Depression: It’s our fault.

As you all know my marriage has come to an end and the Number One contributing factor in this happening is that dirty fuckin word Depression.
In the almost 4 years I’ve been writing this stuff out the number of people who come to me suffering from one form of depression or another has risen exponentially.
I’m talking it was one in 1000 before, but now it’s more like one in 3.

Depression is a pandemic sweeping across the world and we have no one to blame but ourselves.
Why? Because we now live in a world where emotions are bad and being lazy and no longer self motivated to do anything ourselves, we run to Doctors and Governments to do something about it.

No one allows themselves to cry any more, or be angry or hurt.
People, we were given emotions for a reason. They are our release valve. They dump all the toxins in our emotions and psyche and heal us.
But with Fluoride and Artificial Sweeteners, Sugar, Antibiotic filled meats and dairy, the low fat bullshit stripping our brains of the healthy fats we need to coat it and now the medications we take in bucket loads willingly, we have depression when the smallest thing happens.
I bet you no one will have depression when the Cleansing hits and we are all having to fight for tins in the Supermarket lol

Get off your asses and take your Blob Damn life back.
We have an entire Universe full of Conscious love and light out there desperate to teach us the ways of the Universe.
All our loved ones throughout the course of our Evolutionary creation are begging us to listen to what they have to say and what do we do?
We eat cake and watch the Fucking Kardashians.

Also this ‘Labels’ bull shit and the Moral Brigade, these pain in the ass ‘Black Lives matter’ trouble makers and ‘Feminists’ etc…the governments orchestrate these little pockets of sub division so we will run to them to fix it.
Well guess what people? You get the Government you deserve.

They’re coming, and they are bringing tanks and Thought Police. So now you can’t be angry that some cops are out of control because your a Terrorist and if you say anything bad your a Terrorist and threat to the nation you live in.
Even though freedom of speech and expression are in the front of all great nations Declarations or Constitutions.

Remember when we were kids, things were so much less complicated when shit happened.
They are allowed to cry and have tantrums but when your an adult you suddenly need to focus on working and going to University and pay taxes that aren’t even legal.
We hand ourselves over to the Matrix and then wonder why we are unhappy and our souls are crying out for us to be FREE!!!!

People, please, I beg you, STOP allowing yourself the right to have a fuckin emotion. Life is shit sometimes. Its supposed to teach you the lessons YOU asked for before you came here to be you.

We are incredible Vessels of love and light and only a few of us (Empaths) understand this needs to just cry or be worried or whatever.

We have ALL had to rise above shit that when it’s over we have unclenched our butts and breathed a sigh of relief. But life’s issues aren’t the hurdles we think they are. They are stepping stones not hurdles. We place each stone there ourselves.
WE are the masters of our destiny, no God or Deity. US, we are one consciousness. We are ALL one. We are symbiotic and connected by the light in the Universe. This is why we don’t know what is beyond the edge of space because we haven’t finished creating it yet. I’ve seen it. I know how t works. I can step outside all time and see the light and why and how it works because my brian (yes I know I said Brian, watch the animated movie Igor, I LOVE that movie, it is so sweet and I feel like I’m the monster) releases its own DMT it seems without the need for the drug. We all can but mine is just obvious lol

We are ALL supposed to be like me. The way I deal with stress, the way I understand the Universe, the way I leave all the big stuff to fate, my gift is nothing if we are all like it and if everyone was more like me in terms of this gift stuff depression wouldn’t exist.
Anyone can be like me if the want is there to put in the years of dedication and training.

This year should of been the worst of my life. So much has changed. My heart has been broken more times this year than any other in my life and you know how bad my life has been.
Yet I’m the happiest I have EVER been in my entirety of life here as Debbie.
Since I gave over to the fear and allowed myself to focus on following my compass, get it. What I am, what I need to be, what I need to do etc…..to be happy. I found pure light.

And boy am I getting happy. I see only light now. I’m surrounding by spirits hundreds deep, I have the most incredible job. Oh My Blob, my readings I actually enjoy them now because I’m helping those who want direction not answers. So it spreads positivity and hope. Where as before I was always worried I was letting people down. My fear of letting people down made me nervous.

I’m teaching thee most incredibly loyal, gifted, loving students. They all tell me how they followed their gut to find me. (They followed their compass) and of my senior students I can honestly say I have found my family.
Even when I’ve had to go Dark to teach certain lessons these last few days they ALL understand why it had to be done and never judged me and in fact by having their support and permission it illuminated many truths and brought certain people to the light who should never have found it in the first place.

My sons are so clever and funny. They are bat shit crazy like their parents but they are individuals and happy even with all this going on with Mr Ex.
But they embrace my crazy and now my 7 year old is in to Physics. Even has theories of his own we like to discuss.

Mr Ex and I? We are the best of friends and will continue to love and support each other through out all of time. All divorces should be like ours. I’m taking nothing but what is mine, and he will help me with the boys without lawyers getting involved. No drama, just healing.

Everything in life has an opposite, for balance. Without perfect balance nothing can evolve. Left/Right, Up/Down, Light/Dark, Yes/No, Good smells/Bad smells, Love/Hate, Day/Night, Sleep/Wake, Run/Walk, Laugh/Cry etc…..you name it, it will have an opposite. So you have to know that when your depressed because your marriage is over, the good times WILL come. It has to. It’s Universal law of balance. But what is happening with us on earth is there are so many of you suffering from some form of emotional or Spirit blockage that we are now tipping the balance the wrong way. We either go up the ladder to light which is evolution and all knowledge, all time, all creation, everything, or we tip it the other way to dark and de evoling or nothingness. Which everything in the Universe including the dark are trying to avoid.
Nothing wants to go down the wrong part of the Black Hole. I call it The Tornado Effect.

By us not doing anything about our situations we head further and further into the black hole (metaphoric black hole of life I mean this time not the actual black hole like I meant last time).

So how to beat depression?
Honestly? Grow up. Embrace the suck, admit your dramas, get off our medication, stop trying to pass the responsibility for your bad decisions onto other people, own your problems, take responsibility and get off processed garbage. Sugar and Fluoride, MSG, SLF, Sweeteners, all that shit is killing our brains, turn off your Blob Damn TVS and read a book, go for a walk, stop being fed the lies that your not good enough. Do what makes you happy and fuck every body else. You will give love and support where you earn it. Give respect where you get it, love with all of your heart, do what you love and love what you do. Stop working jobs you hate and follow your dream. It’s better to try and be happy than fail at being happy?
Know that you chose this life for the very lessons your running away from. So face them head on.
You ask for this life. The reason your so miserable is your Third self or Highest Self knows it is here to have the Human Experience and by you fighting your compass trying to point north your denying yourself the experience you sent yourself down here to learn.

If you are living a life where you wish you were doing something else then your pointing your dial away from North. Over time that wears heavy on the dial. Now imagine your intuition is the dial and the decisions you make the magnetic force pulling that dial to North. So like a magnets polarity pushing when your put two magnets against each other, your pushing your Soul away from where it was set to be all along.

