The Epiphany of Me:

As my time as a Student of Spirit and The Universe comes to an end. I am having the most incredible discussions with my Friends and Teachers of the last nearly 43 years.

And I’ve connected so much with my past. It’s helped me understand so much more about my life, my purpose. Our Lives and Our Purposes.

Anything they teach me is to help me to teach and guide anyone who needs it. That’s the whole reason why I’ve been pissing some people off lately.

The thing that makes me what I am is my honesty. It’s why people pay their hard earned money to hear my predictions and observations of their lives. It’s why people trust me. Because brutal or not it is the truth. And as I have been saying lately ‘The truth while bitter and a lie sweet when first told in time become different over time. So eventually the true will be sweet and the lie bitter.’

We ALL have to start seeing our truths. We need to own who we are. Because it all matters. It all happens to teach you about you. Your existence. Your path. Your journey from beginning to end.

Oh My God……if everyone on the planet could have this experience we would finally be the human race we are meant to be.

The truth is, if we don’t get our shit together we are doomed. As a planet we will be destroyed and not just by the bad people in the world. Not just the Bankers and Leader and Greedy and Powerful. This planet will be destroyed and we will die out as a species.

Rich or poor we will die out. Or we can finally get the bigger picture and evolve into what we are meant to be which is Space Travellers.

They have all the technology to be rich and famous and lazy and taken care of but when we get lazy we stop developing. We stop dreaming and hoping and creating and designing and it is a select few who get to shine. But that person who shines has their own story to tell none of which would be made possible without the people they had in their lives.

This is why I can’t answer emails you all keep sending me to ask me how to have a connection to Spirit like mine.

But my connection came about because of my life and all the wonderful things that have happened as well as all the shitty things that have happened.

You have to be brave and you have to have unquestioning faith. I can not give you faith. Faith is what you have when you remove ALL the middle men. You don’t need to pay someone to have a connection to God. Whoever that God may be. It’s there all the time.

It makes you brave, and it brings you home at night and it never leaves you even when your angry at it for hurting you. But eventually you realize it’s not God who took your sister at age 28 just a few weeks after having her daughter, it was her wish to live a short life. God simple gave her the one she needed until it was her time to leave. He made sure when she was taking her last breathes on the Friday, the Thursday night before hand her little sister was remembering all she had to to keep her memory alive for her dying sisters new baby daughter.

God surrounded her with her loved ones on her last day and gave us all plenty of arms to be held by when you needed a hug. God left her the children to always remind you she wasn’t a figment of your imagination.

Whoever God is to you, it doesn’t matter as long as it makes you happy. But being happy is so much more important next to finding God. Because you find that he is where ever your happiest.

I’m finally cracking the code to all my visions of my past and feelings of being in the presence of complete strangers lives.

I can’t explain it but I keep getting flashes of peoples lives. Just random strangers. I can see the colours, and smell the same air they breathe, I can hear the birds and the elements be it wind or rain, sun or snow.

And they have no idea as they collect their paper and read their coffee of whatever that I’m there, watching them. I could watch them all day.

Their lives are so interesting to me. So much more exciting. When I see them connect with someone they love, I have that love for them too. I feel their desires and fears to say ‘I like you’ to the one who doesn’t notice them, or ‘I love you’ to the one who does but it afraid you won’t say it back.

I feel it all. The excitement, the fear, the joy, the worry, some of these people I see their lives flash before my eyes. I want to know it ends well for these people.

Their lives seem so exciting. More so than mine and this is coming the person who gets to see all these peoples lives play out like a movie.

I see random funerals too. I talk to the Spirits of the deceased while they watch themselves be remembered and mourned. For the most part it’s always lovely but some of them have a real moan lol Hate what they were put in, pissed off because now it means the woman’s rival is going to make a play for her man etc….but none of them are interested in going back.

Of all the Spirits who talk to me when I see these things they are always wanting to tell me their story.

They all say the same thing.

  1. Don’t do anything for less than love. You deserve to know true love. Everyone does. Don’t settle for stable or good enough. Do it because you can’t breathe without the other person next to you. Your only going to love one person for the rest of your life if your not anticipating a tragedy. So before you find that love go out and have some great sex. Be safe of course and it goes without saying that it should be with anyone where it would break up a family or another persons heart unless you can’t stop breathing for each other. Adultery is not on. Not even in Spirit. IF you told someone you loved them and want to make a life with them then you do what you have to, to live up to your end of the bargain. Too many people marry for the wrong reasons. They think because they have great chemistry and your friends, and the sex was good, and you knew you’d have a stable life with them. But if you don’t love them your not with them for the right reasons.

So what is love then? According to Spirit from what I’ve just learned. True Love is when you find the one person who makes everything stop. You hold your breathe whenever your near them. You have an electric current run through your body every time they touch you. You feed off each others words. You have this connection that no matter what you know the trust is always there. They are the first person you go to when something good happens to you and the one who runs to you when it’s something bad.

They know just what to say when they want to hurt you most. The words no person wants to hear come out of their loves mouth. The words that cut deep in the heat of an argument. It hurts like fuck and you want to die. You never want to hear words that hurt so badly. But you couldn’t take them from anyone else. The truth hurts and yes it was said to hurt you but it’s always better to be hurt by the truth than devastated by a lie and who better to tell you the truth than the one you love. Right?

