fix them all which is impossible even though it’s all I want to do. I was born just wanting to love everyone. Because I can’t that is a burden for me. So I avoid it as much as I can and let the universe decide who I am to help.
If your in my life it means I love you. If I let you in it means I trust you. But I trust you only once. It’s not easy being me. I work long hours to help people. If I want to stay home it’s with good reason.
Please try and understand that and it’s about to get worse because when I get to America I’ll be working as much as possible. I need to earn money to provide for my family and pay taxes when I’m there. The things I’ll experience will be bigger than even I’m used to. Being thrust into the limelight the second I’m working. No time with my kids, missing my man, work on my mind, people to employ to drive me, manage my career, travel costs, rent to pay etc…my burdens become mine pretty fast.
But I do it because it’s my dream, my dream job, my dream friends and family surrounding me in many states and continents. I’m a sponge. I need to wash myself out and let myself hang out to dry. Otherwise I will become heavy with the things I absorb. So please if you don’t hear from me, or I’m quiet or anti social it’s nothing you’ve done. I’m just doing what I need to do to release my energy so I don’t end up like the people I’m in America to help.
It’s not easy being the one person 100,000 people plus a year come to for advice and guidance.
But I do it because I can. I do it because I want to. I do it because I am Scorpio, I do it because I am Debbielee. I am the person I am born to be.
Thank you all for reading this if you did. That in itself means a lot to me. My only fear in life is letting people down. I don’t want to be doing that for anyone.
But it does often come at a detriment to myself.

Since I wrote that post I have been around hundreds of people who I have absorbed their thoughts and emotions like a sponge.
I read people every second of every day even when I’m not reading them as my job. An Empath absorbs everything around them like a sponge.
If your not an Empath your never going to understand what it is to be one.
We can’t be around gossip, we can’t be around prejudice, we can’t be around hate or negativity because we absorb it and reflect it back IF we don’t know how to handle it.
Most people don’t know how to handle it so they become depressed or suicidal.
This is why people in the new age philosophies piss me off so much. Because they use this word like it is peanut butter and it like peanut is cloying to my palate and drives me nuts.

Anyone who is an ACTUAL Empath doesn’t tell people they are one because it evokes a whole range of issues so it is easier to just never tell people. An Empath is more than someone who cares, it is more than someone who sympathizes and it is costing people their lives and I’m the one who has to pick those pieces of suicide and depression up.

I have been around thee most horrendous situations since I have been in Wisconsin and there has been absolutely nothing I can do about it because I’m in a confined space most of the time and as I started to feel myself get weighed down by the negativity that has been surrounding me with peoples thoughts, griefs, sadness and inner turmoil’s my beautiful and very patient teacher Pauline Wardel Braddon came to me and said ‘Just look up’.
At first I wasn’t sure what she meant. My student bumblebee did a reading for me and he kept saying in this reading to Just Look Up.
And because I file stuff like that away in my head it comes out just at the right time.

Yesterday I couldn’t stand it any more. I HAD to get into my quiet space and try to decompress everything that is going on in my head.
I’m dealing with my gift, and my empathic side while trying to figure my future out, work with clients in my usual day job I do in the UK and my students, along with my radio show and missing my boys and fiancé all at the same time.

No one will ever understand what it is to be me. And I can’t talk to anyone about what I am because no one understands. It is never as simple as ‘letting go’ or ‘talking about it’.
It builds up like lime scale and over time it can wear heavy on ones soul and the only way to remove it is to do what you need to do to remove the scum that becomes hard on your heart.
That is why I say, have an outlet. Whatever your thing is. do it. It helps, it really does.
But once in a while it isn’t enough. So like yesterday when I couldn’t stand it any more I had an incredible moment with a Spirit in the place I was staying and then my teacher came and reminded me to JUST LOOK UP!!!
She then went on to explain it like this and I share it with you.

Go somewhere quiet and lay on your back. And just look up.
Because looking up will what is there will always be more simplistic than what is around you and inside you.
Looking up will be a plain ceiling, with one maybe two colours of objects to purvey.
Looking up will be a beautiful night sky with dark blues and stars, or a sky of greys and blues with whites if it’s a nice day.
Looking up is calm on ones mind and looking around or within is a kaleidoscope of colours and emotions that can be overwhelming to your mind. So lay down and just look up.