So everything you do, every thought, every action, every decision, every plan has it’s opposite response. So if you make a positive decision, a positive plan, do something there is also the alternative to it out there. The potential of what could be if you make the wrong decision.
Your gut, your intuition is your compass and no one listens to it but me lol
I’m the only idiot brave enough to listen to every gut feeling and thought BUT I’ve lost 200lbs and found the love of loves because of it. I have an incredible career now and a book coming out and I’m fighting the fight to get to New England (well that area). I’m happier than I’ve ever been and at 43 I now have a 25yr old in love with me hahahahaha (I KNOOOOW RIIIIIGHT?) lol
Bless him the silly boy lol

But I did ALL the things my compass told me to do and my life has changed so dramatically I now welcome the bad shit that happens because the Universal law of Balance dictates that what turns to shit also turns to roses 🙂
That’s why you enjoy the positives in life because it can change in an instant but it’s AAAALLLL based on what you do with what happens next that decides what happens next.

See life as you standing on a pair of skis. One ski is Light, Positive, Evolution of your Spiritual Self, the Other Ski Dark, Negative and De Evolving on a Spiritual level.
Our job while having the human experience is to balance just right on those skis, not too dark, not too light just going at the right speed to have our journey. But soon enough you get the balance just right so your skis go so fast that before you know it your traveling at the speed of what??????? Anyone?………LIGHT!!!
Good Students. I know the 4 that had their hands up immediately already from here lol (see…..Time Traveller lol)
Get it now?
Sort your shit out and watch how fast you get to the light and evolve?
My light is blinding now I’m going so fast.
Many of my students have just gotten on the slopes so I can’t wait till they catch up and they will because my experiences mean I can show them how to avoid the hard stuff. I have the cheats to life lol no having to go through the shit I went through to know what I know.
Some still have the fear but honestly if your that miserable in your life, surely trying to be happy is worth giving it a go because if it doesn’t work you haven’t lost anything and you can say ‘See I told me so’ lol
Nothing found nothing lost right?

You owe this to yourself and your Ancestors to try. Otherwise you’ll be back down for sure.
We are those kinds of nerdy Spirits lol it’s ALL about the Lesson of the Human experience.
That’s why we do it. But we control what happens, when and how. Fight or Flee.
I used to think everything was predestined but it isn’t. We choose it all. Everything, even when we die.

I chose to fight and I’ve been fighting like a bastard these last 12 months Oh My Blob.

Oh and the reason I am anti Black Lives Matter is because I think ALL lives matter. I’d like to see the people protest the Asian Slaves in the textile and sex industry etc….the African Diamond slaves, The Eastern European Orphans, (All Orphans tbh), First Nations, Aboriginals, LGBT, Men, Hispanics, Muslims,Palestinians, Homeless, Gypsies Animals, Women, The Elderly, Black people, Irish, Gingers, Nerds, Handicap, Mentally challenged, even ugly Spiders the Devils Minions, ALL lives matter, I could be here all day,trees, plants, even dark side, all victims in some way, and we allow it to not matter. We all have good and bad versions. Your going to get good Priets and bad ones, Good Teachers and Bad ones, Good Judges and DAs and bad ones, good black/White/Hispanic/Catholic/Muslim/Gay/Straight/Handicapped you get my drift, I could go on and on. But you know what I mean. If you don’t agree that ALL lives matter then your to blame for the state of all of this in this world. Your either a part of the solution or a part of the problem because that’s the balance lol See how it works? lol
See….I told you I wasn’t crazy lol The dead people in my head taught this stuff. Lol
Wait till I do my book called The Science of the Paranormal.

So we are all to blame for this shit. We got what we deserved.
We are living our collective Spiritual Karma.

A handful of people tell us who to hate and we obey. Even though deep down we know it’s wrong.
Immigration…….we ALL come from Immigrants. We ALL came from somewhere. No one will be 100% pure anything.

The trouble isn’t letting someone in from a different country but letting everyone in without checking the moral fibre of the person you let in.
If your there to work and make a life for yourself then come on in. Your going to stimulate the economy, and build infrastructure. If your there for benefits and have nowhere to go then maybe you don’t come in, especially if you can’t read or write.
BUT…..what we should be doing is helping these countries so these poor souls aren’t having to leave in the first place. And we do that by getting rid of Bankers, Government, Sovereignty, Big Business, Pointless Celebrity, Military, Pharmaceutical companies etc….
If we all lived the same way there wouldn’t be any of this shit.

I’d of worked in every country but now if it wasn’t for immigration.
Bastards. Who are we to say no you can’t come my soil? It’s not even OUR soil, it’s Earths and she belongs to ALL of us in the Universe.

We are ALL responsible for each other, when we have the SJWs and Politically Correct, and Moral Brigade getting offended by every little thing we de evolve ourselves faster than war.
War is tragic and brutal and over with eventually. Take your emotions and freedoms and rights of expression away etc…and it poisons us slowly over centuries.

This is why we are on the dark side of the Black Hole and Brethren aren’t.
We are heading towards that black holes corner pocket faster than we can maintain the balance and we all know what happens when a house gets sucked into the wrong part of the Tornado.

So you choose. Life is choice. Be the change you want to see because know one can fix what is wrong in you because only your compass knows where it’s north is.
Deny it and you deny yourself.
So don’t blame anyone else if you don’t listen to yourself. The answer is in you and has been all along.

The question is how much do you want to be happy and live the life your soul asked for?

I was taught this by the dead. I share it with you to show you that the dead are NOTHING to fear. Nor the Dark Side as just these very last days I had to work WITH the Dark Side to resolve a problem surrounding a Student of mine.

You HAVE to know the Dark to know the Light. It is the balance of life.
Don’t be afraid. I’m trying to show you how, if you just listen and trust your instincts your compass finds it’s way to where it is meant to be every time.

The bad stuff happens because it is meant to, but with bad comes good. With good comes bad. You just have to find the balance.
But as I say The Fear of the Paranormal is never as bad as the reality of it and I’m living proof.
Now I just have to be heard a little louder which is why I need to get to America. I know the course of my true destiny lies there.
My compass is set and I can’t fight the magnets pulling me in and to be honest I don’t want to stop it.
Knowing this path is taking me faster to the light and the happier I become the closer I get to it.
So I won’t jump off any time soon.
Light is soooo right. I can’t even begin to tell you.
But I’m gonna try.
I’ve been crossing over so many Spirits I think maybe it might be my thing lol My main purpose, my true gift. I just can relate to them. They trust me to do the right thing.
But more about that later.