Sometimes my husband has done something in public which not only cut me to the bone but embarrassed me as well. He’s done it twice when he accused me of doing something I didn’t do. I saw a side to him I didn’t like because usually he is the first one to defend me but he was actually the first one to accuse me and instead of helping me rectify the understanding he made it worse. In those two moments I could of walked away and never looked back. I hated him so much for thinking so little of me. He sometimes has this way of making me think he thinks so little of me. He’s not a romantic. I am. I want the big romantic gestures. He is very self centered, he’s an artist and a Libra so everything is always about him. He creates drama where ever he goes because people don’t get him. He’s a procrastinator and a hedonist. He is kind to a fault. He has been manipulated and cheated by so many people he called friend or family. But he looks like butter wouldn’t melt in his mouth. And when you need an ally he is the one you can rely on to cut the conversation with quick wit and humor. He’s up for anything. He’s not afraid to be different. He embraces his individuality and is proud of it. He is a brilliant man. Quite frankly one of thee most if not thee most intelligent man I’ve ever met.

He needs no explaining. He’s an incredible motivator, and is inspiring. He has this way of helping you find your thing and then helps you understand why your thing is your thing. Be it to a Kebab Delivery Man who also feels the same draw of attraction that I do lol to a man he buys a burger for on the street lol My husband a gift of people just being able to pour their hearts out to him. And he goes on and on and on about how much he hates people. He’s a cantankerous, grumpy old man who has the heart of an Angel. He makes out he’s all grumpy so he won’t get hurt by people but any one of you could go to him and he’d do what he could to help you. He’s impulsive and embarrassing, he’s mean and heartless sometimes. But when he reaches for me when I hop into bed and holds me into him, when he brings me a cup of tea and toast at night when I’m working away on a reading, when he sits and listens to every word of my latest Psychic experience so thoughtfully and immediately launches into a tirade of questions instead of mocking me, when he tells me what a good mother I am, when he tells me I’m a good cook, they are his big gestures of love. It might not be the big one you dream of one day but it is to him and that means something. He’s not a touchy feely guy anymore and that’s because of the people who hurt him in the past. But he is to his Best Friend, Uncle Andy. And he is with his sons and his Dad and his Step Mum and he is with me, and that’s okay. It matters to him. And that’s why I can’t breathe until he is in the same room as me. He’s the first person I call when I need someone I trust. He is the first person to come to my side when something happens that isn’t nice. Even if it’s just me being my usual quirky Empath self who is crying over photos of a friends dog being put to sleep.

He’s there and he embraces my crazy and understands it. He never makes me feel like I need to explain myself. When he holds me I go weak. No man on this planet makes me so weak and giggly and there is no day that goes by where I’m not grateful he chose me.

So do yourself a favour and LOVE the one your with. Choose the one who makes you hold your breathe and who cares what anyone else thinks. If my husband and I didn’t fight for our love my boys wouldn’t be here today. I know the day I met my husband and agreed to put up with his madness that I ticked a box in my ‘Destiny Fulfilled’ box.

Each one being so important you know they can’t of been anything less than ‘Destiny’ Being able to tick one of those suckers means your not only starting to Understand the reason for your existence but your getting control over it too. That in itself is a huge break through.

If your going to commit your life to one Soul then let it be for the one who makes you hold your breathe. The one who makes you straighten your hair and push up your boobs for (or puffs out your chest for if your a man). They make you want to appear smarter. They make you throw caution to the wind just to get another glimpse of them.

That love doesn’t go away when you marry them and have kids and get old along side each other. When you have that love in the start, you never find reasons to stop loving them. Good or bad. You married your best friend and when you marry the right reasons it never goes away. It makes you work harder when things go wrong. You never worry about if they will leave. You know you have a warrior by your side. Someone who will take up arms with you not against you. If you married or are with someone because they are good looking, well…all I can say is ‘looks fade and one day when you’re old and wrinkly you better hope and pray they grew nice personalities somewhere along the line’.

Looks fade, unless you have millions to pay for surgeries lol But my point is If your not with someone who gets you. If you love them even after they hurt you and embarrassed you, if you love every day because they are in your life, if you hold your breathe when they touch you and you hurt when you don’t hear from them and they aren’t with you, then you need to tell them.

You only get one life loving that person. Please……tell them. EVEN if they don’t feel the same way. Give yourself the respect of admitting it. And you just never know. Maybe when you tell them, they will say it back. But you’ll never know if you don’t try. You owe it to yourself to find out. You might eye each other up when you collect your mail coz you live in the same Apartment building. Maybe she’s a customer who lingers a little too much longer than the others and who makes you smile the second she walks in the door. If they have been delivering to your house for years and they have been helping you out a little since you lost your partner. Whatever it is. Whoever it is. DO IT!!!! Because to be loved is even better than loving someone.

You get one life so (this takes me nicely into Number 2.

2) Get rid of all your regrets now while your alive because your life becomes so much sweeter when your lighten your load. As you know from recent posts I’ve put up things have been a bit dramatic recently but I’ve gotten to a point in my life where I’m learning to self govern my behavior. I’m dealing with my Karma now so it doesn’t happen in the next life. (If you read my Blog about Karma and what I think it means you’ll know what I’m talking about lol).

So instead of learning in the next life I was a bitch in the way I handled the first problem I had on here with SJ and Granddads funeral I immediately had Spirit on my case and my inner self was feeling like shit and as soon as I fixed the problem my life felt incredible again. I learned so much more about my Self worth and my limits. I learned I have a responsibility over anyone who reads my blog and reaches out to me. I learned it’s not about me any more. It’s about you the reader, follower, client etc…..etc……it’s while been dealing with all the regrets in my life that I’ve had the most epiphanies. The most awe inspiring epiphany’s one can have about ones own life, gift and purpose all came about because I was dealing with all my regrets.

