Um……….ooooookay. The strangeness continues

I know J Dub will have a good read with this.

So last night for some reason I couldn’t sleep. I was utterly exhausted and had been almost falling asleep throughout the day so I was what we call ‘dog tired’.

Hubby was fast asleep next to me. Snoring his beautiful head off and I turned my laptop and TV off so I could ease into a slumber when I heard someone come into the house.

I clearly heard them step through my door as the part of my front door flooring has a distinctive sound. But my hair stood on end so I knew instantly it was Spirit. So I did a blessing over and over to make sure my family was protected. Got the Ancestors in on the action.

But there was an electrical charge to the atmosphere.

I heard it make it’s way up the stairs and into my room. When it got into my room it moved around our bed and kind of not paced but positioned itself next to me. I had the distinct feeling it was making sure my Mr was asleep before coming back to my side.

I was NOT afraid oddly. Not a bit. But something was beginning to happen to me. I was fully conscious. I tested myself. I made myself sit up and touch my feet. I made myself check all my senses and had total free movement and will.

I knew I was to lay back down. So I did.

Then it started……………………….I became aware of my vision seeing everything in green. Everything my eyes could see turned green. I fuzzed and pinged all over then suddenly became aware that I was very heavy. Like I was being slowly sucked down into the bed and floor under the bed but again I wasn’t afraid.

I said to Spirit ‘Don’t scare me, if your gonna do it don’t let it be scary’ and they said ‘Daughter, just relax, trust us’. I said ‘Okay but just make sure I remember it all, if I’ve got to do this please let me see everything clearly so I know I’m not losing my mind’.

With that said I lay back down and I could see everything through the green in perfect 3D vision. The vision of my bedroom became a street. Where was once my wall with my scarves hanging up over my Fozzie Bear bag and Totoro Bag became a street with a row of Tenement houses. About 20 stuck together, all in a row. I could see everything with perfect vision. I could see the paving, the tiles, the bubbles in the paint, everything. The lace of the curtains hanging up, even though I was at least 60-100 feet away standing across the street.

There were trees out the front of the houses. I can still see the leaves and bark patterns it was so vivid.

Also the dutiful student I made myself stop what I was doing and sit up and touch my toes then sit on the end of the bed just to make sure I was conscious. I had total free will.

I lay back down and as I was starting to pay attention to the vision of what was on my wall. But then I felt myself being pulled down, it was so heavy. My body was fighting gravity and then all of a sudden blue holes began to appear in my vision but in the middle of the air about 3 feet up off the bed.

As I was being pulled down blue holes popped up looking like a cigarette burn in video tape. It was burning but ripping open in or over the green vision I had instead of a bedroom wall.

I had so many holes pop open in the air of my vision above my bed (does that make sense?) that I was losing the green. The blue was overlapping the green. So my eyes were seeing a green green, green house, green road, everything was green. Like I was looking at a photo and someone tipped green water over the photo so the whole image on the photo became the same colour green. Not an inch of colour. However, I could see colour through the green.

So imagine your wearing night vision goggles. Everything is green but if you looked at something in particular like a bit of the wall for example you could see the grey stone, the brown dirt etc…in super mega high def detail.

BUT then the blue was over lapping and I ended up having vision not unlike a fly. You know when you see through a flies eyes on a movie or those science movies you were forced to watch at school? Just like that….BUT WAIT THERE’S MORE J DUB!!!!

Fascinated yet Babe? hahahahahaha And by the way while this was happening to me my husband was dreaming of stealing gold from the Devil :) How fucking cool is that? Something incredible is coming for my hubby. WOOHOO!!!

Anyway…………(I’m trying to build up suspense because this next bit is unbelievable)

So by now imagine your wearing night vision goggles but holes were popping out of no where. But they were a bright purplish blue colour and they were now saturating the green. However I became aware that I felt my body being on two different levels above me. Does make sense?

One of myself was in the green time, and above that I felt myself in the blue time also. The blue then began to overlap the green and as it did it I felt my self in the blue time overlap and cover the me that was in the green time so we were becoming one. Three became one because don’t forget I was still aware of myself being in my room.

