Dancing with Death

Over the last 3 weeks I have been inundated with people wanting my help then they don’t listen when I give them my advice. After begging me for help, they went against my advice and then had to come back to me when it went tits up.

I’m not an arrogant person, or cocky and I absolutely would never tell anyone they are wrong for trusting their own judgement BUT you have to understand something.

I work, I have two boys under 7, an ex husband who suffers from sever depression and I home school. I spend around 80 hours a week working doing my readings, teaching and answering emails/comments etc…..99% of the time, for free.

I have no complaints about that either. I love what I do so much. I really do have the best calling I get to have as a job.

BUT……….if I tell you ‘Do NOT threaten to leave him and pack your bags to scare him into showing you attention’ and then you do it anyway and he changes the locks and doesn’t reply to your texts,  then I won’t help you any more. I can’t. It’s not fair.

I won’t sit for 3 hours a night any more  at night in the cold giving you advice that you asked for that you turned out you weren’t even listening to and leave me alone not knowing if your even in the same building you started out in because you just decide to go look at Cars mid conversation then get upset when I don’t answer because I don’t know where you are. I won’t drop everything to help you any more like I used to. You too get one chance. (you know who you are).

I am spending my time sometimes staying up till 3-4am trying to help you. Giving you free advice and taking the time to listen to you. All this week I have spent dealing with people who don’t listen and it has pushed me over the edge.

I gave clear instructions on what you needed to do to protect your children and your home from the trouble that as been caused by not listening and you skim past the important stuff and rush through the process then wonder why it didn’t work.

Well I’m sorry but I’ve had enough. It is unfair to Spirit and to those of my clients and followers who actually listen and appreciate the time I spend helping them.

I will help anyone who comes to me. I turn no one away and if I can’t help (if it turns out it isn’t Spirit related or because I’m not in your area) I find people for you who can. I take what I do very seriously and you all need to start doing the same thing. Apart from not taking the advice your given and causing more trouble than you started with, your pushing away the one person who is taking the time to help you for free.

I’ve now had 4 people, 4, FOUR people go against my instructions in order to get ‘Proof’ their house is Haunted. Every single one of them then went and made things worse.

I am what I am for a reason. You know nothing of my gift, my connection to Spirit, my extensive knowledge after 43 years of doing actual experiments with my gift (on myself) and you know nothing of my Ability or Culture.

You might have paid Psychics and Mediums to tell you what you want to hear but when a Maori person tells you DON’T Fuck with a Tapu, Don’t FUCK with the Tapu. Your people might have been stone cold accurate but they aren’t Maori. They have no experience or knowledge of a Tapu and now my Kaumatua have forbidden me to help. I have been told by my Elders to step away.

I know your hurting, I know your grieving, I know your soul has been broken in two. I saw what happened. I feel the pain of you and your children. I know your questioning me and my expertise. Your grief stricken in the highest way and all I want to do is hold you. But I was asking questions trying to get everything together, all the information together so I could find you some Kaumatua in your area so they could help you lift the Tapu.

Then I get accused of being a fake. So I can’t help you any more and I won’t. I have protected your children but when you mess with Maori things and you do it using rage and anger you make it 100 times worse. Your Mediums put poison in the soul of your family. The very core of your family is now cursed basically, it’s the only way to say it and moving house and country wouldn’t fix it. I had to beg my Elders to even discuss it with me that is how bad a Tapu is.

To be so arrogant as to accuse someone who has spent countless hours helping you for free of being a fraud because you didn’t like the questions she was asking is not only arrogant but ignorant as well because I can promise you this.

I will have been the only Maori person who was offering to help you take this Curse off that has been placed on your family as well as deal with the Trickster you placed there.

You take the word of 120000 people on Facebook over that of someone who’s job it is to use graphics and art in photography and on computers every single day of his life is just well….stupid and I’ll tell you why.

He has the software to touch up your images and bring out the images you think you were seeing. He would of been the one to help you take the photos properly so you were without doubt of seeing Spirit. But because 120000 people gave in to what is called Brain Pattern Recognition which make up for about 95% of ‘Ghost Photography’ you take their word over the one you sought the truth from. But let me ask you this. If your Mediums are so good, the ones who put you in this predicament in the first place, if you trust them so much why did you come to me?