We are deigned to self govern
So when we bottle stuff like shaking a bottle of coke eventually it’s going to explode and erupt. It’s the same with emotion.
I admire people that withdraw and mope
or like me I go off and cry
crying is my release
it’s just in how you choose to deal with it comes the hard part
finding the balance
so get angry and punch a pillow but don’t go out and punch a cow or small child
hahaha

Listen to music that you know can change your vibration, go for a walk, hug a tree, bake a cake, play golf, paint, fish (catch and release or for dinner not for sport or the blood lust), whatever it is you have to do to bring calm to your light. Stop stopping yourself from feeling. Put your anger towards something that gets that kenetic energy out of you. Just put it into the right action. Make good choices when wanting to be angry not bad ones. YOU set the balance. YOU. No one else knows your balance but you. No one IS you but you so no one can understand what YOUR balance is.
And this is what I’m teaching you all, this is what my students are doing. Skiing lessons 🙂
And I’m the Ski Instructor called Sven, but it’s a Military grade Ski Slope so I’m the Drill Instructor as well and I’m sorry but my Teacher was right and I apologize to you now Pauline, can you hear me up there? lol I’m so sorry lol You were right you little tiny person. I am tougher than you. You said I’d be a tough teacher and I laughed at you. I told you I’d bake cakes and tuck them in at night lol
I’m hard Mama, Oh My Blob, I’m like Satan with big tits lol
I’m the Satan of the Paranormal Sciences hahaha bloody typical lol
My poor students lol they are tough man, I’ve not had to drop a student in months and boy have I thrown some shit at them lol
It’s an honor to serve with these men’s and women. We are going to war together to change history forever and I couldn’t ask for a better regiment to serve with.
Our galactic brethren are with us, fighting the good fight and the light is starting to shine.
Soon enough if I can do this right, before I die there will be a few hundred thousand less people afraid of death and what happens after and then we can see death as a celebration because they get to go back to the light if they lived the right life while here.
So get it right. Please listen to what I’m saying in these posts. What I want you all to do is try it. Try the way I’m saying to be. Just for a month or a year listen to what I’m saying. It works. I promise you. You wait till you see my weight loss. Once I’m down to my goal weight you wait till you see the change it made all because I listened to the voices in my head lol The dead.
If I’m wrong……well then I just won’t play anymore lol Your on our own. I’m done lol I quit lol

Love and Light
Mama
xoxox

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READINGS

Over the past few months I have been learning, studying and developing a variety of new techniques which I have begun encompassing into a new form of reading.
The main aspect of this new technique is giving the client guidance on how they can achieve their goals and find balance unlike a traditional reading which is just predictive.
This will offer guidance from Spirit in regards to things like career, love, money, mental health etc….
I believe I am the first to offer this kind of reading.

In the course of doing so Spirit will show you the future and you can have with the predictions being far more accurate than me trying to pull them out of the ether.
You will learn more about your journey this way as there will be no fear on my part of getting the connection with Spirit wrong.

The sooner people realize Spirit are conscious energy and not physical beings to describe in detail the better the connection will be.
You will be able to learn so much from them if you just listen to the messages rather than look for evidence they are there.

If your having life issues, depression, worried about anything or just want to connect to Spirit and the Universe please come book a reading and let me show you how to follow your compass to perfect balance and peace in your life.

You get 5 questions $50 £35 but your readings will be done either digitally or written in great detail via email. I also do phone calls as well. Even international ones.
You will NOT be disappointed. I will work my ass off helping guide you with all the knowledge of the Universe behind me.

My students and I are on an incredible journey together and one day soon I’ll have more of me to go around but I want to spread Spirits hot sticky love all over the globe and show people how a reading should be done.
Spirit can change your life. You never need to be unhappy, lost or disconnected again if you listen to Spirit.

Email me at debbiedakiwi@gmail.com if your interested.

I am Psychic Therapy or Spiritual Counseling if you will.

I look forward to walking your journey with you.

Love and Light
Debbie

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Drag in Heaven

This is a subject my Boy Henry asked me about and made me realize this need to be said.

If your gay in this life are you gay in the next?

The Answer? NO!!! Sexuality doesn’t exist in Spirit. Sex doesn’t exist. We are one energy. Like all the sparks that connect to illuminate a light we are all one.

People wrongly believe that Spirits are sexual. Is a radio wave sexual? Is a frequency sexual? Um…..NO. So just like how Spirits don’t eat or sleep they don’t get aroused and anyone who says they do is an idiot. Seriously.

BUT!!! That don’t mean to say these Fabulous Divas don’t like to Drag it up when they come through.

I am a STAUNCH supporter of Gay Rights and I think the LGBT community are some of THEE bravest, strongest most resilient sub group of human in the history of the world.

Being Gay isn’t a new thing. Most Mammals go a bit gay when a partner isn’t available. Especially Deer and Antelope lol Them Bitches like some ‘Heeeeeey’ from a same sex sister. And why not? Rock on. Sex rocks.

But there is no T and NO shade in Spirit if you lived this life as Gay, Lesbian or Transgender. We have so much historical proof that being either L G B or T existed.

Alexander the Great, Leonardo Da Vinci, J Edgar Hoover (was a Transvestite), Michelangelo, Walt Witman, Abe Lincoln, Oscar Wilde, (some say there is a future King who is too), Tennesse Williams, Rock Hudson, Lawrence Olivier, Eleanor Roosevelt,  Cary Grant, Anthony Perkins, some of these I got online but the most I knew and I’m straight.

The truth is, if we weren’t meant to be LGBT we wouldn’t be. If it’s organic and it exists it is meant to be.

I’d like to share with you a couple of stories close to my heart because I knew and loved these people personally and I hadn’t even thought about it until my Henry reminded me and I think this will be a great way to honour their memories.

So I’d like to dedicate this to my cousin David aka Daphne and Adam aka Goldie Horny.

Both victims to Suicide. Both had struggles dealing with the issues surrounding Bigotry and prejudice of the 90s. Thankfully it’s not as bad now but it STILL needs addressing. It makes me sick to my stomach the way these Warriors and Heroines are treated still in some cultures and countries.

But in the early 90s we still had the fear of the government engineered diseases AIDS and HIV hanging over us and it created a swath of fear among people that caused some apparent poo flinging Homophobic Retards (and it is retarded if you look at the real definition of the word) to use it as an excuse to throw shit around.

adj.