I again sat up and touched my toes and sat of the end of the bed. Looked around the room. My hubby was still snoring. lol

I lay back down and the blue self and green self began to merge into one. I felt floaty. Like I was floating in space without the need for a space suit or anything.

But when I started to pay attention I noticed each blue hole that appeared, each one had an individual vision DA DA DAAAAAAAAA!!!

Yip, each blue was a vision different from the next. I could focus on each vision individually and the incredible bit is this…..they were visions of my childhood.

I focused on one up to the left of my door where it was the car we had when I was 6. A blue hole in the middle where the wedding photo of my Mum and Dad was hanging on my wall I saw the salt and pepper shakers we had when I was about 10-11 yrs old.

But the thing was I could see it perfectly. I could make out the bumps in the plastic. The grains of the salt and pepper individually. I could see the red plastic and white plastic on the back lights of my Dads black car. It was so familiar to me it felt incredible. I felt elated. And not once was I frightened.

I wanted to see all of them….I wanted to sit and watch all these memories, or vision of memories but I became aware of my husband moving to cuddle me. Then the blue lay over the green and it became black and white like a photo and I felt so heavy I thought I was going to fall through the ground but kind of cave in on myself like someone pushes me into the dirt grave but the grave bottom is never ending. So I’m just going down down down and everything was black and white and extremely heavy. The bed felt heavy, the walls felt heavy, the clothes on my chair felt heavy etc……

And it was over……………………………….or so I thought. Because I had to go to the toilet and when I stood up I couldn’t move my legs.

I had to consciously tell my brain to move my legs and it felt like from the thigh down someone had attached weights to my legs. Like 200 pound weights on each leg. I almost fell over with my top half being normal like my front end was going to move forward but my legs don’t move so my front end falls over but your legs don’t move. I would of hit the floor bending over but I landed on the chair and it stopped my fall.

I went to the bathroom trying to make sense of it all and I came back to bed and Mr was awake and so I told him what happened and he sat quietly and said ‘That’s how Scientists think black holes act.’.

We talked for an hour. Passed out and woke up utterly exhausted but not tired lol

I love my Man. He never laughs at me. Never judges me.

As I type this I had a thought though and J Dub this will explode your brians (brains but we say Brians because of one of my favourite movies Igor lol )

I thought to myself (or was it me?)



J Dub!!!? You may now pick yourself up off the floor :)

I wish I could get some Scientists to help me study me and what’s going on. I know it’s like a Quantum Leap thing but it’s not as other people, it is as me.

But that’s me ever the student lol

I’m such a Parageek. lol

You know who would know this? Dr Who would know this lol I need to find David Tennant lol (he’s my favourite)

Do it for Love

John Lennon once sang ‘All you need is love’. And they killed him.
But his message while never forgotten, never reached all the ears that were meant to listen.The biggest lesson Spirit have taught me in the 42 years of my life is ‘If your not doing it for the love, your not doing it for the right reasons.’

People are suffering, suffering for their art, suffering for survival, suffering for their cause.
My husband works long hours, grueling hours, on his art because he loves what he does so much, he knows it is with the sacrifices.
I support him, even when I’m missing him, because I love him so much.
I’m not a Super Model, I’ve never been known for my looks but I’ve never been without a boyfriend or partner. I’ve always had a gift of knowing what a man wants.
Whatever he is into, I learn, so we have something to talk about.
All to often in my job I’ve had women coming to me for a reading wanting to know why the men they are with are no longer the men they fell in love with.
And the answer is always the same.
‘You dated a man you thought you could change and you ended up changing so much about him he is no longer recognizable.’
There are so many men and women who crush the Spirit of their partner when they see things in them they don’t like, then no longer recognize the things they saw in them they originally loved in the first place.
That isn’t love.
Love is worth hurting for. Love is with the sacrifices being made to be together.
My beautiful husband gets up every day to work his ass off so I can stay home and raise our boys.
I work part time, helping where I can but he takes all that pressure off me so I can concentrate on educating and nurturing our boys with the best life we can give them. Because he loves me.
He has endured 16 years of emotional bullshit, threats and abuse from his own family because he loves me.
He has given up all of his holiday days, sick days, and even lost wages taking unpaid leave to take care of me when I was dealing with all my health issues because he loved me.
People have divorced for less and it’s because none of those couples loved each other.
Not really.
Love is hard to get a hold of but once you have it, and I mean REALLY have it, the hard stuff doesn’t seem so hard.
Some one once said ‘True love is wanting to kill your partner but never going through with it.’ and with the exception of abusive behavior, most things our partners do to upset us are forgivable and can be worked on.

