Okay so I’ve been working on the theory that music like art and literature, Science and Maths are imperative to inspiration and evolution.
I’m also trying to figure out how to prove and understand why there can’t possibly be A God. A single creator responsible for the creation of everything.
Spirit told me once that to them the word God is a noun and it means ‘To Create’.
So you also know that I’ve been obsessed with music for the last 7 months and it’s helping me work on my Theoretical Physics I like to dabble in.
My gorgeous Fiance Martin told me once that when he was secretly in love with he used to listen to a Duo called Baby Rasta y Gringo.
For those of you who don’t know, my Fiance is Nicaraguan/Puerto Rican. I’m trying to learn Spanish so I can talk to him and his family in their native tongue. But at this point Physics is easier lol
I once tried to decipher the love song he told me to listen to as he used to think about me to it and I thought it was about Devil Worship and human sacrifices because it used words like Sabre, corazon which I know means heart, plasma (which is a component of blood to me lol).
Anyway, for about a year I’ve been shown symbols. All but one I couldn’t figure out until recently.
My ex said he was finding pieces of paper around the house with symbols on them, the same few symbols I said were coming from ‘them up there’ if you know what I mean? nudge nudge wink wink lol
Aaaaaanywho I have been listening to this duo for about a month now about 40 times a day. Don’t know what they’re saying unless I look for translations which I don’t do often but it’s not the translations that helped me finally understand magnetism and the cosmological constant theory I have.
It’s the Spanish. So one thing that used to drive me fuckin batty was how at the end of the songs these Raggaeton artists always announce the name of their production company and producers/collaborators.
Never understood why it felt off balance to me.
See, I understand balance in the Universe better than anyone now. I get it. I TOTALLY know how to be happy and get anything you want from your life and for me MUSIC is a pivotal part of this.
If I could teach you all how, like I am my students, no one would be sad, scared, depressed, worried, afraid about anything and I mean ANYTHING EVER again.
I know I’m going off on tangerines (to quote my 6yr old) but please bear with me. I can only type what I’m told to say and it’s not easy speaking on behalf of Death, The Universe and my own Consciousness at once lol
One of the symbols I kept getting was a jagged M and side ways M or E and a 3.
I always assumed the 3 was because of three being so important to evolution and Spiritual development. My numerology number is 3, my fiances is 6 (coz he is my balance which he shouldn’t be. He’s a Gemini and I’m a Scorpio. We REEEAAAAALLY shouldn’t love each other the way we do but he has been the best thing to happen to me and my last stages of Spiritual development because if how he makes me self correct with brutal honesty).
Personally my numbers are 4 and variables of 4 and 7 but 3s are there too as 3, 5,7,9 are in my personal opinion crucial to the growth and evolution of the Universe and everything that comes before and after it.
All numbers in my head when doubled up become even, which is clean and tidy and balanced, ie 1+1=2, 2+2=4,3+3=6,8,10,12,14,16 (and so on) I know I sound nuts but I can’t stop lol
I cannot abide things like volumes and dials etc…on odd numbers. It causes me physical pain lol I drive people mental with me ‘one more, one more, turn it up or down one more’ moan lol
Balance is crucial to our evolution in this Universe of ours.
In my head music even music I’ve loved for years if I hear it now and it’s not bringing balance to my brian, sounds off, almost painful.
I’m gutted that songs I grew up loving I now can’t stand because when I had that switch in my brian when I figured shit out last January I had to start following my compass to find the balance in everything I did and become.
Because balance and finding balance is sooooo sooo important my babies. I can’t stress to you enough how Spirit this whole time have been trying to teach us how to follow our compass to find balance.
So I totally know I’m sounding a bit autistic but I probably am, lol
But now when I am around anyone or anything that doesn’t bring me balance it becomes painful to tolerate. Almost unbearable even.
I’m a Scorpio, so I can clash with a LOT of people so now add to the mix of what I have become Spiritually and I just can’t be around anyone or anything who doesn’t balance me out. I’m distrusting my nature until I trust you. I will then trust you until I don’t then never trust you again.
When it comes to my work, I trust only my ex and my students because I expect the same loyalty and they give it in spades. After having 29 students I finally found my 8 formal students, but 10 in total (when the ex and Martin have the time to commit to training).
As a Paranormal Scientist I am VERY protective of what goes on in my head lol and my students followed their compass to me as I did to them and being the very first of our kind in the history of man I know you’ll understand why I’m so protective of my work, gift and connection to Spirit. So I have to be brutal with my students and who gets through and who doesn’t. Because we have to have a good symbiotic relationship in order to help each other evolve. I know I’m tough and demanding but my students would expect nothing less of me or themselves.
I simply adore them. My boys, are just the perfect balance to my girls in every way. I asked for the right men and found them in the 4 I have in my life. I’m so blessed, so grateful as well that my girls, every single one of them would slaughter anyone who stood between me and them. As a Scorpio I find that tough, strong, die hard, hardcore loyalty a turn on lol My girls, are Fire, Water, Earth, Air, Balance in every way and then my men are protection and maturity coz us girls are mostly out of control once we get together and start talking in class lol
They are hungry to learn what I teach. I call them my Little Paranerds lol
So here I am trying to make sense of one last symbol which I eventually figured out meant Time and I was seeing Baby Rasta in my head wearing that E M 3 symbol around his neck. Over and over and over again while I listened to a particular band from the 80s who I LOVE now more than I ever did back then and going over and over and over in my brian these symbols and mentally writing it all out on a chalk board in a pub (don’t judge, it’s my journey, my business how I get there lol).