 
1. Occurring or developing later than desired or expected; delayed.
2. Offensive SlangSocially inappropriate or foolish.
The third definition is fairly recent in comparison.
My boys tried and failed in recognizing their beautiful state of creation and neither could stay here. They took flights home early and broke many hearts. The thing that breaks my heart the most is Adam was only 15. I’ll never forget being told about either of them. Oh Adam isn’t his real name by the way. (I need to protect his identity for personal reasons).
Two weeks after burying David he turned up in my room in the MOST spectacular fashion.
Bitch had more Gold on him than the 70s lol
He had on thee most flouncy Gold dress on with MASSIVE bat wings, wig, make up, FULL drag and in those days Garage Doors were big. He made a bigger entrance than RuPaul and took to that stage with more pride and enthusiasm than a Gay Pride Parade. She was BANGING. She looked sooooooooo happy. She had a message for his family which I did pass on to my cousin later on (his sister) and never saw him again. But the fact he did that means when he crossed over Daphne felt free FINALLY to be all she was in all her Fabulous Fishy glory.
That brought me peace and I was only 19 at the time.
Adam was in desperate need of acceptance and basically needed a Drag Mother but growing up in small town New Zealand was hard for him and his parents just couldn’t grasp the concept of him being what he was so he too decided to ‘opt out’ of his life contract. The thing that fucks me off the most, the thing that makes me SO fuckin angry is that even in death he wasn’t allowed to be free. No one who was ‘different’ was even allowed near his funeral and no one was to mention his little ‘mental health issue’ and I’m getting upset as I type this because he was such a beautiful soul. I taught him as best I could with make up. He would come and sit and use all  make up even though this little Maori boy was tanned and I’m casper but he just LOVED being around the make up. I taught him to shade and contour but my God, no offense Baby Boy but your taste in clothing was terrible lol He tried it ALL. I used to say ‘he’s step out in everything on the rack’. ‘Less is more’ I’d said  and he said ‘No darling, more is more’. lol
15 and such a mouth on him. He’d of been a good pal for Bianca Del Rio. In fact Queen Bianca is the one who would of been his idol if he was still here because he had the acerbic quick wit too.
When I was 17 I went to stay with my cousin in Sydney, Australia and he took me to The Underground and The Rainbow Bar in the late 80’s and it fuckin rocked. I’d never seen men in gimp masks and leather before and it was hot.
It was all to wall leather, mouth balls, whips and lots of gay 80’s mustaches.
One of my cousins pals Darren was a dancer for Miss Kylie Minogue and I often cooked a roast chicken for him and his pals before they headed out lol
The Rainbow was incredible. It was full of beautiful people Id never seen before. No one cared I was there, although they might have thought I was gay which would of been cool too. But the music. OMG can anyone do music like the gays? The energy, the dancing, the drugs, the nakedness, it was tantalizing and hot.
I always wanted to see David go from David to Daphne and never got the chance but I do know that when he came through with this Milli Vanilli style wig on and his arms out stretched in a flowing ‘I have arrived’ style it gave me chills.
 He changed my life that day he took me to those clubs.
I was submersed in a hot, exciting, sexy, energetic culture I have embraced ever since.
It was the BEST experience of my life. My first drag act I saw I cried because I was so in awe of the most beautiful Queen I’d EVER seen in my life. She was total Fish. You could NOT tell she was male underneath all that beauty. Her lady parts were tighter than mine and I was 17 lol
I knew then at the age of 17 I was going to be a Drag Queen when I grow up.
The LGBT community are inspiring and brave. They are strong and resilient and I am SO SO SO PROUD to be a world where they exist.
Life would be fuckin shit without you. Our art, fashion and music would fuckin suck.
I personally think anyone who is homophobic has hidden gay tendencies and are just jealous that the LGBT community are higher achievers and make better money than the Straighees. It’s a known fact that gay men have higher IQs than straight and gay men and women are higher achievers who make better money.
Why wouldn’t we be jealous? If I looked like Alexis Mateo, Milk, Ivy Winters, Raven, Juju Bee, or Miss Ru I’d be all over myself lol I’d be in full drag getting my smear test lol
I’d be more Drag than Drag.
Adam when he came through the night after he left us, he took my breathe away and he was like ‘Debbie, Debbie, look, look what they did to me, look, I’m GORGEOUS, LOOK.’
And he did look stunning. His make up was beat down, like BEAT DOWN. He was flawless and his outfit was unlike anything I’d ever seen before.
I was so so SO proud of him. He shone like a star and his light has never faded and that was 1987.
I’m from the Pacific Islands and in my culture and surrounding Polynesian islands Transgender people are considered Blessed. They are seen as being Twin Souls. Both Male and Female. Which is a blessing because they get to understand both sexes.
There is a STUNNING Queen I’d love to introduce you to. SHE is my heroine. I adore her and you should too.

 

http://www.theguardian.com/football/2014/aug/29/jaiyah-saelua-transgender-footballer-interview

People stupidly think if your from the islands as we are, we are backwards. We may have gotten microwaves 20yrs after they were invented but we know when we are blessed with something special in our midst. We can’t be that backwards if we knew centuries before hand that if your Trans your blessed. So get over it White People. EVEN in IRAN, IRAN, YES IRAN you can get your gender reassignment surgery for free.
Yes they have a lot to learn but it’s better than most countries who claim to be all cool and copacetic.
Africa is the continent that needs the kick up the ass. Boy are they in for a fright after the cleansing lol

These are the people we should be getting our respect. Not the Fucking Kardasians and Beyonces of the world. Our LGBT Souls are the very epitome of strength, courage, poise, beauty and dignity.

So my Gay, Lesbian, Bi and Transgender brothers, sisters and sisters, hold your heads up high. You are represented in Spirit in the highest order and you steal the show every time let me tell you.

Never have I had a Spirit come through to a theme tune as they make their entrance. Daphne came through to I’m Coming OUT BY Diana Ross and even now when I hear that song it takes me back to seeing him shine that fuckin gold Bat Wing dress brighter than the glitter ball that was dangling over his head lol

If your LGBT and you have no where to go, if you need to talk or need a Drag Mother, you come to me. Your safe here with me and I know people………….I can get you to safety, I can get you protection, advice or Love.

I might be bat shit crazy but no one has more love for you than me.

Even my 6’5 Scottish Mr wants to dress in full drag. He gets it too. Your too fabulous to not want to emulate. My 7yr old son watches RuPauls Drag Race on Netflix and has all Ru’s Albums on his player. He loves Glamazon and if he grows up to be Gay Bi or Trans we will love and support him within an inch of his life. The truth is I’d want to immerse myself in his world lol he’s get pissed off and be straight just to annoy me lol

BUT he is 100% straight which makes me even prouder. When he grows up he said he wants to have a wife and be a Cardio Thorasic Surgeon and have kids, live next door to me and go to Drag Shows. So I know I’m raising my Babies right.

My Gemini baby wouldn’t notice.

The truth is the world would suck without gay folk and there is something seriously wrong with our so called modern society if we can’t live and let live. Who are we do judge anyone?

There is certainly no judgement in the After Life. In Fact I’ve had straight Spirits come through a big fabulous too now that I think about it.

It’s called Gay not Miserable.

Lesbi Gay together 🙂

 

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What is an Empath?

I know I have done a post about this before but I really do get so angry when people misuse this word because no true Empath would use this word like it was margarine.  It spreads about all thick and horrible and sticks to your tongue wrong.

But the reason why it pisses me off is this

An Empath is often the ones who commit suicide because they live in a world full of emotions society and family tell them is wrong or not normal. Then school smashes any sense of independence and free thought out of them and we lose the will to fight.

Now luckily some of us ARE raised to understand that our sensitive nature is a gift. That it’s a good thing.  We just get used to being the softy (or gentle giant) as I was known.

But the truth is, it hurts bad to be an Empath. Most manic depressives are Empaths. Bipolar disorder is an Empath thing.

We are so connected to the planet and life, when we see suffering, pain, hurt, fear, love, joy, passion etc…we absorb it like a sponge. And the only way to release the energy you absorb is to cry or go with the emotion your feeling and as long as it is contained and directly only at the Empath themselves (ie they lay down and cry or drive for a bit. I  personally listen to music or cry into my Protectors/loved ones arms)

However, mixed with what I am, who I am, what I have grown to be since my detox, I’ve realized there is another Empathic trait which I hate and that is the lack of ability to keep friends for long.

I know I appear crazy to most but I love with the atomic force of a billion Suns. If I love you I own you in my heart and death doesn’t part me. I am a Scorpio Rat as well so I’m loyalty personified. When I say I love you, I would die for that love.

But I’ve lost every friend I’ve ever loved. The thing is, I know I’m a handful. I’m full on. I work 20 hours a day, I live on 800-1000 calories a day, I’m getting a body I thought I could only dream of and I’ve gotten a little sassy, I admit that. But only because I’m happy. I’m happier now than I have ever been at any point on my life. I’ve never had a muscle sculptured body before. I’m 43. I’ve been fat most of my life.

You hurt me so bad. More than any of the others because I thought you were a gentlemen.