So I did just that. I went to my room where I get changed. I put my blanket on the cold floor and turned the lights off and just looked up. Before long my mind stopped racing. My heart began to beat a little slower and before I knew it I was calm and relaxed again having started to think about simple things like how good it feels to hold my boys in my arms.
How nice it feels to be held by my fiancé. Kittens that look like Hitler or Kitlers as my friend Becca calls them.
I felt the negative leave me. I felt it drain from my soul.
I went to see my friend Colin Slife race the other day. He is an incredible car racing prodigy who will be a Nascar champion by the time he is 19-20 years old. He is an inspiration to me and the perfect role model for my boys and children everywhere.
At 14 he raced against grown men and did so fantastically well I was proud and honoured to be a apart of it. I LOVE cars. I loved watching him drive 100 times around that track.
BUT with hundreds of spectators there it was impossible for me not to absorb peoples thoughts.
There were affairs going on, people wanting to kill themselves and deciding how, people secretly HATING each other with such venom in their hearts and some of it was directed at that poor boy.
I of course had to protect him and ended up blowing the lights out in the stadium because of it.
But I also saw sexual predators eyeing up some of the kids playing and women hating on other women because of the men there were with etc…
At one point I nearly ran out of there. I can NOT under ANY circumstance be around negative minds and hearts because with my gift it can turn dark and dangerous.

I could kill someone with my thoughts, if I transmitted that kind of bad energy out to the people who made me angry I could crash their cars, make them go nuts or worse.
With great power comes great responsibility. I take what I do very seriously. People trust me with their deepest darkest thoughts and fears and I am proud to say I have built my reputation on three things.
My Confidentiality.
My Honesty
My Knowledge.
People know I speak the truth when I counsel them. That my intentions are honourable and my heart is in the right place.
I observe EVERYTHING. The curse of a Scorpio is we watch and observe our surroundings even when we appear dopey and docile.
The students I stay with for a while freak out because before I leave them I ‘read them’ and make observations that ring true to their very core.
I floor them and it makes them go away from me happier and more focused and a little shocked because they assume the whole time I’m just a big floppy haired Muppet who swans around all dazed and confused.
But I pay attention to every detail. Because of this I need time to decompress and a lot of people just don’t get that sometimes it means in order to do that I need to Just Look Up.

My students under s certain level of ability know they will never be allowed to watch me read, or hold sessions with fellow students.
My life, my feelings, my work is 100% confidential. This is the basis and foundation of my very existence.
I make no apologies for this. There are only two people in this world who have built trust with me over the years to decompress to verbally and I was married to one and about to marry the other.
My balance.
My ex on one side and my current on the other. They are my scales. They are the two that have seen me develop my gift over the years and don’t judge me when I have melt downs or cry.
You can explain this to people till your blue in the face but I trust very few people with my inner thoughts and cerebral process for the simple fact that no one will ever understand what it is to be me.
I live by the voices in my head. I don’t judge, gossip, criticize, condemn or try to complain.
Writing is my outlet for expression as is working out and music.
But while I might be the worlds first Paranormal Scientist and while my life appears to be cool and super happy fun time it is hard and exhausting when you absorb everything like a sponge.
An Empath is telepathic as well and 99% of people who are suicidal hear voices thinking they are losing their minds not knowing they are hearing Spirit of the voices of people they have encountered that day or week.
If you don’t have an outlet it builds up like a volcano and will erupt into something dark if you don’t have an outlet.
So I’m sharing this with all of you who feel like your heart wears heavy with the burdens of the world.
Go somewhere quiet, no people around, lay on your back and Just Look Up.
Stay there until your mind is clear. Look at the simple shapes and colours. It really does work.
You’ll come out of it exhausted but then have something to eat and watch how incredible it feels afterwards.
I feel fantastic.
Sometimes even caring people need to be a little selfish. If you don’t take time to rinse out that sponge your soul becomes dirty from mess you absorb around you, you simply end up smearing your own life with the filth you absorbed and you deserve so much better than that.
You were given your good heart for a reason and you can’t let ANYONE under ANY circumstances taint that in you.
It is okay to remove yourself from the negative in your life. If you are around people talking mean about people, if your around prejudice and gossip it is okay to shut yourself off. They will never understand what it is to be you.
You get one shot at this life. Don’t make yourself have to come back because you didn’t award yourself the time to just look up while others look down.