Regrets aren’t a bad thing to have if your man enough to admit to them. Being seen as anything less than perfect nowadays seems to a mental Illness or some thing. Don’t laugh at someone who is brave enough to fix their mistakes or who takes life by the balls.

Make sure your regrets are never bad ones. So don’t do anything so bad and so horrible they haunt you. I know this is true of many Spirits who took a life in their life time. Not being able to make amends to the people they killed and such, it’s a heavy load to bear. Not everyone kills in anger. Some times people get caught up in bad situations and do everything they can to make up for what they did. These are the examples of some Spirits I’ve talked with who have been helping me over the last part of my journey.

They all have stories to tell and I ask them all the same questions. Not every one who takes a life is a bad person. They were just in a bad situation. The victims usually end up being Teaching Souls who chose short lives or dramatic deaths because of the lessons that come from it for those involved. I’m not condoning Violence or Murder. What I’m saying is no one is going to judge a man worse than an innocent one who knows he did a bad thing. But what is ‘a bad thing’ in your eyes?

Because I don’t think if a person takes a life in self defense or the defense of others they have anything to be ashamed about do you?

But if your holding on to things that are hurting you, or your not doing something you yearn for then your going to die with regrets and trust me when I say ‘Regrets are important to Spirit’. So your reading this which means you know from this day on you have the power to get the most of your life to make it the best life ever to prepare you for death. So instead of laying there wasting time on going through all your regrets, you can use the time to remember the good things, and make memories for those left behind.

Write the book that’s inside you. Get it out. Release it on a Kindle or tell no one. But get it out.

If you have a hobby or a love of something, go and do it. It’s your life. You only get one chance to live it as you. When your dead and gone what do you want people to remember you by?

People can say I’m bat shit crazy, people can accuse me of being a fraud, NO ONE can say I didn’t do what I didn’t want to do. I have achieved everything in my life I’ve set out to do. And now that I’ve dealt with my regrets and stuff my life is only just about to get to the good bit.

I implore you to pick up that paint brush, sit at that type writer, put on that dress and heels young man and find your inner Queen.

Put that gorgeous dress on Mama and make a man feel alive. Do what feeds your soul. Everyone has their thing. If your with someone who doesn’t let you have your thing your not with the Love of your Life. Because your Forever Love would not just let you have your thing, they will pay for you to have more of it and even occasionally join in, just for you, because they love you.

Don’t be afraid of pursuing all those things you always wanted to do. If your partner doesn’t want to do learn to Salsa, take a friend. Maybe you’ll start to walk with a pep in your step, maybe he notices. A little jealousy is a good thing if it’s not done on purpose and with the intention of hurting someone. Playful innocent jealousy is cute but anything more than that is cruel and not coming from a good place.

But my point is, instead of saving all your money for your kids after your dead, put some aside for your funeral and spend the lot on holidays ad cruises. It’s your money your earning for while your alive for when your dead. Do you know how nuts that sounds?

Why not just make sure you have enough to pay for your funeral. Let the kids have the insurances but take the money you have and spend the lot of making memories for yourself while your alive. It’s what you worked for. You worked hard for your retirement but it doesn’t mean your retirement has to be spent you waiting for death. Go dancing. Go on a cruise. Get your partner and you a nice new wardrobe and hit the clubs. Play Bingo once in a while sure but play it on a cruise for Seniors or Widows. Go with your lover and have a romantic unplanned weekend in Paris.

Take some cooking classes and cook for your love and family etc….live your life now while your living it. Because you can’t take any of it back when your looking back on your life.

There is only one thing worse than living with fear and that is dying with it. (Obviously I’m not talking about physical fear. I mean emotional fear).

So many people are unhappy. And it’s spreading like a disease. We live these long hard lives because we are in debt and we need to buy stuff and a job is better than no job and your no one if your not on the property ladder.

FUCK the property ladder. Shall I tell you why?

Because your killing your Soul dead just so the bank can take all of your money for you not to own a piece of wood and concrete until you make the last payment.

If it all caught fire right now and you were stuck in the middle what would you save and what would you tell those you loved the most if you had the chance.

If the one your with isn’t the one you love, if the one you love is sitting right next to you, if the one you love is just a message away then do something now that tells them it’s them you chose. Never regret telling those you love that you love them. Make sure they all have no doubts about your love.

If it all went up in smoke would you really be that sad if you knew you had insurance and all the important stuff was out would you really be bothered? I think not. I know of quite a few people that have said ‘When we assessed the damage and moved on with a new flat and charity shop stuff and things people gave us, until our insurance money came through it was kind of just so nice not having crap to worry about any more. There was no more worries about the lawns being too long and the neighbours judging my every step etc…..and once it was all removed I just became so much happier.’

I’m yet to find one who went on to buy another house. They all just paid off debt and traveled or started businesses etc……

A house is just stuff. How much stuff do you need? You can’t take it with you and your not a Pharaoh who is going into a huge chamber. You can’t take any of it with you when you go. It’s all stuff your loved ones are going to have to rifle through after your dead. Most of it will get fought over, donated or sold for £1.

Your belongings will go to other people and if your blessed a lot of people will have nicer food and clothes once your money becomes theirs. Seriously?