By abuse I mean, physical, mental, verbal, sexual, financial, etc….
If you have ever been in love, REALLY been in love you’ll know how much it hurts.
But Love can save the world. Love can stop wars. Love can change the entire way you see the world, the Universe and the Dead.

The reason why Spirit keep on at us even though we are idiots who run around with cameras flashing in their faces, and putting our hands through their energy is because they love us.
Even though we don’t give ourselves the time to get to know them, even though we might not or mostly don’t have any genetic history with that Spirit (meaning they might not be a family member or ancestor) put themselves through exhausting, and often time consuming, contact with us because they love us and want to guide us on our journey to becoming enlightened and happy Souls.

The same goes with our ‘Galactic Family’.
The reason they come to keep an eye over us because we are war mongering idiots who instead of allowing ourselves to educate, protect, nurture, heal and love each other and our beautiful planet we fight and steal, lie and cheat each other out of having Love. True Love.
Love really does make the world go round.
While Governments are threatening to shoot on sight, terrified refugees who were forced to flea their own countries because of the wars those very countries who want to shoot them created.

Yet among it are these beautiful, truly Spiritual souls who are offering, food and sanctuary to these refugees because they understand what it is we are all meant to be. It should be the first reaction we have when we see any living breathing soul in need to want to go to their aid and offering them help, or love.

We allow ourselves to be divided by the colour of our skin, by our religious beliefs, by the Uniforms we wear, by the money in our bank accounts and by the soil that lay under our feet at the time of birth.

But the truth is, this is ALL of our planet. No one owns this planet. It was given to all of us. The fact we need to ask for permission to travel from one bit of dirt to another is a slap in the face of everything we were given this planet for.

Our Creator gave us life, gave us birth, gave us all that we see because he was so proud of what he created he wanted someone to enjoy what he had created.
It would make no sense or serve no purpose to have all of this staggeringly beautiful Galaxy to have only one planet have life on it who then would have to wait millions of years for us to evolve enough to get off our asses and build a way of getting out into the Universe and explore it.

We drop bombs on each other because some people in a posh office decide the innocent men, women and children on a patch of soil are no longer worthy of standing on it.
We send millions and millions of people out onto the streets, often starving and in need of medical care and mental health protection because they don’t have enough paper in their wallets or digits on their banks computer screen to please a Fat Cat on millions a year in stolen, often illegal but most definitely sinful revenue who has decided you and your family aren’t worthy of life.

The Love of Money is the Root of all Evil. And it is true.
Spirit are like proud parents who want to give their children the best of everything. They WANT us to work hard and make a good living. They want us to be successful and have all the good things in life.
As long as what you do you do for the love of it and as long as no living being be it animal, mineral or vegetable have to suffer or sacrifice themselves for your success them Spirit support you every step of the way.

Yes Spirit have no concept of money nor do they have a need or want for it.
But we have allowed ourselves to be taken in to believing money is everything and it just isn’t.
Love is.
If you don’t love your fellow, if you don’t love this planet, you don’t love yourself.
The wealthy people of this world might like to believe they are envied and are powerful. They might like to believe there are people who want to emulate them and for the most part it is true.
There are plenty of people who want what they have. But what these people seem to forget is, if you remove your skin, we are all the same underneath.
If you remove the paper we are all the same in the cemetery.
However in Spirit the way your treated will be vastly different.

The more you love money, the more Souls who were sacrificed in order to make you wealthy and powerful on earth the worse you’ll be when your Spirit because you had no love for your fellow man.