The choices you make today directly affect the consequences of those choices tomorrow. So make better choices for YOU not anyone else.
As I always say ‘Live your life for others, make them happy, live your life for you, make you happy’

If the people in your life truly care about you they will understand and give you time to do you.
If not, they aren’t friends and shouldn’t be in your life in the first place so maybe the universe is trying to tell you they are one of the negative things your soaking like a sponge.
whether it be your job, your school, your friends or family, your society or your street, if your an Empath your going to absorb it all.
The New Age movement should be ashamed of themselves for wrongly identifying themselves in such a manner and I will make sure now I have a Talk show on WRMN1410 that people know the truth.
They aren’t the ones picking up the pieces of what an Empath really is.
I am. And because of that once in a while I need to remove myself to a dark room and Just Look Up.
Until you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders don’t judge those of us who do.
Because one day it will be your weight we carry on our shoulders too and you won’t want us faltering and stumbling when we do it.

Depression: It’s our fault.

As you all know my marriage has come to an end and the Number One contributing factor in this happening is that dirty fuckin word Depression.
In the almost 4 years I’ve been writing this stuff out the number of people who come to me suffering from one form of depression or another has risen exponentially.
I’m talking it was one in 1000 before, but now it’s more like one in 3.

Depression is a pandemic sweeping across the world and we have no one to blame but ourselves.
Why? Because we now live in a world where emotions are bad and being lazy and no longer self motivated to do anything ourselves, we run to Doctors and Governments to do something about it.

No one allows themselves to cry any more, or be angry or hurt.
People, we were given emotions for a reason. They are our release valve. They dump all the toxins in our emotions and psyche and heal us.
But with Fluoride and Artificial Sweeteners, Sugar, Antibiotic filled meats and dairy, the low fat bullshit stripping our brains of the healthy fats we need to coat it and now the medications we take in bucket loads willingly, we have depression when the smallest thing happens.
I bet you no one will have depression when the Cleansing hits and we are all having to fight for tins in the Supermarket lol

Get off your asses and take your Blob Damn life back.
We have an entire Universe full of Conscious love and light out there desperate to teach us the ways of the Universe.
All our loved ones throughout the course of our Evolutionary creation are begging us to listen to what they have to say and what do we do?
We eat cake and watch the Fucking Kardashians.

Also this ‘Labels’ bull shit and the Moral Brigade, these pain in the ass ‘Black Lives matter’ trouble makers and ‘Feminists’ etc…the governments orchestrate these little pockets of sub division so we will run to them to fix it.
Well guess what people? You get the Government you deserve.

They’re coming, and they are bringing tanks and Thought Police. So now you can’t be angry that some cops are out of control because your a Terrorist and if you say anything bad your a Terrorist and threat to the nation you live in.
Even though freedom of speech and expression are in the front of all great nations Declarations or Constitutions.

Remember when we were kids, things were so much less complicated when shit happened.
They are allowed to cry and have tantrums but when your an adult you suddenly need to focus on working and going to University and pay taxes that aren’t even legal.
We hand ourselves over to the Matrix and then wonder why we are unhappy and our souls are crying out for us to be FREE!!!!

People, please, I beg you, STOP allowing yourself the right to have a fuckin emotion. Life is shit sometimes. Its supposed to teach you the lessons YOU asked for before you came here to be you.

We are incredible Vessels of love and light and only a few of us (Empaths) understand this needs to just cry or be worried or whatever.