Is that what your breaking your back for? So your ‘LOVED ONES’ can feast on your earnings when your dead?

I like what my parents did. They said we were to use our money to ‘Make memories for them’. Which is what I do. Everything I do now I do for Mum and Dad. Stuff they can’t do I now do for them.

If your going to leave a lot of money for your friends and family, make sure you know they will appreciate the sentiment and not use it as an excuse to ‘doss about for a bit’.

which brings us to Number 3 of what Spirit have taught me to teach others.

3) Plan your funeral NOW.

Never leave anyone guessing about what you would want. Write it down. Make it YOUR way. My husband and I have this great idea of setting up a CD of music to hand out to everyone at the funeral and the songs on the CD will be chosen by us that represent our best memories.

IE When our son was born in Ninewells, Dundee Hospital, the song ‘Real Gone Kid’ by Scottish band Deacon Blue was playing on the radio.

Don’t you forget about me by Simple Minds was playing when our youngest son, Train was born. So they would be on our CDs.

Plus any songs we have attached to our best memories and then everyone can take the CD home and remember us when they hear those songs.

I want a cardboard coffin and I want everyone to write messages, sign it, poems and little notes and drawings on it. So when I’m food for the worms and grass grows and maybe one day trees will grow where I’m buried all of those messages of love and support will become a part of the very ground that feeds birds and worms and hence give life. Their words will give life.

But it is common knowledge on this Blog that Spirit ALWAYS go to their Funerals or Wakes or whatever it is we do to remember and send off our loved ones. And if they don’t like it, they WILL find someone to have a moan about it to.

So don’t be afraid to ask your loved ones. ‘When you die, how do you want to be buried. How do you want to be remembered. If they say don’t be so morbid, don’t talk like that etc………say to them ‘I read an article by this Psychic lady who said Spirit gave her a list of rules she is to live by and if it helps others tell them too because it’s for everyone to know these rules. If you live by them will you not only have a happier life but your death will be sweeter too.

Tell them what you want when you die. What you want to wear, what you want played etc….One of my rules is it’s not to be called a Funeral but a ‘Bon Voyage’ party. I’m off on a trip of a life time but we will see each other soon kind of party.

No hymns or church or anything. I’m gonna have a Tangi where everyone tells stories and sings songs and has a laugh and a cry and they draw on my cardboard casket. Then I want my Unveiling to be one HUGE Party. I want everyone to drink and have a laugh and just love each other with good food and drink and stories.

But my husband knows to put me in my nicest pjs and to take everything but my wedding ring off. He knows where everything is to go and I’m an organ donor too so…hopefully I get to save lives too. They get everything but my heart. My heart goes home to New Zealand. In our Memorial war of our Family Cemetery in Bulls, New Zealand. So that regardless of what part of the world has my body, my heart goes home to New Zealand.

Get it all written down. If someone is terminally ill, ask them, what they want. They appreciate it after they die my Babies, I promise. It really does mean a lot to them they way they are sent out. They like to know they mattered to someone.

I have however seen funerals where no one but the Minister and cemetery staff and if you put the ‘Debbie’ glasses on you’d see the thousands who are there in Spirit. So no one EVER dies and is buried alone. So we can all rest a little easier now knowing even the homeless get a good send off. Coz that always bothered me until recently.

When your preparing to bury someone, you have a billion and one things will be going through your mind. You’ll be so busy trying to make sure you got everything right, you don’t have time to mourn your loss?

It always happens, especially for the Oldest couple of siblings. But what if it was already decided and all you had to do was hand over the clothes they requested and have a date and time to tell people? So then all you had to do was be with your family and remember/honor their memory. Isn’t that so much nicer?

Also don’t be afraid to had some humor into your send off. Don’t do all that organ music bullocks. Put your favourites up there. The music you loved to love when you were alive. So when everyone there hears those songs from that day on they remember you and your memory. That is after all what a funeral is supposed to be. A Service to say Goodbye to a loved one.

Remembering your dead is the highest honour you can give them. Their memory is everything to them because it’s letting them know they did a good job. They left an imprint in the fabric of time and it mattered to someone. That’s why they do it. It’s why they keep coming back to live life after life. Because no other existence has the same experience as the human experience. We are inspirational. We are Creative, We are Enduring, and we embrace enlightenment. Without us, if we die out we will never join them up there and we won’t save our planet and all that we are will be lost forever.

They up there, need our inspiration and our need to observe and discover and invent and create, and understand so we can ALL advance as a Higher Beings. When we advance as higher beings it means death will no longer exist and we will exist together in the one time. All species, all, galaxies, all planets etc….as well as all the dead.

So people like me have been sent to give every one the lessons they need to do their bit to making sure that in a couple of hundred years we don’t all just die out.

Stop wasting time. We waste so much time. We are humans being not humans doing. When your doing your experiencing and learning and absorbing the world around you. Go out there and make someones breathing stop for a second when you walk in the room.

There is love out there for everyone. You just have to look for it. Not everyone is lucky enough to have their love come to their door but just because they don’t come to yours doesn’t mean you can’t go to theirs.

If it’s love it’s so worth looking for. And as long as nothing you breaks the Law of the Universe ‘I shall not by my own actions cause loss or harm to any other living soul’ then get off your ass and start to live your life and love every minute of it.

I’m greedy now, I’m asking the Universe for everything now. I want to travel the world and I want to meet people. I want to not be afraid to hide my gift in the outside world any more. I am going to tell the world ‘I’m an internationally renowned Psychic’.