The people who are sacrificed their homes, their health, their livelihoods and often families, because it was the right thing to do according to Universal Law will be the ones who are given the higher place in Spirit than the Donald Trumps of the world.

If you love yourself, you’ll love your fellow man regardless of colour or religion.
A man who wears rags who shares his donated food or dollar with his fellow homeless brothers and sisters has more love and will be in a better position come the New Renaissance And the After Life than the man in the Rolls Royce who thought it was funny claiming ‘Nothing smaller than a hundred’ to the man in the first place will.

We must ALL learn to be more Empathic. And not the Empathic that drives me insane lol the ‘Oh I’m so sensitive to Spirit and the energy around me’ bull shit. I mean ‘Empathic’…. As according to the Oxford Dictionary.

Which says: People often confuse the words empathy and sympathy. Empathy means ‘the ability to understand and share the feelings of another’ whereas sympathy means ‘feelings of pity and sorrow for someone else’s misfortune’. Empathy hurts you to witness as much as the person your witnessing. You suffer the emotional highs and lows with the man or beast. And it can take days even weeks to get over something.

I know I say all the time it is my least favourite gift because I’m constantly in floods of tears for someone or some thing I’ve never met before.
It’s not just negative or unpleasant stuff either because I will cry seeing moments of great joy as well.
Like my favourite YouTube clip of the dog that see’s her Papa for the first time in 2 years having spent the time apart because Papa was in the US Military.
This Dog howls, and screams and cries so much, it’s hysterical out pouring of love almost makes the poor beast pass out.

THAT is Love.

You only get one chance at this life. What you do next, all depends on what happens to you when you die.

If your chasing the money to be rich, and not because you enjoy the job. If you buy the house or shoes you can’t afford to be like everyone else, if you take a life because the person in the shell represented someone or an ideal you found offensive, if you endure a relationship that is so toxic, negative and or dangerous because they are hot and look good on your arm, or because they are rich and can give you an easier life, if you destroy or remove someone or some thing from it’s domicile so you can have the land or money from renovating and flipping the house for profit, if you walk past a homeless person whether they are a drunk or not and you don’t help them, if you find their presence an inconvenience to you, if you find the homeless animals and humans who eat from the bins in our neighbourhood an embarrassment or worse if you’ve ever abused, insulted or worse to them because they offended you with their mere existence then you have never known and will never know the true meaning of love.

Love isn’t just about having a partner you have great sex with, or who buys you nice things who makes our friends envious and who can give you a dream wedding.

Love isn’t about putting yourself and your parents in debt for tens of thousands of dollars/pounds for the perfect wedding and if you had your dream wedding where you got everything you wanted and it cost so much your still paying it off years after you were married then I’m sorry but you didn’t marry for love.

The truth of the matter is, it shouldn’t matter where you marry them. The wedding is supposed to be about the union of two families coming together to celebrate the union between the Bride and Groom, or Bride and Bride or Groom and Groom.

It shouldn’t be about how much they spent on flowers and whether the bride managed to talk her parents into buying her the dress she wanted that was over her budget allowance.

Marriage was originally a business deal between two Tribal members as a show of trust and partnership.

Nowadays it’s seem as a show of often non existent wealth and to be frank…………gluttony. You invite people who ordinarily you’d never have a lot to do with outside of family gatherings so you can show off your wealth under the guise of Love.

When in fact what you should be doing is gathering your nearest and dearest to celebrate the union between two people who love each other.

All the money you could save by exchanging vows in a garden and having a BBQ or supper then having a shin dig in a hall somewhere could go on the honeymoon of a life time. Making memories and having experiences to live your entire marriage by would be so much more worth it than wearing a designer gown your never going to wear again and more than likely one day will look back on with hate and regret because you realized you married the wrong person.

Marriage is such a special union very few are mature enough to enter into. Marriage is about going to hell and back with each other for. Making sacrifices for each other. Having each others backs in the good time and the bad. Marriage is about never having to explain yourself because without saying a word your partner understands why you said or did what you said or did. Marriage is the perfect embodiment of what Love really is all about if it is shared by two people who understand the true meaning of the word.


It’s about being there without being asked to be there whether it is being there for your spouse, or a stranger.