But also why can’t I cry for you? Why can’t I worry when you call me sad and drunk? You called me. I love that you call me. But don’t get upset that I then worry for two days because I don’t hear from you.

It’s not fair that I never get to have a male friend who can look at my top and say ‘Don’t like that, change it.’ If your my friend, your going to get treated the same as everyone I love. Male or Female.

But everything I do, everything I’ve done for you friends who left me, did it count for nothing? My Loyalty? Did it mean nothing that you could just walk away even when I storm off and come back (which I warn you about a 1000 times. I’m crazy but I’m honest with my crazy. I’m not afraid to say ‘If we fight, let me storm off, I will be back’).

Being Empathic hurts like hell and it’s a gift that helps heal but hurts you in the process. I love everyone when I met them until proven otherwise. I give everyone the benefit of the doubt and always forgive if someone says sorry and I know they mean it. Or if you make me sit down and talk it out I adore you even more.

BUT I know I’m being taught a lesson about opening my book a little too wide. I am an open book now. I have to be so people can see how normal and insane a life with Spirit is. I’m not afraid of anything now and I’m finally getting the confidence to be the me I always was but had to hide so if you don’t like it fuck off.

Don’t come into my life and be all ‘Oh best friend’ if you don’t know the meaning of the word. I’m True Blue and maybe your just not meant to have a friend like me. I might be sassy and blunt,  sensitive and emotional but some people love that about me and that’s fine too.

Because at the end of the day I’m a magnet and the people I’m meant to have love me find me and stick to me and love me crazy and all.

If you have an Empath in your life, don’t make fun of them, if you can take the worst pain you’ve ever felt and times it by 100 that is your loved one hurting for someone, or watching you hurt.

Yes we can’t watch movies like the Green Mile or pretty much any Disney movie. And we cry if we think we have upset you, or because we saw like………a kitten lick a puppy or something but this world is being fed fear and lies.

We live in such a cynical world now where we are defensive and cruel, angry and worried. Debt and consumerism consume the very core of us. We are fed sex and reality TV so we will stop thinking. It’s the only reason drugs are illegal. Because they make people think. Blob forbid we start having free thought aye?

Ock never mind. It’s over for them now. Those powers that be.

But people are too afraid to step away from the propaganda and live without fear. I’m not going down like that and neither are my students. I wanna teach this stuff to the entire world. No one has to listen, no one has to like what I say, I don’t do this for you. I do it for those who’s compass was set to find me.

Empaths follow their compass and if they do it right, they get what I found. I found Light. Pure Light. It has changed me entire life. It is unrecognizable from Jan 16.

I’ve lost 200lbs in 13 months.

No exercise at all for the first 8 months. ALL my illnesses are gone. I’ve not been to the Dr once this year. No medications anymore. I’m 100% organic. I work out and LOVE it. I’m getting totally ripped. I have abs, teeny tiny abs and only have about 3 months to go before I’m at my target size 12-14. I’m a 14 now but was aiming for an 18 but I actually have hip bones and hardly any fat on most parts of my body. It melted off. I’m just toning up now and 90% of my exercises are done with me on the bed lol I have muscle definition showing lol who knew at 43 you could feel 22 lol

I’m experiencing time travel stuff on a weekly basis now and I feel so incredibly at peace now the Cleansing is in full swing. Earth is getting happier with every day. The shift is happening and we are about to tip the balance.

A true Empath will know what I mean by this. They will KNOW the signs of this which I speak.

But we are a blessing. We are a beacon of light in your life and it might piss you off that we don’t react the way ‘normal’ people do but we aren’t normal and the sooner you realize that the happier you’ll be with us.

We aren’t normal. We are unique and special. That’s why it’s called ‘Gift’ and not Post HA!! lol

I’m sorry I lost you as besties, friends, clients, students, family because I loved you all genuinely and yes I’m human. I have life happen to, so I’m gonna have human infallibility  but you judged ME for them not the other way around. Instead of asking me to explain or whatever you reacted. And I’m a Scorpio, when I feel attacked my tail comes up, BUT our friendships ended NOT because I stung you, but because I chose to sting myself to protect you and that fuckin pisses me right off. You all just let me go. And that is your right. But please don’t ever say I didn’t try. I’ll always try for the people I love. And I loved you. I genuinely did. All of you.

But I have to let go now. Because it’s creating something I can’t have in me as I go forward.

I might not have best friends, or some clients, students, family (I loved) in the true sense now but I have something better. I have an ex husband who is now THEE Ultimate Best friend. Students who are now either my children or my siblings. I have people bending over backwards to help me or just to listen to my teachings. I have beautiful kids, a healthy body, and happy heart and a heart that is totally in love. My heart is full and spilling over. Because the great thing about being an empath is we reflect the love we receive back 10 fold.

So if you have a problem with us, the problem is with you not us because we are simply mirrors or reflections of how you treat us. So be kind and loving and understanding and you’ll be adored, worshiped and spared from full bat shit crazy lol

I love being crazy lol I have more fun crazy and if loving this much is crazy then I’m certifiable because I’m at the point now where I’m hugging random people in the street just to have contact. I had to squeeze past a woman of about 50 in the Post Office the other day and said ‘Shall we dance hot stuff……wooohoooo’ as I touched her shoulders so I could squeeze past without falling over’ (we really did have a tight squeeze but the other aisles were blocked so I had no choice and I was in heels so it wasn’t easy getting past coz I wear heels now lol I’m going girly again lol I’m buying nice underwear, no more up to your feckin neck Nana knickers lol You know the ones I mean? the ones they’d use for a sail if you had to build a boat real fast???? lol They could hold like 20 Cambodian babies if you needed to weigh them real quick…..those ones lol Now……..I got jiggle in my wiggle hehehe).

But my love is getting out of control. I’m smiling at everyone and doing things like ……..I was walking up to an old boy who was walking with a cane and he knew he was holding me up from going past and I just put my hand on his back and said ‘It’s okay my Darling we will do this together and slide to his side with my hand on his back still and walked him to where he was going, opened the door for him them curtsied at him. He smiled so hard and tipped his hat but who the fuck even does that? He could of thought I was a serial killer lol

I’m serially happy is what I am. I can’t stop smiling. I smile wide big smiles. I am the crazy lady who dances to music in public now if the songs vibration hits the right maths.

But I’m so happy SO happy. When I’m happy I love EVERYONE like a lover lol But the Planet is smiling a lot now because of what I call The Domino Effect. And the people who love me, really do fuckin love me so I reflect it back.

I want to squeeze people so hard their bones pop out of their skin I’m so happy.

Its not a gift to be taken lightly and can be easily manipulated by the wrong people. So I have to make sure my readers understand the importance of not misusing the word.

You wouldn’t call  Poison, Candy so don’t get this wrong either. Have respect for the word and the definition of the word. It’s Sympathy on an Empathic level. Look it up. Ancient word.

And you could of been this happy if you trusted me without judgement.

Oh Wait……….you didn’t.

‘S’cool though, I got you. I’ma be iiiight for real’ as M would say.

My Love for you, those readers, students, friends, clients etc…..that get me. If I ever meet you, you’ll see there is nothing fake about me. I am what I appear to be and I know a lot of you think being my friend or student is a good thing on paper. I’m a lot to take on board. I will demand constant contact. Not because I’m creepy but because when I love I connect with you on a level no one ever will. So I can get inside you and know how to fix you when your broken, make you laugh when your sad, make you feel beautiful when you feel ugly, guide you through life, and I’ll move mountains. I’ll stay up till 5am for you and send you gifts with the little I have because I didn’t want you to have a birthday alone. If you say you need something or want something I’ll move mountains to get it for you, or die trying.