Now because of your anger and frustration you have driven away the one person who can actually help. Short of going to his family, or on the rare chance a Maori person agreed to help you (which would never happen by chance) your stuck with this activity.

The questions I asked you weren’t in judgement but to have all the questions ready for when I went to these people in Queensland I had been told to go to. They are Maori, they live in Queensland and they would of been able to tell you if it was a Tapu on the home or your family. They would of been able to help me make my diagnoses and they would of helped you deal with the Tapu bringing Utu. But because you didn’t like the questions I asked (to make a formal diagnoses of opinion) you now have no one.

Tapus are real. Tapus can take lives. They can make you deathly ill, infertile, bankrupt, homeless or insane. They can tear families apart and a lot of those who have them placed on them end up substances abusers or locked away (be it prison or psych ward). Mention the word Tapu to a Maori person and watch then recoil and refuse to get involved.

So you can make fun of me, you can call me fake or not real or whatever it was you said, but remember this.

You have children. It will get them too. And you just flipped the bird at the one person who was willing to help. FOR FREE.

So after a couple of weeks of being treated like this by so many people I am making this Declaration on Behalf of Spirit and Myself.

‘If you come to me for help and you don’t take my advice and do it your way which your entitled to do of course. Do NOT come back to me if or when it goes wrong as I will not help you unless I’m told it’s necessary by Spirit. I will no longer reply to your emails if after all the time I spend helping you, you don’t listen. They will be deleted and left unread once I know you’ve wasted my time because I can’t help anyone who doesn’t help themselves. So you get one chance and if you don’t listen I won’t help any more. I can’t. It is wasting hundreds of hours a month of my time better spent actually helping the ones who need it most and I won’t allow it any more.’


I know this might seem cruel but I have sat up 3 nights in a row now with someone who begged for my help and I sat until nearly 4am twice and 12am the last night watching her do the opposite of everything thing I said and now her man has left her because she pushed him too far like I told her she would if she didn’t leave it alone. Now she is wrought with despair having lost her boyfriend. That was time I could of spent well, sleeping for a start, or with my husband snuggled in bed all warm or helping someone else who has had to wait in line for so long. So I have decided I have to put everyone else first.

I’m sorry I have to be harsh but I’ve been pushed to the edge and tipped over after having to deal with this stuff every day for over 3 weeks now and I have to put those who actually need my help first. I’m not saying you have to agree with what I tell you to do. I’m not expecting you to even like what I have to say but what I am saying is ‘Don’t go against what I say then come back to me when your way made it worse’. Because I won’t give you the same courtesy I gave you when you first came to me. Your not respecting me, yourself, Spirit or my clients when you do it.

Helping people next to having my kids is my greatest joy. Please don’t ruin it for others, you hurt everyone when you hurt me and it’s not fair to them. I won’t allow anyone else to pay for your impatient, impetuous behavior.


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Let Your Life Guide Not Define You.

I’ve recently had the pleasure of meeting and reading for a handful of people who’s lives are in turmoil.

They’re reaching out for me to help them, guide them, inspire them and I can’t. I can’t do it. Spirit have told me it isn’t possible. I can’t fix your life. Just because I fixed mine doesn’t mean I can fix yours. There is a big difference between me and all these staggeringly beautiful lost souls and that difference is ‘I have faith’…..’I found faith’…….’I got faith’

At some point in my life, after being sexually abused by men my Dad was in charge of in the Army at the age of about 6, being raped by Police Men in Australia when I turned to them for help, after being kicked out of school at the age of 14 because they felt they could know longer offer me an education, after marrying a man who loved me for being  way out of his mundane life who then proceeded to suffocate me and smoother what I was, after sleeping with too many men to count (none of them married to my knowledge) after taking drugs and drinking every night (it was fun, I can’t lie) I have drunk Russian Sailors under the table, the New Zealand Army twice, and Glaswegians 4 times, lets just say ‘The girl can drink’. I never once got myself into anything I couldn’t get myself out of. After all of it…………I grew myself some faith.