Love is saying ‘No I will not fight for you or anyone else unless’

We are living in countries where our leaders are systematically slaughtering human and animal beings because of oil, money and power in the exact same ways the Jews were persecuted in WW2 yet no one is stopping it.

What we are allowing to happen to the poor Syrians in Europe is exactly what happened to the Jews. Yet it seems to be for the most part acceptable. Why is that?

Are people so insular now they are refusing to see we are walking right into another World War? Our Governments would have you believe that Muslims are bad people just like how Germans were told that Jews were bad people not worthy of life. But what people forget it it’s not just Muslims who’s lives get affected by a war. This is NOT YOUR country. It is NOT yours or your Governments planet. It is OUR country and OUR planet. You do not own the soil under our feet and yet your happy to pay over half your wages to own some of it that at any moment the bank could refuse you the ownership of.

God created ALL things Equal. So why the hell are we allowing our brothers and sisters, our animals and trees, our lands and our oceans to be treated as though they belong to anyone other than all of us?

If you’ve ever said ‘These fuckin immigrants come here and take our jobs and buy our houses making everything too expensive for us to live in our own country’ then your an idiot. I’m sorry. But there is NOT one piece of land on this planet that wasn’t founded by immigrants.

We all came from Africa. Our African Grandparents traveled from Africa, up through Europe and across the oceans to find a home for themselves. There is no one on this planet that is 100% of anything other than Human. Yet we are prepared to indebt ourselves and fight for a bit of soil that belongs to all of us.

Is that what you think God wants? Is that Love? Love for your fellow man? Love for your Country? Love for your Planet?


Equality creates balance. Our Universe, our Spiritual Format, is ALL running in perfect order when we have balance.

Our Solar System reacts so much better when everything is in Balance.

Regardless of whether your God is Christian, Muslim, Jewish, Buddhist, Hindu, Jedi, Alien, A Tree or an Animal. It’s all the same to the person who believes.

God is LOVE. Love makes the Universe go round. It’s a fact.

We are ALL connected whether your an Ape on this planet, a bacteria on the Moon, a Being from another Galaxy, or a planet in our Galactic sky. The comets, the meteors, planets, beings, space dust, black holes, milky ways, in this Universe and the others, are ALL connected. We all were born from the one original source of life.

What we do to ourselves we do to them. What we destroy they suffer with, what we create they enjoy, what we invent they receive the benefits from and what we love creates a balance and calm they are attracted to.

They are NOT a threat or a danger to us regardless of what they might start saying. Project Blue Beam has been in the works for a long time and to prove I’m write I suggest for the next 8 weeks you watch the news articles going up on the Yahoo news website.

I’ve noticed that every day for the last 2 weeks the news is about the discovery of or existence of ‘Alien life’. And that is the basis or foundation for the start of Project Blue Beam. I know it sounds insane but it is true. I suggest you Google it.

What we have been fed about our ‘Intergalactic Brethren’ is all founded on stories, wild imagination and very carefully planned out plots and role playing games to fool the masses into believing that what is out there wants to hurt us and experiment on us sexually and mentally. Which is typical of us to make everything about sex and power.

But as with Spirit, they aren’t interested in us sexually. In no way shape or form. We are the only beings who have sex for pleasure. And sex does NOT mean love.

But I digress. I could talk for days about this stuff but I’m going off on a tangent.

The reason why our Galatic Brethren help us, why they have stopped missiles from being set off on ‘the enemy’ is because they love us.

We are compared to Spirit and them, the Babies of the Galaxy. They are trying to help us reach the level of Love and Understanding we need to get our shit together to join them up there. So that we too can Play among the stars.

But we will never be allowed to go near Space in it’s true glory until we can learn to love each other.

They are our Ancient ancestors and the only ones of us who seem to truly understand that they are our Ancestors are the Native Americans and other Indigenous peoples such as the Aboriginals and Maori. But none more so than the Native Americans.

This is why they don’t come down to speak to our Military leaders and Presidents. The first thing they would do is kill them, the second would be to steal their technology.

So they are waiting until we ALL get off our backsides and create Balance.