And it dawned on me. The incessant annoyance of repetition which drives me fuckin mental. I can’t stand repetitive behaviour and language and shit.
I like to do, see, hear something once then move on. My pet peeve is having to repeat myself lol it imbalances me so hardcore it makes me shitty having to repeat myself lol
I try so hard not to get shitty with the person who is asking me t repeat myself but I usually end up getting pissed off and making some comment about ‘bloody hell, clean your ears out’ lol (unless they are deaf in which case I’m positively delightful and charming. I’m not a total bitch ya know lol).
So Baby Rasta y Gringo constantly saying ‘Eme music’ at the end of every song was irritating me like you can’t even believe.
As someone who thinks so much it keeps me awake at night and annoys me because just when I figure out hard stuff I then have 20 more questions I ask Spirit which I then can’t rest until I answer them too.
I know I know, I sound nuts but you try being schizophrenic with all these voices trying to figure out life, death and the evolution of Spirit and it’s importance to the growth and development of our Universe and sound normal. lol
So I realized I was being shown in this symbol Baby Rasta wears around his neck etc… E M 3 is 3 of the symbols I was writing down on pieces of paper.
E for pushing our Solar System in or out towards evolution or devolution, M for magnetism but pushing down and up at once (because everything has to have a balance in order to expand and connect and create.) and 3 is the balance or opposite to the E, it pushes back. If you get the balance wrong one way our solar system contracts, get it the right way it expands thus creating the Cosmological Constant.
Ergo magnetism is key to everything organic in the Universe.
Gravity is a form of magnetism, as is time, balance, love, attraction, creation, conception, inspiration, bacteria, growth, the planets, photo synthesis, arousal, viruses, direction, action, honestly I could go on infinitely. You get what I’m saying though right?
It makes sense to me, it must to you too right?
So then I said to Spirit, ‘Okay so Magnetism is the most important thing like ever, but you said everything has a balance so what is the balance to magnetism?’ and they said ‘Death, de-evolving, non existence, cessation’.
Which almost made me orgasm it made so much sense lol At 6.30am I’m hyper because I finally figured it out. It’s been months and months of working on these symbols.
Now I’m pissed off that it was so friggin obvious this whole time and it took for me to have to listen to Baby Rasta y Gringo a billion times to get that which was staring me right in the feckin face lol
My friends up north *nudge nudge wink wink* have the most ingenious way to teach an errant, bossy bitch like me and it’s through music and my excellent imagination lol
This is honestly why I think 99.9% of ‘mental illness’ is undiagnosed Psychic ability and or genius. I do NOT and never will recognize ADHD and Autism and Asperger’s as anything less than unrecognized genius.
Give me a year with these people and you’d see people so smart and happy they’d make Einstein look normal.
My three favourite Scientists, Clarke Maxwell, Tesla, and the sexy Newton are the demigods of Science and all in my opinion if above today would be in one of those categories of disability.
Psychology isn’t a Science. Its conjecture and supposition.
People just need to be allowed to find their balance.
My doing what I’m doing with my music and following my compass is making me and those around me happy because I practice and teach what I preach.
It makes sense when you follow it.
My ex is big into the music compass thing now and he’s figuring shit out too not to mention his connection to Spirit has grown exponentially.
I wish I could teach you how to do it, it’s hard to explain but you do have t be brutally honest with yourself and patient, and have unwavering faith in order for it to work.
But when it does, it changes your life in every way.
I’m sorry if this post sounds a bit ‘tangenty’ My thoughts get the best of me when I type because I talk for Spirit and add some of me in the mix lol
I know a lot of you won’t understand what I’m trying to say, but for those who do understand, for those who ‘get me’ then this post is for you.
The odd thing is, once I have learned everything I need to with the chain of music I follow I walk away from it and never go back to it. If I try to, it ends up grating on me and annoys me after a few notes.
So it imbalances me I guess you can say. Demagnetizes me I guess you could say. But even magnetism is Magnetic lol
And as I just learned, the balance to magnetism is death, cessation.
Which makes perfect sense when you really think about it.
So Thank you Baby Rasta y Gringo and Thank you Martin.
Now I just need to figure out how the Cosmological Constant is proof of no God at which point the hate will come I’m sure lol
What music will it be next time? The Wiggles? or maybe Chopin? lol
Only time will tell, because time is magnetic. Oh the laws of attraction.
Insanity subdued, I’m going to have a work out and then get on with my emails.
I hope this makes sense. I hope to those reading this it’s not like trying to decipher Spanish without a translation dictionary lol
I would like to add though that these are MY theories and no one elses and I do not and never will expect anyone to listen or follow them. This is my journey and I want people to walk beside me not behind me.
I am for those who get me. If you don’t get me that is completely fine.
It just means with me, your compass doesn’t face north and that is totally cool. I want no one to feel pained by the shyte that comes out of my head.
Like a magnet, I stick to those who aren’t my polarity.
Love and Light
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