But I’m learning sooooooooo much. ‘No more counting dollars, I’ll be counting stars’. That’s me in a song. The dead are all up there and I know it now I understand the lot. EVEN the big bang.

My happiness is reflecting and I wouldn’t stop this ride for anything in the world. No amount of money can give me this much peace and love. No fear is priceless and all you have to do is love and listen to the voices in your head lol

Did you know the Milky Way was the balance for Black Holes? lol everything has a balance as you know.

Anyway call me crazy, but if you call me friend I EXPECT a lot from you. I don’t ever want to not be myself again. So if I offend you I’m sorry but that’s your problem not mine. If you can’t accept me for all my quirks and madness then don’t call me friend please because it kills me fuckin dead when you leave me.

If it wasn’t for weed and Kevin Hart and Kevin Bridges on Netflix making me laugh I’d be devastated. lol

I’m not for everyone and that’s okay. But if you want to love me, let me love you MY way not yours.

And STOP saying your Empathic if your not. A real one doesn’t go round telling people everything on the planet hurts them like hell because it is a suffering condition not a bragging one.

Love is pain sometimes.

 

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Love: I get it now

John Lennon once sang ‘All you need is love’. And they killed him.
But his message while never forgotten, never reached all the ears that were meant to listen. The biggest lesson Spirit have taught me in the 43 years of my life is ‘If your not doing it for the love, your not doing it for the right reasons.’

People are suffering, suffering for their art, suffering for survival, suffering for their cause.
My ex husband works long hours, grueling hours, on his art because he loves what he does so much, he knows it comes with sacrifices.
I supported him, even when I missed him, because I loved him so much.
I’m not a Super Model, I’ve never been known for my looks but I’ve never been without a boyfriend or partner. I’ve always had a way of knowing what a man wants. (My trouble is I give too much control over to the men I’m with and it drains me of all they loved about me in the first place. Not now)

Whatever he is into, I learn, so we have something to talk about.
All to often in my job I’ve had women coming to me for a reading wanting to know why the men they are with are no longer the men they fell in love with.
And the answer is always the same.
‘You dated a man you thought you could change and you ended up changing so much about him he is no longer recognizable.’
There are so many men and women who crush the Spirit of their partner when they see things in them they don’t like, then no longer recognize the things they saw in them they originally loved in the first place.
That isn’t love.
Love is worth hurting for. Love is with the sacrifices being made to be together.
My ex husband gets up every day to work his ass off so I can stay home and raise our boys. I get to work from home because of him and that is why when I’m in a position to I’m going to retire him and pay for him to just sit and paint.
It is the least I can do for him because he broke himself so I could learn everything I have learned about my gift, Spirit, The Paranormal and now the Universe.

I work pretty much full time, helping where I can but he takes all that pressure off me so I can concentrate on educating and nurturing our boys with the best life we can give them. Because he loves me as the Mother of his children and as his best friend.
The fact our marriage broke down doesn’t mean we then ha to hate each other. Because of the rare nature of who he and I are, we are able to push past the hurt and just love each other as friends, parents to two incredible boys, fellow human doings and Universal beings. That is love.
No lawyers, no hate, no alimony, no visitation orders, just a happier path for us both that run parallel to each other.

He endured 16 years of emotional bullshit, threats and abuse from his own family because he loves me.
He has given up all of his holiday days, sick days, and even lost wages taking unpaid leave to take care of me when I was dealing with all my health issues because he loved me.
People have divorced for less and it’s because none of those couples loved each other.
Not really.
Love is hard to get a hold of but once you have it, and I mean REALLY have it, the hard stuff doesn’t seem so hard.
Some one once said ‘True love is wanting to kill your partner but never going through with it.’ and with the exception of things like adultery, addiction or abusive behavior, most things our partners do to upset us are forgivable and can be worked on.

By abuse I mean, physical, mental, verbal, sexual, financial, etc….
If you have ever been in love, REALLY been in love you’ll know how much it hurts. To know love is to know pain.
But love can save the world. Love can stop wars. Love can change the entire way you see the world, the Universe and the Dead.

The reason why Spirit keep on at us even though we are idiots who run around with cameras flashing in their non existent faces, and putting our hands through their energy is because they love us.
Even though we don’t give ourselves the time to get to know them, even though we might not or mostly don’t have any genetic history with that Spirit (meaning they might not be a family member or ancestor) they still put themselves through exhausting, and often time consuming, contact with us because they love us and want to guide us on our journey to becoming enlightened and happy Souls.

The same goes with our ‘Galactic Family’.
The reason they come to keep an eye over us because we are war mongering idiots who instead of allowing ourselves to educate, protect, nurture, heal and love each other and our beautiful planet we fight and steal, lie and cheat each other out of having Love.
True Love.
Love really does make the world go round.
While Governments are threatening to shoot on sight, terrified refugees who were forced to flea their own countries because of the wars those very countries who want to shoot them created.

Yet among it are these beautiful, truly Spiritual souls who are offering food and sanctuary to these refugees because they understand what it is we are all meant to be. It should be the first reaction we have when we see any living breathing soul in need to want to go to their aid and offering them help, or love.

We allow ourselves to be divided by the colour of our skin, by our religious beliefs, by the uniforms we wear, by the money in our bank accounts and by the soil that lay under our feet at the time of birth.

But the truth is, this is ALL of our planet. No one owns this planet. It wasn’t given to all of us. We were allowed to simple share the same space. It’s on loan to us for a symbiotic relationship.
The fact we need to ask for permission to travel from one bit of dirt to another is a slap in the face of everything we were given this planet for.

It would make no sense or serve no purpose to have all of this staggeringly beautiful Galaxy to have only one planet have life on it who then would have to wait millions of years for us to evolve enough to get off our asses and build a way of getting out into the Universe and explore it.

We drop bombs on each other because some people in a posh office decide the innocent men, women and children on a patch of soil are no longer worthy of standing on it.
We send millions and millions of people out onto the streets, often starving and in need of medical care and mental health protection because they don’t have enough paper in their wallets or digits on their banks computer screen to please a Fat Cat on millions a year in stolen, often illegal but most definitely sinful revenue who has decided you and your family aren’t worthy of life.

The Love of Money is the Root of all Evil. And it is true.
Spirit are like proud parents who want to give their children the best of everything. They WANT us to work hard and make a good living. They want us to be successful and have all the good things in life.
As long as what you do you do for the love of it and as long as no living being be it animal, mineral or vegetable have to suffer or sacrifice themselves for your success them Spirit support you every step of the way.

Yes Spirit have no concept of money nor do they have a need or want for it.
But we have allowed ourselves to be taken in to believing money is everything and it just isn’t.
Love is.
If you don’t love your fellow, if you don’t love this planet, you don’t love yourself.
The wealthy people of this world might like to believe they are envied and are powerful. They might like to believe there are people who want to emulate them and for the most part it is true.
There are plenty of people who want what they have. But what these people seem to forget is, if you remove your skin, we are all the same underneath.
If you remove the paper we are all the same in the cemetery.
However in Spirit the way your treated will be vastly different.