Don’t do it if it isn’t for love. When you do it for love your doing it for the entire greater good of your Spirit, your Ancestors and your Galaxy.

Any less of a reason isn’t good enough and you’ll never evolve while your doing it for any reason other than love.

The best thing you can do for yourself right now is leave that job you hate, leave that partner your not happy with, leave those possessions your in debt up to your eye balls for and the house your never truly going to own until the day you make your last payment for in about 30 years time and go out into the world and find your true love.

I’m not just talking about ‘Partner’. Find the job you love, find the person you love, find the culture you love, eating the food you love, embracing all the aspects that come with having that love and watch how rich you become after it.

Then when you are rich of heart you will be rich in life and there is nothing more rewarding I can promise you than waking up next to the one you love in a job you love with a life you love.

Sure some days you might not have two pennies to rub together but if your belly is full and our warm and healthy who cares. As long as your living an honest life, where your honoring yourself. You deserve to have the best of everything if your prepared to work hard enough to seek it out,

Whether it is with millions in the bank or not. If you can write the chapters of your story where the experiences you have create the content where there laws of the Universe aren’t broken then live like each day like you’ve never seen it before. So much awaits us when you go looking for love.

Life is an adventure from the second your born.

Go out there and tell your story. Write each chapter as though it is your last and fill it with memories of all the things you got to love along the way.

Just make a promise to yourself to learn the difference between Love and Sexual Attraction, Education and Learning, Honor and Duty, Balance and Order. Life and Living, because only one of those in each selection is what’s wanted for us.

Love is the reason we exist. If our Galactic brothers and sisters were that dangerous they would of cleaned our clock a long time again. The fact they haven’t speaks volumes.

Spirit are the same. They could of gone about their business and left us to deal with death and Spiritual understanding on our own but they all help us because they want us to know the true meaning of the word Love.

Do what you do for the right reasons, and you’ll live thee most rewarding life you could ever imagine. When you have that confidence to love all things openly, nothing is more attractive. And nothing is more attracting. Like attracts like. It’s Universally understood. Like attracts like.

I spent 20 years working on myself. Writing my Chapters. Finding balance and now as I come to the end of my time as a Student. As I prepare for graduation and life with whatever Spirit have in store for me I do so with excitement and confidence. Because even when it’s been hard, I’ve hurt and suffered and been betrayed disrespected, used and abused and I’ve wanted to walk away, call it quits, start again and forget about it, I get up every morning to the greatest love I ever want to know beside me.

With the beautiful children he blessed me with, and the loving insanity of a cat he bought me, in the body he helped me nurture and repair, in a life that I love, helping the people I love through a gift that I love. Sure…..I’m mostly broke, and my clothes are falling off me lol (because I’ve lost so much weight) but my life is an adventure from the second I open my eyes. My journey as a Spiritual person of the purest form of Love and Light enables me to have adventures beyond space and time, in and around our planet and universe, because everything I do, and everyone I do it for, I do for Love.

Love………….is Universal. It creates and nurtures, in heals and mends, it inspires and develops, it builds and protects, it transforms and transcends, it balances and bends, it feeds and nourishes. It turns dark into light and enables. It opens up not just the world around you but the Universe as well.

I wish I could show you. I wish I could show you. Then you wouldn’t be so afraid to live your life as you.

Go out there and love. I promise you John Lennon was right.

Love…… all you need.

To The Loves of my Life, Mr, J Dub, Spirit and my Sons,

I can’t express to you enough how blessed I am to have you all in my life.

I love you all more than you will ever know. My life is rich because I have you in my life. You make my life rich and rewarding and you put up with me regardless of the fact I’m often throwing some of the most bizarre situations your way expecting you to have answers for me to help me understand what’s happening. I trust you with my life and most importantly I trust you with my gift.

You see the side to me I don’t share with anyone else because no one understands my gift the way you do. You never judge me. You my husbands often spend days pondering things I’ve told you in order to help me understand what’s happening to me and you both have never once doubted me.