I’ve worked hard for that title. I deserve to use it just like I did when I took my husbands named and got to sign it Mrs. I’ve put in my time on the battle field and earned my scars. So I’m gonna wear that badge with honour.

I still have one regret I’m yet to fulfill and that is Relearn Guitar. One of my wonderful friends made one of my other dreams come true the other day and bought me a Massage Table for my Birthday. I’ve already used it hahahaha I’m such a lucky duck. I got to cross a regret off my list and it felt fantastic.

This last Epiphany came to me today. As I watched Two Documentaries I watched on Netflix.

One was Back in Time, about the making of Back to the Future and it’s Cult following, and First Comes Love.

First Comes love is a movie documentary about a 41yr old Movie maker who decided to have a baby without a Father present. No Husband. Just being a Single Mum. As I watched this woman Nina grieve for her Beloved Mother and then question her own existence I started to have flash backs of this woman’s life. Her Mothers life caught hold of me and I realized things I was seeing months ago were images of this woman’s life months ago but I didn’t know who she was.

This womans Mother was showing me her life, months before I ever saw the movie. Suddenly memories of flashes I’d been having over the months make sense to me.

Then I got my notebook out in my head about previous conversations with Spirit and I started talking to them and this is how I think I have finally cracked the meaning of life and I don’t mind saying ‘I’m pretty Blown away’. Let me know what you think.

The last stage of my training has been introspective as you know. I’ve been made to pay attention to everything they are shown me and being the perfect Teachers they are I have finally cracked their code.

I know eventually the stuff they show me will make sense. So I knew these images I was seeing of these peoples pasts would make sense one day. Little did I know what t would lead to.

Stay with me………….So obviously when I’ve been seeing these things I’ve been having contact with Spirits teaching me the significance of making memories.

I’ve been seeing memories of my childhood, and other peoples. Slowly the cogs have been turning.

Upon watching this Nina bury her Mother in First Comes Love, I said to Spirit as I’m balling my eyes out ‘Why do we do it, grieving hurts so much, why do we put ourselves through the experience?’

And they said (get how perfect this is, I had to sit down when they said this bit)

They said ‘Because to know grieve is to know true love’.

Get it? Only when we know the pain of losing someone we love do we know what LOVE IS.

You can love your cars, your money and your job but losing any of it doesn’t hurt like losing someone you love.

Stay with me, I’m getting to my point.

Then it started dawning on me. That’s what they are trying to teach us. The Meaning of Life.

We chose a life where we have to be born fighting, we have to fight to find our place in society as kids, we have to fight to find our identity as teens, then fight to find your place as an adult then to find love and start a family and have an experience then grow old and die.

And then we stand there and say as Spirits ‘Hmm…..yeah I was a good Mum but I want to learn to love a little more. I never loved my kids the way they should of been loved, I want to go back and know love’.

So off they go and they fight to be born and they we have to fight to find our place in society as kids, we have to fight to find our identity as teens, then fight to find your place as an adult then to find love and start a family and have an experience then grow old and die.

Then they come back and they say ‘I loved my kid perfectly but I think I want to know a life that teaches instead of learns’ so they go off and they fight to be born and they die as a teenager……etc……..get it?

Why? Well if you’ve paid attention to my last few posts you’ll know it’s because of the Human Experience.

Why a Back to the Future Documentary? Because that film created a human experience for billions of people.

They ‘LOOK UP’ told me No one creates like we do, no one takes ideas and makes them something that transcends all time like humans do.

Our human experience is incredible and it’s personal and it means something to everyone having one.

To choose a life of pain and suffering makes you the wisest souls. Your nearly at the top. You chose a harder life for the lessons for yourself and those around you.

No Other species knows the experience like that of the humans. We are creative and inventive and supportive and embracing and free thinking and we LOVE movies and TV shows and they inspire others to have and create their own human experience.

This is why the keep saying ‘Remember me, don’t mourn me’. ‘Honour my memory’.

Because when you remember them it makes them know their human experience meant something AND it means when we remember we travel back in memory with the person who has no gone.

To Mourn them and feel that pain, is what life is. Life is Love and love hurts but there is nothing like it in this universe.

The love of a movie that inspired generations of people to become inspiring themselves.

The love of a child you create and nurture.

The love of a parent,

The love of Nina’s best friend, what an incredible woman her friend is. I know these woman that I’ve never met because Ninas mother showed me months ago. I wish I could tell Nina her Mother is so proud of her. Being a Mother brought Nina’s Mother life and I wish I could tell her that.

Her memory of her Mother keeps her memory alive and then what happens is her boy Jasper will grow up seeing the footage of his Grandma and he’ll have his own thoughts about her and put her in his memory and there her Spirit lives with her Grandson.

See how it works? So that is the Mothers Spirit living on inside the grandkids and anyone who watches the film who thinks about the Mother and their own loved ones etc….and it brings the Spirits right there.

The Human Experience lives on. The Meaning of Life.

Having the human experience so you can make memories and keep your Spirit alive in those who remember you.

Be it a loved one or a stranger, it doesn’t matter. Its the fact to that Spirit of Nina’s Mother (Davenport was her name) her memory is kept alive because someone chose to remember her.

And when your watching someones Mother in a coffin in a documentary you can’t help it. It’s a sadness you feel if you’ve ever had to bury a beloved Mother, parent, sibling or loved one. Grief hurts.

BUT!!! Death is only painful for the living. Spirit are trying to teach us to make memories. Have the human experience. Go out and do and see. Make the memories, not just for you but for everyone around you.