We have ALL had to rise above shit that when it’s over we have unclenched our butts and breathed a sigh of relief. But life’s issues aren’t the hurdles we think they are. They are stepping stones not hurdles. We place each stone there ourselves.
WE are the masters of our destiny, no God or Deity. US, we are one consciousness. We are ALL one. We are symbiotic and connected by the light in the Universe. This is why we don’t know what is beyond the edge of space because we haven’t finished creating it yet. I’ve seen it. I know how t works. I can step outside all time and see the light and why and how it works because my brian (yes I know I said Brian, watch the animated movie Igor, I LOVE that movie, it is so sweet and I feel like I’m the monster) releases its own DMT it seems without the need for the drug. We all can but mine is just obvious lol

We are ALL supposed to be like me. The way I deal with stress, the way I understand the Universe, the way I leave all the big stuff to fate, my gift is nothing if we are all like it and if everyone was more like me in terms of this gift stuff depression wouldn’t exist.
Anyone can be like me if the want is there to put in the years of dedication and training.

This year should of been the worst of my life. So much has changed. My heart has been broken more times this year than any other in my life and you know how bad my life has been.
Yet I’m the happiest I have EVER been in my entirety of life here as Debbie.
Since I gave over to the fear and allowed myself to focus on following my compass, get it. What I am, what I need to be, what I need to do etc…..to be happy. I found pure light.

And boy am I getting happy. I see only light now. I’m surrounding by spirits hundreds deep, I have the most incredible job. Oh My Blob, my readings I actually enjoy them now because I’m helping those who want direction not answers. So it spreads positivity and hope. Where as before I was always worried I was letting people down. My fear of letting people down made me nervous.

I’m teaching thee most incredibly loyal, gifted, loving students. They all tell me how they followed their gut to find me. (They followed their compass) and of my senior students I can honestly say I have found my family.
Even when I’ve had to go Dark to teach certain lessons these last few days they ALL understand why it had to be done and never judged me and in fact by having their support and permission it illuminated many truths and brought certain people to the light who should never have found it in the first place.

My sons are so clever and funny. They are bat shit crazy like their parents but they are individuals and happy even with all this going on with Mr Ex.
But they embrace my crazy and now my 7 year old is in to Physics. Even has theories of his own we like to discuss.

Mr Ex and I? We are the best of friends and will continue to love and support each other through out all of time. All divorces should be like ours. I’m taking nothing but what is mine, and he will help me with the boys without lawyers getting involved. No drama, just healing.

Everything in life has an opposite, for balance. Without perfect balance nothing can evolve. Left/Right, Up/Down, Light/Dark, Yes/No, Good smells/Bad smells, Love/Hate, Day/Night, Sleep/Wake, Run/Walk, Laugh/Cry etc…..you name it, it will have an opposite. So you have to know that when your depressed because your marriage is over, the good times WILL come. It has to. It’s Universal law of balance. But what is happening with us on earth is there are so many of you suffering from some form of emotional or Spirit blockage that we are now tipping the balance the wrong way. We either go up the ladder to light which is evolution and all knowledge, all time, all creation, everything, or we tip it the other way to dark and de evoling or nothingness. Which everything in the Universe including the dark are trying to avoid.
Nothing wants to go down the wrong part of the Black Hole. I call it The Tornado Effect.

By us not doing anything about our situations we head further and further into the black hole (metaphoric black hole of life I mean this time not the actual black hole like I meant last time).

So how to beat depression?
Honestly? Grow up. Embrace the suck, admit your dramas, get off our medication, stop trying to pass the responsibility for your bad decisions onto other people, own your problems, take responsibility and get off processed garbage. Sugar and Fluoride, MSG, SLF, Sweeteners, all that shit is killing our brains, turn off your Blob Damn TVS and read a book, go for a walk, stop being fed the lies that your not good enough. Do what makes you happy and fuck every body else. You will give love and support where you earn it. Give respect where you get it, love with all of your heart, do what you love and love what you do. Stop working jobs you hate and follow your dream. It’s better to try and be happy than fail at being happy?
Know that you chose this life for the very lessons your running away from. So face them head on.
You ask for this life. The reason your so miserable is your Third self or Highest Self knows it is here to have the Human Experience and by you fighting your compass trying to point north your denying yourself the experience you sent yourself down here to learn.

If you are living a life where you wish you were doing something else then your pointing your dial away from North. Over time that wears heavy on the dial. Now imagine your intuition is the dial and the decisions you make the magnetic force pulling that dial to North. So like a magnets polarity pushing when your put two magnets against each other, your pushing your Soul away from where it was set to be all along.