Your the only people who know the things about my gift I dare not share with anyone. Things I would take to my grave. The stuff people just aren’t ready to hear or know about. You have patience with me and you never make me explain myself. Your the first people I go to when something new happens and the first two I go to when I need advice, help or just to talk. My life wouldn’t be half of what it is without you in my life and I just want to thank you for loving me the way you do.

I am rich because your my reward for everything I do along with my sons.

Everything I do, I do because I am loved by you and everything I am, I am because of you. I wouldn’t be what I am today without you in my life. Separately and together you give my life joy and balance.

I am the Master of my Universe and you are my Stars.

I love you and Thank you.


Why those Demons and Ghouls that strangle you in bed are a good thing.

I decided to do this post because I’ve written 11 emails and Forum replies about this very subject. Spirit and I decided it needed to be done because it is obviously a real problem for some people. In fact ALL people because I defy anyone who says this hasn’t happened to them at least once.

And while it might be the most terrifying experience for you, you need to Thankful it happened because in all likelihood it probably saved your life.

Okay….so you know when your asleep and your having a dream and then you become aware of something scary in the room or next to your bed. You can hear it, feel it, your heart is racing and you try to scream but nothing comes out? You try to move but you are paralyzed?

Your perfectly away and your fully conscious except your not. Your actually asleep. You will swear black and blue you were awake but trust me…..your not. The fact you can’t move says your asleep.

But some times you’ll start to hear a hum or a buzzing sound, you might feel something moving, you might see lights, you might get chills, there might be a high pitched screaming. Then you feel it, you can see it and smell it.

It will be different things to different people. But it will scare this shit out of you. It could be just a hand around your neck, it could be a demon, it could be a ghoulish beastie. But whatever it is, it scares the crap out of you and if it’s happened to you, your going to know EXACTLY what I’m talking about and I guarantee you you will will remember it all in great detail too. It impacts your soul. You never forget it when it happens.

It might be trying to strangle you, or screaming at you, or laughing, or whatever. And if this isn’t a regular occurrence for you. If this isn’t a trapped Spirit in the house or negative energy, if it doesn’t happen in other rooms of the house, it only happens in bed then what you have is a Spirit who saved your life. Why?

Well let me tell you like this.

When we sleep we revert back to Spirit. The Living are the dead on Vacation. We are alive as us for such a short time, and while we are down here the need to go home is too great. The need to be a Spirit is just too great so we sleep. And when we sleep we turn back into a Spirit. So we can Astral travel. Astral Travelling means to Travel Among the Stars but you don’t just have Space at your finger tips when your a Spirit you also have the past, present and future.

We go home to Spirit, we visit loved ones from past lives, we will meet up with friends from 4 life times ago,  we will travel to foreign destinations and see the sun set over the curve of the earth. We need to be in Spirit. We get too home sick and some times we need to just be free of the hardships of being human. It’s hard being a human. We take on so much that Spirits just aren’t used to. But it’s why they love being human and why they often will choose reincarnation even if they have been given the choice to do whatever they want.

Eventually they all want to be a Spirit Elder. Some will choose this job for the rest of eternity. Some will try it once and decide to do something else for a while. But everyone living at some point in their existential existence will be a Spirit Elder.

A Spirit Elder is only allowed to be a Spirit Elder once they have lived enough lives to have learned all the lessons needed to be learned in order for them to have total control over a human life then they are given carte blanch to do whatever they want. They get to choose the Soul they want to look after and from the second that Soul is conceived to the minute after it takes it’s last breathe that Spirit Elder will watch over you as your very own celestial guardian. But it’s just yours and no one elses.

No two people will have the same Spirit Elder. And that Spirit Elder walks beside you every day, stands beside while you work and sits with you when you sleep. Of all the things they could of done, taking care of you was pretty much the whole reason they are here. They wanted to train and learn and train and learn to take care of you when they could of been enjoying a life down here. Spirits love the Human experience. It gives them the feelings, thoughts and emotions they don’t have in Spirit.