The more you love money, the more Souls who were sacrificed in order to make you wealthy and powerful on earth the worse you’ll be when your Spirit because you had no love for your fellow man.

The people who are sacrificed, their lives, their homes, their health, their livelihoods and often families, because it was the right thing to do according to Universal Law will be the ones who are given the higher place in Spirit than the Donald Trumps of the world.

If you love yourself, you’ll love your fellow man regardless of colour or religion.
A man who wears rags who shares his donated food or dollar with his fellow homeless brothers and sisters has more love and will be in a better position come the New Renaissance And the After Life than the man in the Rolls Royce who thought it was funny claiming ‘Nothing smaller than a hundred’ to the homeless man will.

We must ALL learn to be more Empathic. And not the Empathic that drives me insane lol the ‘Oh I’m so sensitive to Spirit and the energy around me’ bull shit. I mean ‘Empathic’…. As according to the Oxford Dictionary.

Which says: People often confuse the words empathy and sympathy. Empathy means ‘the ability to understand and share the feelings of another’ whereas sympathy means ‘feelings of pity and sorrow for someone else’s misfortune’. Empathy hurts you to witness as much as the person your witnessing. You suffer the emotional highs and lows with the man or beast. And it can take days even weeks to get over something.

I know I say all the time it is my least favourite gift because I’m constantly in floods of tears for someone or some thing I’ve never met before.
It’s not just negative or unpleasant stuff either because I will cry seeing moments of great joy as well.
Like my favourite YouTube clip of the dog that see’s her Papa for the first time in 2 years having spent the time apart because Papa was in the US Military.
This Dog howls, and screams and cries so much, it’s hysterical out pouring of love almost makes the poor beast pass out.

THAT is Love.

You only get one chance at this life. What you do next, all has an impact on what happens to you when you die.

If your chasing the money to be rich, and not because you enjoy the job. If you buy the house or shoes you can’t afford to be like everyone else.
If you take a life because the person in the shell represented someone or an ideal you found offensive.
If you endure a relationship that is so toxic, negative and or dangerous because they are hot and look good on your arm, or because they are rich and can give you an easier life.
If you destroy or remove someone or some thing from it’s domicile so you can have the land or money from renovating and flipping the house for profit.
If you walk past a homeless person whether they are a drunk or not and you don’t help them.
If you find their presence an inconvenience to you or if you find the homeless animals and humans who eat from the bins in our neighbourhood an embarrassment. Or worse if you’ve ever been abusive, insulting or worse to them because they offended you with their mere existence then you have never known and will never know the true meaning of love.

Love isn’t just about having a partner you have great sex with, or who buys you nice things who makes our friends envious and who can give you a dream wedding.
Abuse love and love will abuse you. That is the balance of the Universe.

Love isn’t about putting yourself and your parents in debt for tens of thousands of dollars/pounds for the perfect wedding and if you had your dream wedding where you got everything you wanted and it cost so much your still paying it off years after you were married then I’m sorry but you didn’t marry for love.

The truth of the matter is, it shouldn’t matter where you marry them. The wedding is supposed to be about the union of two families coming together to celebrate the union between the Bride and Groom, or Bride and Bride or Groom and Groom.

It shouldn’t be about how much they spent on flowers and whether the bride managed to talk her parents into buying her the dress she wanted that was over her budget allowance.

Marriage was originally a business deal between two tribe members as a show of trust and partnership.

Nowadays it’s seem as a show of often non existent wealth and to be frank…………gluttony. You invite people who ordinarily you’d never have a lot to do with outside of family gatherings so you can show off your wealth under the guise of Love.

When in fact what you should be doing is gathering your nearest and dearest to celebrate the union between two people who love each other.

All the money you could save by exchanging vows in a garden and having a BBQ or supper then having a shin dig in a hall somewhere could go on the honeymoon of a life time. Making memories and having experiences to live your entire marriage by would be so much more worth it than wearing a designer gown your never going to wear again and more than likely one day will look back on with hate and regret because you realized you married the wrong person.

Marriage is such a special union very few are mature enough to enter into. Marriage is about going to hell and back with each other for. Making sacrifices for each other. Having each others backs in the good time and the bad. Marriage is about never having to explain yourself because without saying a word your partner understands why you said or did what you said or did. Marriage is the perfect embodiment of what love really is all about if it is shared by two people who understand the true meaning of the word.

I believe in marriage. It is the ultimate commitment two people can make to each other. I believe in love and the power of it which is why I will marry Martin without hesitation. I know on paper we might look insane but there is no denying this connection we have. I just don’t care. I love him and he is the first guy I’ve ever been with who knows what he wants from me and us. It’s so nice not having to convince someone I’m worthy of being loved because he is the one who chased me and convinced me I should love him.

It changes you, Love. It makes everything better.

It’s about being there without being asked to be there whether it is being there for your spouse, or a stranger.

We are living in countries where our leaders are systematically slaughtering human and animal beings because of oil, money and power in the exact same ways the Jews were persecuted in WW2 yet no one is stopping it.

What we are allowing to happen to the poor Syrians in Europe is exactly what happened to the Jews. Yet it seems to be for the most part acceptable. Why is that?

Are people so insular now they  refusing to see we are walking right into? another World War? Our Governments would have you believe that Muslims are bad people just like how Germans were told that Jews were bad people not worthy of life. But what people forget it it’s not just Muslims who’s lives get affected by a war. This is NOT YOUR country. It is NOT yours or your Governments planet. It is OUR country and OUR planet. You do not own the soil under our feet and yet your happy to pay over half your wages to own some of it that at any moment the bank could refuse you the ownership of.

We created ALL things equal. So why the hell are we allowing our brothers and sisters, our animals and trees, our lands and our oceans to be treated as though they belong to anyone other than all of us?

If you’ve ever said ‘These fuckin immigrants come here and take our jobs and buy our houses making everything too expensive for us to live in our own country’ then your an idiot. I’m sorry. But there is NOT one piece of land on this planet that wasn’t settled by immigrants.

We all came from Africa. Our African Grandparents traveled from Africa, up through Europe and across the oceans to find a home for themselves. There is no one on this planet that is 100% of anything other than Human. Yet we are prepared to in debt ourselves and fight for a bit of soil that belongs to all of us.

Is that what you think your God wants? Is that Love? Love for your fellow man? Love for your Country? Love for your Planetf

NO MAN IS BETTER THAN THE NEXT WE ARE ALL EQUAL.

Equality creates balance. Our Universe, our Spiritual format, is ALL running in perfect order when we have balance.

Our Solar System reacts so much better when everything is in balance.

Regardless of whether your God is Christian, Muslim, Jewish, Buddhist, Hindu, Jedi, Alien, A Tree or an Animal. It’s all the same to the person who believes.

Love keeps the Universe in balance. It’s a fact.

We are ALL connected whether your an Ape on this planet, a bacteria on the Moon, a being from another Galaxy, or a planet in our Galactic sky. The comets, animals, plants, water, insects. dirt, bacteria, trees, etc… the meteors, planets, beings, space dust, black holes, milky ways, in this Universe and the others, are ALL connected. We all were born from the one original source of life.