Because one day you’ll be dead and you’ll want to know that your experience meant something.

To the Dead and those living elsewhere there is no death. We live in each others memories. We see each other just by thought alone.

Now I’ve learned to just jump to where I need to go, in a reading or by thought, I can walk around random streets and read out street signs and addresses and describe houses and even peoples lives and funerals etc…….at will.

If we could all get like my level of ability death would no longer exist. We would no longer grieve because our loved ones would exist in my memories and in my dreams and by pure thought alone I can have them by my side.

And they have taught me more in the last 5 months than I’ve learned in the last 42.

Make memories people. Stop wanting money, stop buying houses you don’t can’t take with you, stop wishing to be with someone to love, go out there and find it.

Go put your stuff in storage and travel, write that book, kiss that girl in your class, take those dance lessons. Who cares what people think.

Who cares what people think. We worry so much about what people might think and yet who are these people to judge us for wanting to be happy? Fuck them.

It’s not their life it’s yours.

Don’t go to College if you don’t really want to. Being happy is more important than a decade of being a debt slave.

Write that screen play. I know someone who is writing a book……’s taking a while Dr Who lol

We spend all our time listening to stories on the news and in the media about when the end of the world comes.

People are obsessed with the end of the world. No one wants to hear what I see because it’s not a future ruled by Media, and Banks and Hollywood and Big Business and Pharmaceutical companies where people have been indoctrinated to buy more stuff and be a star and find fame any way you can, and any emotion other than Happy is a mental illness. God forbid you have a real emotion, quick get them on meds for ADHD and tell people they have Bi Polar because suddenly if your happy and then life gets a bit shit your bi polar.

Wake up people. We have human lives. Lives get hard some times. But just because your too lazy to do something to fix it doesn’t mean you should be letting the Government medicate your emotions away. Oh My God!!!

I’m saying this because I’ve had 20 emails this WEEk about people saying they have ADHD because they get moody some times.

Well…..your supposed to get moody. Life gets hard, stuff gets awesome, a twat breaks your heart and a skank steals your money. It happens. Its life.

Stop blaming it on ‘mental disorders’ and deal with your life. If you don’t like the life your experiencing change it. You have the right to change all the things you don’t like in your life.

THAT is why Spirit are saying over and over and over to my clients. Stop worrying about what ifs and just do it. Worrying about possible out comes is far more hassle than just doing it and seeing what happens.

But Good or bad it’s all part of the human experience. And it all takes you down the paths you need to go but you have total control. You can always change the things you don’t like.

Your life is like a Sat Nav. You can’t change the destinations but you can sure as hell decide what roads you want to go down to get there.

So get out there and live your life to the best of your potential. Stop hiding behind fear and mental illness and make your life a human experience for all of us who will remember you.

Then your life lives on forever. To Remember is to be Psychic if you are able to remember the way I have learned to. It’s n incredible feeling to know the lives and childhoods of people who come to me in Spirit.

Then we all just meet up in our dreams and have fun.

I’m utterly exhausted now. I think I’ll sleep for a month.

I need to be Teaching I think. I need to be maybe writing a book. If I could I would give talks but I wouldn’t know where to begin. I also would like to put in out there to anyone reading my Blogs who works in the Science Industry. I want to study myself under a scientific environment to see if I can understand these Time Slips I’m having. Is it a Chemical reaction to something or is it a seizure? is it a hormonal thing or is a part of my brain active?

I’d love to find out.

Anyway, just something for you all to think about. I’m exhausted now lol

I hope this inspires you to start living. Stop allowing this world to stop you from having an incredible human experience.

Because when a Soul gets to the point where it is no longer remembered they stop having human lives and opt be Elders and stuff. Which is sad. But you have to remember, this is why they all flock to us. No one lives like we do. No other planet in the Universe has the same lives as us.

And we fuck it up with wars, The Kardashians and Pocket Dogs.

I mean…..if that’s your experience then have fun with that but stop trying to push it onto us. No everyone wants to be famous because of making a porn. Some people actually have talent and are too poor or too worried with not being bombed to care if KeyWest or whatever their names are having a boy or a girl.

I’d be more impressed if they did a show where she gave away all her wealth. She is married to Yeesuz after all. Wouldn’t he be wanting the poor to prosper.

I’m telling you now America, if that man becomes the next President of the United States your screwed and you’ll have no one to blame but yourself.

STOP WORSHIPPING Celebrities. Raise your children to know about our War Heroes, raise them to have an interest in Science. There are men and women in Science and Medicine and Music and Art and Literature who deserve to be worshiped more than someone who kicks a ball for a Million a week and still can’t get their team to win a Final.

Stop trying to find someone to give you the answers. look for it yourself. Don’t try to be a McPsychic. Be a Gourmet one instead. Sure it takes longer but you’ll enjoy it so much more and you’ll appreciate the efforts that went into making it.

Stop being a Human Being and be a Human Doing.

Enjoy the experiences. Sleep under the stars, get a little stoned, go sing Karaoke, dance with a stranger, hold someones hand, buy a stranger lunch, if you can pay for someones shopping you know looks like they need the help. Some of us have such wonderful experiences we have Forever Loves and Soul mates who want to enjoy the experience with us. They simply chose a different role to play in your life every time there but that’s why a FL or SM are soooo special. Because they share your experience with you in this life and the next and previous etc….They are so so rare. That’s why the connection goes deeper than just loving someone. There is a need to be in each others lives. That is an incredible human experience to have. But it’s why we do it. It’s why we must always do it for the love.