After crying many many nights for someone to save me and not getting anything back. Me……..the lady who talks to the dead, couldn’t hear anything when it came to me. So who was I to turn to if I couldn’t rely on Spirit?

Well the truth is, You. When the chips are down YOU are the one YOU can rely on. You can have 100 accurate readings, but none of them really answer the questions you seek. You can buy the self help books, go to seminars, take prescription medication, drink a bit, search the internet for forums etc……looking for that someone and something to trigger an answer for you but none of it matters if you don’t have faith.

If you have Faith. You don’t question what happens. You can be angry and confused but in the end you don’t question it. Because you know that when something happens, it’s not going to be forever. It might change things, it might break things up, it might bring more than you can carry even, but you know that if you can’t control what is going on, your not meant to so leave it alone, get your head down and ride out the storm. That is all you can do and putting all of that effort in to finding someone with the magic word or wand is just wasting time and energy on nothing. Your better off being honest with yourself, being realistic and admitting ‘If my problem isn’t fixed now  then it’s obviously nothing, outside of me that I can do to fix it’

No one can change your life but you. And the Faith you grew from trusting and listening to YOU is what opens up the lines of communication with Spirit.

Faith involves no Church, or Minister, Priest or Rabbi. Faith is stronger than religion.

People blindly follow religion without any real clue why they’re doing it they just know they supposed to have a religion.

But few have true Faith.

Faith is knowing that regardless the situation, like being raped by Police Officers, I’m getting out alive and nothing will stop me from living my life to the best of my ability. Where I got out alive of any situation I got myself into was me growing a bit more faith in myself and my abilities to take care of me which grew more faith in the fact I knew someone had my back every single time.

Being kicked out of school lead me to becoming the youngest people ever to get my Degree in Beauty Therapy and Massage. Turns out I wasn’t trouble in school. I was bored. I’m on of these people who excel at the things I’m interested in. I was A’s in English and History but not Maths and Science. But I got IQ tested, something my school should of done. It changed my life. I went and got degrees in loads of things. Tried my hand at many things, all of which gave me life experience which gave me faith in myself which grew me some more in Spirit because they were opening my world right up. That was at 18 and that is when I decided to ‘trust my gut and just do the things in life I want to do, I have gotten myself this far with the faith thing, why not put it to the test.’ Saying that simple sentence changed my life forever and I will be eternally grateful.

Now I know just because I don’t get the things I want doesn’t mean they aren’t listening to me. It means what I wanted wasn’t meant for me and I was just wasting time wishing for something I knew I might ever get. You have to be realistic about these things. Know the difference between what you Want and what you Need from your life and if your putting all that time and angst into getting something then chances are it isn’t something you even need. Your faith teaches you the difference.

Everything that happened in my life has happened for a reason and those reasons were to give me the faith I have now which is why I regret nothing that has ever happened to me.

My life has been about adventures and getting the things I need into my life. I knew I needed love and family and I needed to help people. I tried  many forms of those things but nothing came close until I met my ex husband.

See, get the faith in you first. Take all the things that have happened to you in your life and use it to push you along.

When shit happens, just say ‘Fuck it….I can’t control it so I’ll just move on’. Don’t let the fear of living destroy your life,  let the life your living destroy your fears.

It’s that simple. If you don’t like your life, do something about changing it, then you can’t blame anyone if it goes wrong and you’ll learn so much more about yourself and your faith by doing it which money can’t buy and no Psychic will tell you this for free because it means you don’t need her as much.

You can blame the world for your life going wrong  or take from the  lessons you learned and you can demand action in yourself and bring about the changes yourself., but if you do nothing to take action, and nothing changes and Spirit still don’t talk to you then you have a choice, do nothing or Grow some faith.

The choice can only be yours. I can’t do it for you no more than you could of for me.

But it’s there, and it’s for everyone.

P.S I don’t  want any sympathy  for my life. My past doesn’t define me or my  future.

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