What we do to ourselves we do to them. What we destroy they suffer with, what we create they enjoy, what we invent they receive the benefits from and what we love creates a balance and calm they are attracted to.

They are NOT a threat or a danger to us regardless of what they might start saying. Project Blue Beam has been in the works for a long time and to prove I’m right I suggest for the next 8 weeks you watch the news articles going up on the Yahoo news website.

I’ve noticed that every day for the last 2 weeks the news is about the discovery of or existence of ‘Alien life’. And that is the basis or foundation for the start of Project Blue Beam. I know it sounds insane but it is true. I suggest you Google it.

What we have been fed about our ‘Intergalactic Brethren’ is all founded on stories, wild imagination and very carefully planned out plots and role playing games to fool the masses into believing that what is out there wants to hurt us and experiment on us sexually and mentally. Which is typical of us to make everything about sex and power.

But as with Spirit, they aren’t interested in us sexually. In no way shape or form. We are the only beings who have sex for pleasure. And sex does NOT mean love.

But I digress. I could talk for days about this stuff but I’m going off on a tangent.

The reason why our galactic brethren help us.  They have stopped missiles from being set off on ‘the enemy’ is because they love.

We are compared to Spirit and them, the Babies of the Galaxy. They are trying to help us reach the level of Love and Understanding we need to get our shit together to join them up there. So that we too can Play among the stars.

But we will never be allowed to go near Space in it’s true glory until we can learn to love each other.

They are our Ancient ancestors and the only ones of us who seem to truly understand that they are our Ancestors are the First Nations and other Indigenous peoples such as the Aboriginals and Maori. But none more so than the First Nation people.

This is why they don’t come down to speak to our Military leaders and Presidents. The first thing they would do is kill them, the second would be to steal their technology.

So they are waiting until we ALL get off our backsides and create Balance.

Don’t do it if it isn’t for love. When you do it for love your doing it for the entire greater good of your Spirit, your Ancestors and your Galaxy.

Any less of a reason isn’t good enough and you’ll never evolve while your doing it for any reason other than love.

The best thing you can do for yourself right now is leave that job you hate. Leave that partner your not happy with. Leave those possessions your in debt up to your eye balls for and the house your never truly going to own until the day you make your last payment for in about 30 years time and go out into the world and find your true love.

I’m not just talking about ‘Partner’. Find the job you love, find the person you love, find the culture you love, eating the food you love, embracing all the aspects that come with having that love and watch how rich you become after it.

Then when you are rich of heart you will be rich in life and there is nothing more rewarding I can promise you than waking up next to the one you love in a job you love with a life you love.

Sure some days you might not have two pennies to rub together but if your belly is full and your warm and healthy who cares. As long as your living an honest life, where your honoring yourself. You deserve to have the best of everything if your prepared to work hard enough to seek it out. Nothing is stopping you but you.

Whether it is with millions in the bank or not. If you can write the chapters of your story where the experiences you have create the content where the laws of the Universe aren’t broken then live life each day like you’ve never seen it before. So much awaits us when you go looking for love.

Life is an adventure from the second your born.

Go out there and tell your story. Write each chapter as though it is your last and fill it with memories of all the things you got to love along the way.

Just make a promise to yourself to learn the difference between Love and Sexual Attraction, Education and Learning, Honor and Duty, Balance and Order. Life and Living, because only one of those in each selection is what’s wanted for us.

Love is the reason we exist. If our Galactic brothers and sisters were that dangerous they would of cleaned our clock a long time again. The fact they haven’t speaks volumes.

Spirit are the same. They could of gone about their business and left us to deal with death and Spiritual understanding on our own but they all help us because they want us to know the true meaning of the word Love.

Do what you do for the right reasons, and you’ll live thee most rewarding life you could ever imagine. When you have that confidence to love all things openly, nothing is more attractive. And nothing is more attracting. Like attracts like. It’s Universally understood. Like attracts like. And for me there is nothing hotter than a guy who knows what he wants and stops at nothing to get it. For love. I just found that in Martin and man…………..how hot is that? It has taken all the pressure off me lol

I spent 20 years working on myself. Writing my chapters. Finding balance and now as I come to the end of my time as a Student. As I prepare for graduation and life with whatever Spirit have in store for me I do so with excitement and confidence. Because even when it’s been hard, I’ve hurt and suffered and been betrayed, disrespected, used and abused and I’ve wanted to walk away, call it quits, start again and forget about it, I get up every morning to the greatest love I ever want to know beside me.

My boys, they are the greatest loves in my life. They helped me nurture and repair, in a life that I love, helping the people I love through a gift that I love. Sure…..I’m mostly broke, and my clothes are falling off me lol (because I’ve lost so much weight) but my life is an adventure from the second I open my eyes. My journey as a Spiritual person of the purest form of Love and Light enables me to have adventures beyond space and time, in and around our planet and universe, because everything I do, and everyone I do it for, I do for the love of my boys. I couldn’t breathe without them. Even on the days when a crack addiction seems more appealing than dealing with their carnage. lol

Love………….is Universal. It creates and nurtures, it heals and mends, it inspires and develops, it builds and protects, it transforms and transcends, it balances and bends, it feeds and nourishes. It turns dark into light and light to dark. It opens up not just the world around you but the Universe as well. It makes grown people drive themselves insane with the need for it. The lust that comes with getting to get down and dirty with that one guy you KNOW is gonna hit all the right spots every time because he loves you THAT much you crave them.

Like……..you know when your skin hurts you need them so bad? You can’t sit still. You can’t stop thinking about them and then get pissed off when you have to stop thinking about them to think about stuff like ‘work’ lol

When you hear his voice and you turn to jelly. When you try to be all tough but he makes you weak with a purr of his voice. When you run to him for comfort without question and he knows just what to say.

When he tells you your the most beautiful women he has ever seen on your period days lol *stupid boy* lol Blob he makes me fuckin brianless (yes brianless).
You know that distracting kind of love? Where you walk into walls and shit.

I wish I could show you. I wish I could show you. Then you wouldn’t be so afraid to live your life as you.

Go out there and love. I promise you John Lennon was right.

Love……..is all you need.

To My Boys, My Family and Friends, My Students, I can’t express to you enough how blessed I am to have you all in my life.

I love you all more than you will ever know. My life is rich because I have you in my life. You make my life rich and rewarding and you put up with me regardless of the fact I’m often throwing some of the most bizarre situations your way expecting you to have answers for me to help me understand what’s happening. I trust you with my life and most importantly I trust you with my gift.

You see the side to me I don’t share with anyone else because no one understands my gift the way you do. You never judge me. You often spend days pondering things I’ve told you in order to help me understand what’s happening to me and you have never once doubted me.

Your the only people who know the things about my gift I dare not share with anyone. Things I would take to my grave. The stuff people just aren’t ready to hear or know about. You have patience with me and you never make me explain myself. Your the first people I go to when something new happens and the first two I go to when I need advice, help or just to talk. My life wouldn’t be half of what it is without you in my life and I just want to thank you for loving me the way you do.

I am rich because your my reward for everything I do along with my sons.

Everything I do, I do because I am loved by you and everything I am, I am because of you. I wouldn’t be what I am today without you in my life. Separately and together you give my life joy and balance.

I am the Master of my Universe and you are my Planets, Black Holes, Milky Ways and Stars.

I love you and Thank you.

xoxoxox

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