The love of Art, Music, a Human, an Animal, a Movie, a Game, a Genre of something, architecture, history, whatever it is, have it. Know it. Try new foods, open up your world to new experiences. Each one you have will change your life to how it was before. The more you experience the more you want to experience the more you’ll understand. Trust me. Go out and do it. Whatever it is.

Adopt a puppy or cat no one wants and love it with ever fiber of your soul. Offer to help a neighbour, help if you see a need. I promise you, it changes your entire perspective on life when you start to have a more human experience.

Start living people. And I am putting a challenge out to every single one of you. If you come back to me with a story about something you did this week that pushed you out of your comfort zone to enjoy a human experience or about how you went and did something you’ve always wanted to do I’ll grant you a free question. I’ll know if your telling the truth remember lol so don’t make it up.

I want you all to start taking notice of your thoughts and memories and start documenting how many are based around a deceased loved one. I want to see how often you think of them randomly or on purpose.

Your my guinea pigs. And please….I don’t want stories about things you have already done. I only want to hear things you’ve done because I asked you to do it. Just remember the one rule of the Universe.

I shall not by my own actions cause loss or harm to any living soul.

And you’ll be fine.

Love and Light


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Your Playing if fire if you don’t listen.

Over the last 3 weeks I have been inundated with people wanting my help then they don’t listen when I give them my advice. After begging me for help, they went against my advice and then had to come back to me when it went tits up.

I’m not an arrogant person, or cocky and I absolutely would never tell anyone they are wrong for trusting their own judgement BUT you have to understand something.

I work, I have two boys under 6, a very messy husband under the age of 40 and I home school. I spend around 80 hours a week working doing my readings and answering emails/comments etc…..99% of the time, for free.

I have no complaints about that either. I love what I do so much. I really do have the best calling I get to have as a job.

BUT……….if I tell you ‘Do NOT threaten to leave him and pack your bags to scare him into showing you attention’ and then you do it anyway and he changes the locks and doesn’t reply to your texts,  then I won’t help you any more. I can’t. It’s not fair.

I won’t sit for 3 hours any more for 3 hours at night in the cold giving you advice that you asked for that you turned out you weren’t even listening to and leave me alone not knowing if your even in the same building you started out in because you just decide to go look at Cars mid conversation then get upset when I don’t answer because I don’t know where you are. I won’t drop everything to help you any more like I used to. You too get one chance. (you know who you are).

I am spending my time sometimes staying up till 3-4am trying to help you. Giving you free advice and taking the time to listen to you. All this week I have spent dealing with people who don’t listen and it has pushed me over the edge.

I gave clear instructions on what you needed to do to protect your children and your home from the trouble that as been caused by not listening and you skim past the important stuff and rush through the process then wonder why it didn’t work.

Well I’m sorry but I’ve had enough. It is unfair to Spirit and to those of my clients and followers who actually listen and appreciate the time I spend helping them.

I will help anyone who comes to me. I turn no one away and if I can’t help (if it turns out it isn’t Spirit related or because I’m not in your area) I find people for you who can. I take what I do very seriously and you all need to start doing the same thing. Apart from not taking the advice your given and causing more trouble than you started with, your pushing away the one person who is taking the time to help you for free.

I’ve now had 4 people, 4, FOUR people go against my instructions in order to get ‘Proof’ their house is Haunted. Every single one of them then went and made things worse.

All bar one person is now back asking for my help to fix what they broke.

I am what I am for a reason. You know nothing of my gift, my connection to Spirit, my extensive knowledge after 42 years of doing actual experiments with my gift (on myself) and you know nothing of my Ability or Culture.

You might have paid Psychics and Mediums to tell you what you want to hear but when a Maori person tells you DON’T Fuck with a Tapu, Don’t FUCK with the Tapu. Your people might have been stone cold accurate but they aren’t Maori. They have no experience or knowledge of a Tapu and now my Kaumatua have forbidden me to help. I have been told by my Elders to step away.

I know your hurting, I know your grieving, I know your soul has been broken in two. I saw what happened. I feel the pain of you and your children. I know your questioning me and my expertise. Your grief stricken in the highest way and all I want to do is hold you. But I was asking questions trying to get everything together, all the information together so I could find you some Kaumatua in your area so they could help you lift the Tapu. Then I get accused of being a fake. So I can’t help you any more and I won’t. I have protected your children but when you mess with Maori things and you do it using rage and anger you make it 100 times worse. Your Mediums put poison in the soul of your family. The very core of your family is now cursed basically, it’s the only way to say it and moving house and country wouldn’t fix it. I had to beg my Elders to even discuss it with me that is how bad a Tapu is. To be so arrogant as to accuse someone who has spent countless hours helping you for free of being a fraud because you didn’t like the questions she was asking is not only arrogant but ignorant as well because I can promise you this.

I will have been the only Maori person who was offering to help you take this Curse if the curse was has been placed on your family as well as deal with the Trickster.

You take the word of 120000 people on Facebook over that of someone who’s job it is to use graphics and art in photography and on Computers every single day of his life is just well….stupid and I’ll tell you why. He has the software to touch up your images and bring out the images you think you were seeing. He would of been the one to help you take the photos properly so you were without doubt of seeing Spirit. But because 120000 people gave in to what is called Brain Pattern Recognition which make up for about 95% of ‘Ghost Photography’ you take their word over the one you sought the truth from. But let me ask you this. If your Mediums are so good, the ones who put you in this predicament in the first place, if you trust them so much why did you come to me?