So everything you do, every thought, every action, every decision, every plan has it’s opposite response. So if you make a positive decision, a positive plan, do something there is also the alternative to it out there. The potential of what could be if you make the wrong decision.
Your gut, your intuition is your compass and no one listens to it but me lol
I’m the only idiot brave enough to listen to every gut feeling and thought BUT I’ve lost 200lbs and found the love of loves because of it. I have an incredible career now and a book coming out and I’m fighting the fight to get to New England (well that area). I’m happier than I’ve ever been and at 43 I now have a 25yr old in love with me hahahahaha (I KNOOOOW RIIIIIGHT?) lol
Bless him the silly boy lol

But I did ALL the things my compass told me to do and my life has changed so dramatically I now welcome the bad shit that happens because the Universal law of Balance dictates that what turns to shit also turns to roses 🙂
That’s why you enjoy the positives in life because it can change in an instant but it’s AAAALLLL based on what you do with what happens next that decides what happens next.

See life as you standing on a pair of skis. One ski is Light, Positive, Evolution of your Spiritual Self, the Other Ski Dark, Negative and De Evolving on a Spiritual level.
Our job while having the human experience is to balance just right on those skis, not too dark, not too light just going at the right speed to have our journey. But soon enough you get the balance just right so your skis go so fast that before you know it your traveling at the speed of what??????? Anyone?………LIGHT!!!
Good Students. I know the 4 that had their hands up immediately already from here lol (see…..Time Traveller lol)
Get it now?
Sort your shit out and watch how fast you get to the light and evolve?
My light is blinding now I’m going so fast.
Many of my students have just gotten on the slopes so I can’t wait till they catch up and they will because my experiences mean I can show them how to avoid the hard stuff. I have the cheats to life lol no having to go through the shit I went through to know what I know.
Some still have the fear but honestly if your that miserable in your life, surely trying to be happy is worth giving it a go because if it doesn’t work you haven’t lost anything and you can say ‘See I told me so’ lol
Nothing found nothing lost right?

You owe this to yourself and your Ancestors to try. Otherwise you’ll be back down for sure.
We are those kinds of nerdy Spirits lol it’s ALL about the Lesson of the Human experience.
That’s why we do it. But we control what happens, when and how. Fight or Flee.
I used to think everything was predestined but it isn’t. We choose it all. Everything, even when we die.

I chose to fight and I’ve been fighting like a bastard these last 12 months Oh My Blob.

Oh and the reason I am anti Black Lives Matter is because I think ALL lives matter. I’d like to see the people protest the Asian Slaves in the textile and sex industry etc….the African Diamond slaves, The Eastern European Orphans, (All Orphans tbh), First Nations, Aboriginals, LGBT, Men, Hispanics, Muslims,Palestinians, Homeless, Gypsies Animals, Women, The Elderly, Black people, Irish, Gingers, Nerds, Handicap, Mentally challenged, even ugly Spiders the Devils Minions, ALL lives matter, I could be here all day,trees, plants, even dark side, all victims in some way, and we allow it to not matter. We all have good and bad versions. Your going to get good Priets and bad ones, Good Teachers and Bad ones, Good Judges and DAs and bad ones, good black/White/Hispanic/Catholic/Muslim/Gay/Straight/Handicapped you get my drift, I could go on and on. But you know what I mean. If you don’t agree that ALL lives matter then your to blame for the state of all of this in this world. Your either a part of the solution or a part of the problem because that’s the balance lol See how it works? lol
See….I told you I wasn’t crazy lol The dead people in my head taught this stuff. Lol
Wait till I do my book called The Science of the Paranormal.

So we are all to blame for this shit. We got what we deserved.
We are living our collective Spiritual Karma.

A handful of people tell us who to hate and we obey. Even though deep down we know it’s wrong.
Immigration…….we ALL come from Immigrants. We ALL came from somewhere. No one will be 100% pure anything.

The trouble isn’t letting someone in from a different country but letting everyone in without checking the moral fibre of the person you let in.
If your there to work and make a life for yourself then come on in. Your going to stimulate the economy, and build infrastructure. If your there for benefits and have nowhere to go then maybe you don’t come in, especially if you can’t read or write.
BUT…..what we should be doing is helping these countries so these poor souls aren’t having to leave in the first place. And we do that by getting rid of Bankers, Government, Sovereignty, Big Business, Pointless Celebrity, Military, Pharmaceutical companies etc….
If we all lived the same way there wouldn’t be any of this shit.

I’d of worked in every country but now if it wasn’t for immigration.
Bastards. Who are we to say no you can’t come my soil? It’s not even OUR soil, it’s Earths and she belongs to ALL of us in the Universe.

We are ALL responsible for each other, when we have the SJWs and Politically Correct, and Moral Brigade getting offended by every little thing we de evolve ourselves faster than war.
War is tragic and brutal and over with eventually. Take your emotions and freedoms and rights of expression away etc…and it poisons us slowly over centuries.

This is why we are on the dark side of the Black Hole and Brethren aren’t.
We are heading towards that black holes corner pocket faster than we can maintain the balance and we all know what happens when a house gets sucked into the wrong part of the Tornado.

So you choose. Life is choice. Be the change you want to see because know one can fix what is wrong in you because only your compass knows where it’s north is.
Deny it and you deny yourself.
So don’t blame anyone else if you don’t listen to yourself. The answer is in you and has been all along.

The question is how much do you want to be happy and live the life your soul asked for?

I was taught this by the dead. I share it with you to show you that the dead are NOTHING to fear. Nor the Dark Side as just these very last days I had to work WITH the Dark Side to resolve a problem surrounding a Student of mine.

You HAVE to know the Dark to know the Light. It is the balance of life.
Don’t be afraid. I’m trying to show you how, if you just listen and trust your instincts your compass finds it’s way to where it is meant to be every time.

The bad stuff happens because it is meant to, but with bad comes good. With good comes bad. You just have to find the balance.
But as I say The Fear of the Paranormal is never as bad as the reality of it and I’m living proof.
Now I just have to be heard a little louder which is why I need to get to America. I know the course of my true destiny lies there.
My compass is set and I can’t fight the magnets pulling me in and to be honest I don’t want to stop it.
Knowing this path is taking me faster to the light and the happier I become the closer I get to it.
So I won’t jump off any time soon.
Light is soooo right. I can’t even begin to tell you.
But I’m gonna try.
I’ve been crossing over so many Spirits I think maybe it might be my thing lol My main purpose, my true gift. I just can relate to them. They trust me to do the right thing.
But more about that later.

We are deigned to self govern
So when we bottle stuff like shaking a bottle of coke eventually it’s going to explode and erupt. It’s the same with emotion.
I admire people that withdraw and mope
or like me I go off and cry
crying is my release
it’s just in how you choose to deal with it comes the hard part
finding the balance
so get angry and punch a pillow but don’t go out and punch a cow or small child
hahaha

Listen to music that you know can change your vibration, go for a walk, hug a tree, bake a cake, play golf, paint, fish (catch and release or for dinner not for sport or the blood lust), whatever it is you have to do to bring calm to your light. Stop stopping yourself from feeling. Put your anger towards something that gets that kenetic energy out of you. Just put it into the right action. Make good choices when wanting to be angry not bad ones. YOU set the balance. YOU. No one else knows your balance but you. No one IS you but you so no one can understand what YOUR balance is.
And this is what I’m teaching you all, this is what my students are doing. Skiing lessons 🙂
And I’m the Ski Instructor called Sven, but it’s a Military grade Ski Slope so I’m the Drill Instructor as well and I’m sorry but my Teacher was right and I apologize to you now Pauline, can you hear me up there? lol I’m so sorry lol You were right you little tiny person. I am tougher than you. You said I’d be a tough teacher and I laughed at you. I told you I’d bake cakes and tuck them in at night lol
I’m hard Mama, Oh My Blob, I’m like Satan with big tits lol
I’m the Satan of the Paranormal Sciences hahaha bloody typical lol
My poor students lol they are tough man, I’ve not had to drop a student in months and boy have I thrown some shit at them lol
It’s an honor to serve with these men’s and women. We are going to war together to change history forever and I couldn’t ask for a better regiment to serve with.
Our galactic brethren are with us, fighting the good fight and the light is starting to shine.
Soon enough if I can do this right, before I die there will be a few hundred thousand less people afraid of death and what happens after and then we can see death as a celebration because they get to go back to the light if they lived the right life while here.
So get it right. Please listen to what I’m saying in these posts. What I want you all to do is try it. Try the way I’m saying to be. Just for a month or a year listen to what I’m saying. It works. I promise you. You wait till you see my weight loss. Once I’m down to my goal weight you wait till you see the change it made all because I listened to the voices in my head lol The dead.
If I’m wrong……well then I just won’t play anymore lol Your on our own. I’m done lol I quit lol