Now because of your anger and frustration you have driven away the one person who can actually help. Short of going to his family, or on the rare chance a Maori person agreed to help you (which would never happen by chance) your stuck with this activity.

The questions I asked you weren’t in judgement but to have all the questions ready for when I went to these people in Queensland I had been told to go to. They are Maori, they live in Queensland and they would of been able to tell you if it was a Tapu on the home or your family. They would of been able to help me make my diagnoses and they would of helped you deal with the Tapu bringing Utu. But because you didn’t like the questions I asked (to make a formal diagnoses of opinion) you now have no one.

Tapus are real. Tapus can take lives. They can make you deathly ill, infertile, bankrupt, homeless or insane. They can tear families apart and a lot of those who have them placed on them end up substances abusers or locked away (be it prison or psych ward). Mention the word Tapu to a Maori person and watch then recoil and refuse to get involved.

So you can make fun of me, you can call me fake or not real or whatever it was you said, but remember this.

You have children. It will get them too. And you just flipped the bird at the one person who was willing to help. FOR FREE.

So after a couple of weeks of being treated like this by so many people I am making this Declaration on Behalf of Spirit and Myself.

‘If you come to us for help and you don’t take my advice and do it your way which your entitled to do of course. Do NOT come back to me if or when it goes wrong as I will not help you unless I’m told it’s necessary by Spirit. I will no longer reply to your emails if after all the time I spend helping you, you don’t listen. They will be deleted and left unread once I know you’ve wasted my time because I can’t help anyone who doesn’t help themselves. So you get one chance and if you don’t listen I won’t help any more. I can’t. It is wasting hundreds of hours a month of my time better spent actually helping the ones who need it most and I won’t allow it any more.’

By going against expert advise you run many risks which again is your right but if it fails I won’t be there to pick up the pieces. That is all I’m saying.

When my time can be best spent helping someone deal with cancer, or helping someone deal with the Trickster in their home. Those who genuinely listen. Those who genuinely need and want the help. These are the people I will work with. It is not okay for you to come into my life, ask or beg for my help then do the complete opposite of what I told you to do. I sit for hours typing your replies, putting other people including my own children some times aside to help you, skipping meals, going without sleep and all for free and it is not okay that you show up, ask for my help, don’t listen then expect me to fix it for you. I will no longer be doing that any more. Two of you did just that this week and STILL didn’t take my advice the second chance I gave you. Well I’m sorry but I only help those who want to be helped. Your all just lucky I didn’t charge you for the help because everyone else would of done. The fact that none of you care about the time and commitment I put into helping you means your being Selfish and thoughtless and for the sake of my Paying Clients and Clients I help for free who genuinely listen and care about Spirit I have to put my foot down.

I know this might seem cruel but I have sat up 3 nights in a row now with someone who begged for my help and I sat until nearly 4am twice and 12am the last night watching her do the opposite of everything thing I said and now her man has left her because she pushed him too far like I told her she would if she didn’t leave it alone. Now she is wrought with despair having lost her boyfriend. That was time I could of spent well, sleeping for a start, or with my husband snuggled in bed all warm or helping someone else who has had to wait in line for so long. So I have decided I have to put everyone else first.

Oh and one last thing before I go. Please do NOT email me asking me for The Lottery Numbers. If it is NOT in your future to win the Lottery I can’t give you the numbers. If I had the ability to make everyone Multi Millionaires if wasn’t in their destiny every homeless person and every person down on their luck would all be rich.

If it isn’t in your future, I can’t see it and I won’t make up numbers just to please you. If you want the money that bad manifest it yourself. You only manifest the things you truly want so if you really want to win it, manifest the win.

I understand we are all going through desperate times but some of you are starting to ask weekly. I can’t give you what isn’t there. I’m sorry. I wish I could but I can’t. But asking me every week isn’t going to get you anywhere.

I’m sorry I have to be harsh but I’ve been pushed to the edge and tipped over after having to deal with this stuff every day for over 3 weeks now and I have to put those who actually need my help first. I’m not saying you have to agree with what I tell you to do. I’m not expecting you to even like what I have to say but what I am saying is ‘Don’t go against what I say then come back to me when your way made it worse’. Because I won’t give you the same courtesy I gave you when you first came to me. Your not respecting me, yourself, Spirit or my clients when you do it.

Helping people next to having my kids is my greatest joy. Please don’t ruin it for others, you hurt everyone when you hurt me and it’s not fair to them. I won’t allow anyone else to pay for your impatient, impetuous behavior.


The Kiwi Psychic and Midwest Ghost Episode 6

Today is about O.B.Es. Explained and how to deal with them.

Listen out for the Competition Question and Enter here or at @Kiwi_Psychic on Twitter http://www.newsfromthespiritworld or The Kiwi Psychic and Midwest Ghost on Facebook. Thomas Spychalski on Facebook or Spirit Child on Facebook. Win a Reading from me Debbie Black.

The Kiwi Psychic and Midwest Ghost Episode 5


Discussions with Thomas Spychalski and myself Debbie Black. Answering questions from our listeners and discussions about our surprise guest Donald Carpenter.

NOTE: I stated in the show Lexi, Jeff, Kevin and Blake were from Chicago but I made a mistake. The were from New Brunswick, Ohio. I apologize for the mistake. It is Thomas who is from Chicago.