Love and Light
Mama
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Breaking the Rules To Cross Over 700+ Spirits

Well today is the 07/07/16 and today I broke one of the biggest laws of Paranormal History, certainly in my Society and I feel fantastic.

So let me start from the beginning.

As a lot of you know my marriage has come to an end with My Husband. We are still the best of friends, still looking after our boys and very happy. He will always be my Protector, nothing changes but his depression got the better of him and he and I feel it is better he goes off to paint and heal than stress out over me. But any way this isn’t about that.

While we were talking I kept seeing a young boy standing in my bedroom door way but he wouldn’t come in. He looked from the Tudor days and a little odd looking but I eventually went to sleep without any trouble.

Today I woke up emotional and asked Mr if he could stay home. He said No, but then our son got up and asked the same thing. He booked the day off.

We decided to get out of the house and go to Hardwick Hall in Durham for a nice day out.

As I was getting ready I had a flash of white light. I immediately informed my students as they know I’ll document what I can as it is happening and off we went.

So we walked around the ornate hall and took in all the gazzillions of tapestries that dripped from the walls and the closer I got to the top floor the more I could feel myself going.

I excused myself and went and sat down in the hallway and that is where I meet Lady Arbella Stuart. She stood about 5’4-5’5 with dirty brown hair, it looked greasy and I’ll be honest, she didn’t smell great. Her teeth were killing me.

She came flying up those stairs and was in such a panic. She rushed me and took my breathe away.

She was asking me to get her out. ‘They won’t let me out’ she kept saying. ‘I need to get out of here’. I waited for Mr to come out but he and the boys went the other way out I didn’t see because I never went to the part they went to as I was trying not to fall into Blue lol

I had to leave or I was going to pass out. Her fear was intense. She said they were going to kill her. Her family were going to kill her. They wouldn’t let her leave.

She followed me out. She actually took me to the ex and my boys. Then followed me through the grounds. I was trying to cross her over but the boys were distracting me.

I knew I had to help her though and she was so desperate to get out I had to do something. That’s when I heard Spirit say ‘Tell her to follow you and cross her over away from the house’. It didn’t feel wrong.

Now………….if you know me, you’ll know this is pretty much THEE law of the Universe. You NEVER!!! invite a Spirit in, or ask it to follow you. NEVER!!!!! EVER!!!! I cannot express enough the NEVER EVER part enough.

But it didn’t feel wrong. So began an A Team like operation to help a dead person no one could see escape the grounds of her prison so she could go to the light. If I’m on camera, I’ll end up certified insane lol

I’m clearly seen talking to nothing and moving in a way that looked like I was trying to be inconspicuous lol OMB (Oh my Blob) lol Thank FUCK my boys embrace my crazy.

I felt like my heart was going to jump through my chest. I felt like I was going to pass out from fear.

I left the boys to go to the Play Ground while I took her to the car and there began the tale of 700 hundred Spirits and why I’m about to sleep for a week.

After I had a drink and sat down I began the process of talking her over. She was afraid if she crossed over she would go to her family and she was terrified of them. I told her that anything they did to cause her that amount of fear was a guarantee they won’t be in the same realm of existence as her and  that she only had to look at my light to know I was telling her the truth or why else would she have found me the way she did?

Then shit got real. As I was seeing the white light behind her slowly they came out of the fields and bushes. Men, women and children of all eras. Georgian, Elizabethan, WW1, WW2, Middle Ages etc….men dressed in Dark Blue Air Force uniforms but they weren’t British. Planes, I saw planes, women dressed in overalls coming from the fields, kids in sack cloth, stable boys with horses, men in Powdered wigs, Fops, Dandies, etc……..there must of been at least 700. I couldn’t see the field for people. And I’m getting emotional now because the emotions were high as they were expecting Hope. Hoping for Peace. They were mesmerized by where I was sitting.

I said to Lady Arbella ‘You have a moral duty to help your people cross over with you.’ She said ‘But I never wanted to be Queen’. I said ‘They are your people, you share the same Universe, you breath the same air and you lived on the same planet. We belong to each other’ and she kind of looked like ‘Oh My Blob, I get it….nice one.’ I said to her When your ready, take my hand and go to the light’ and this is where I’m gonna ball my eyes out.

She immediately took my hand without hesitation and went to the light, but she stopped and she looked over. But with that I felt hundreds of taps on my hand. Male, female, child, infant, rough, soft, wet, hot, cold as they all one by one crossed over. It became a constant stream of touches. I couldn’t tell where one hand stopped and another began. It felt incredible.

As I was closing the light Lady Arbella curtsied to me and the Servicemen Saluted as they turned and walked into the closing light. Then I realized why she looked odd. She was the boy standing in the door from last night.

I think she was the reason my son and I felt like Mr had to stay home. So we could help her cross over those people.

I have to add though it wasn’t all Love and Light.

After the Light closed I saw a little boy standing alone. He started growling at me. He was NOT a little boy and he was pissed off. He said he was ‘placed there’ to watch over those grounds and I was in big trouble. So I smoked some weed, had a cup of coffee and told him to kiss my ass. I told him I was more afraid of toothpaste than him and he had no power me as the boys came back to the car and we drove off.

It didn’t quite know what to do.

I then immediately started to struggle with energy. I put some Alison Moyet on and within 20 minutes I was feeling fantastic. We had dinner and I immediately had to sit and document this experience. Had we of caught it on tape I would of posted it. I’m doing it from now on. I promise you.

As we got to the end of the Halls entrance drive she was there, in Spirit. She made it to the other side and she was telling me I was right and Thank You. She said just before she left for good ‘I will NEVER come back to this wicked place again’. I smelt roses after that.

I will never forget her. What a classy dame she is.

Meet my Homegirl Lady Arebella

P.S What a WICKED family indeed. Illuminati much?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lady_Arbella_Stuart

P.P.S It goes without saying that you do NOT ask Spirits to follow you. I am trained. I’m qualified. I know what to do in the most extreme cases but even I’m counting my blessings she was what she said she was or I could of been in trouble.

Only my faith in Spirit made me do it without hesitation. But we’ve been working together for 43 years.

Be Wise please
I’ve woken up this morning (the 8th) feeling shell shocked like ‘Huh? Did that really happen?’.

Killer headache too

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READINGS

Over the past few months I have been learning, studying and developing a variety of new techniques which I have begun encompassing into a new form of reading.
The main aspect of this new technique is giving the client guidance on how they can achieve their goals and find balance unlike a traditional reading which is just predictive.
This will offer guidance from Spirit in regards to things like career, love, money, mental health etc….
I believe I am the first to offer this kind of reading.

In the course of doing so Spirit will show you the future and you can have with the predictions being far more accurate than me trying to pull them out of the ether.
You will learn more about your journey this way as there will be no fear on my part of getting the connection with Spirit wrong.

The sooner people realize Spirit are conscious energy and not physical beings to describe in detail the better the connection will be.
You will be able to learn so much from them if you just listen to the messages rather than look for evidence they are there.

If your having life issues, depression, worried about anything or just want to connect to Spirit and the Universe please come book a reading and let me show you how to follow your compass to perfect balance and peace in your life.

You get 5 questions $50 £35 but your readings will be done either digitally or written in great detail via email. I also do phone calls as well. Even international ones.
You will NOT be disappointed. I will work my ass off helping guide you with all the knowledge of the Universe behind me.

My students and I are on an incredible journey together and one day soon I’ll have more of me to go around but I want to spread Spirits hot sticky love all over the globe and show people how a reading should be done.
Spirit can change your life. You never need to be unhappy, lost or disconnected again if you listen to Spirit.

Email me at debbiedakiwi@gmail.com if your interested.

I am Psychic Therapy or Spiritual Counseling if you will.

I look forward to walking your journey with you.

Love and Light
Debbie

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