They will stand over you every time you sleep and make sure your safe. If anything comes near you that shouldn’t be near you then your Spirit Elder needs to act. Because some times our sleep goes wrong. Some times something a bit nasty might be passing by and see’s an unused vessel. Or some times the vessels brain will start to become active before the Soul has come back into the body. And this is dangerous. VERY dangerous. If you were to wake up without a Soul, without a conscious soul in all likelihood you’ll have a heart attack and in the very least get taken over by something truly worrying.

I’m told that death in your sleep because of an Astral Travel going wrong is about 15% of all sleep related deaths. If your loved one died of a heart attack in their sleep or a stroke even, and they were healthy before hand and they went to bed one night and never woke up again then chances are this is what happened. It is a high possibility.

A lot of people will dream of being in pitch black, feel like they are falling and then just as they are about to hit the bottom they wake up, but some don’t. Some hit the bottom and don’t wake up. I know of two Spirits in my life time this happened to. It was obviously their time and all that but there is something a little unsettling about the thought of dying in your sleep if you were perfectly conscious of it happening. I’m assured though that it is a painless, uneventful passing. But then…..they are Spirits, of course it’s not going to be scary for them. But it’s unsettling to me. But I digress.

It’s not something many people know about. It’s always explained as a Demonic Possession which pisses me off. Because demonic possessions don’t just come at you once or twice every few years and only while you sleep. lol

But in order to protect you, in order to make sure you live and die the way your meant to your Spirit Elders need to make sure that any situation your put in that could threaten your life or your health or mental well being they can get you out of it safe and in one piece.

And when you start to wake up before your Spirit has come back into your body your Spirit Elder only has one option. And that is to wake you up as quickly as possible.

And what is the quickest way to wake you up? By putting on a terrifying face, or hand or whatever it is that will scare you the most and they will jump on you, at you or near you growling, screaming, howling, laughing in an evil or scary voice.

You’ll respond to that better than you would if they gently stroked your arm.

They basically have a millionth of a second to get you awake before you die or get taken over by something nasty and so they do what they have to do.

So next time you wake up and you can’t move, just relax. Sing a song, or talk to your Spirit Elder. Tell them you understand and after you’ve been woken up, say Thank you. Because as sure as the Queens Guards guard Buckingham Palace, your Spirit Elders are guarding you. The last thing they want is for you to be afraid of them or put in harms way. They stay dead for you. If that’s not a sign of love and loyalty I don’t know what is.

Don’t be afraid and please don’t listen to these moron Psychics and Mediums who told you it was something dangerous and to be feared. Unfortunately there are too many misinformed and uneducated people out there who like to take your money and tell you lies. And I for one have had enough. So I’ll work this Blog until I am 180 if I have to. If there are still people being misinformed about these episodes while we sleep. Or being led to believe that dark Shadows are bad Spirits etc….I’ll be there.

And I’m coming for you. Me and my Legion, my Soldiers of Truth. They are infinite in number and have millennia upon millennia  of years of experience and if sitting me down to educate some people helps even one person realize their psychic or mentor or whatever doesn’t know shit from sugar then I’ve done my job.

I’m astounded at the things people believe. I’m going to ruffle some feathers, a lot of people are going to hate me, but if they do then it means I’m doing my job. Only those threatened by the truth will have a problem with what I’m doing but I can’t take one more email from some poor broken person who’s lost a fortune to a fraud posing as a Psychic or Medium.

I’m coming for them. It ain’t gonna be pretty but luckily my face isn’t my money maker lol

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So…why don’t I call myself a Medium?

People keep asking me why I don’t do Mediumship when I clearly talk to Spirit in a Mediumship kind of way.

For me it’s always been dubious of the word because it conjures up middle aged women with scarves in their hair, with giant wild hair, tons of make up, flowing clothes, bright colours every where, the house stinks of incense and cat pee lol They have scarves and pashminas and silk squares with Ethnic tones on them. Loads of rings on their fingers and long nails.

My gorgeous big sister is a Medium and it’s because she is so good I have faith that not all Mediums are flaky, and cold reading people for large amounts of cash.

She is the reason why I always give the less financially comfortable free readings or if they insist, they can make a donation. Some dear souls are simply too proud and insist on paying something. So I tell them to make a donation to either me of their local supermarkets Cat and Dog rescue donation bins.

I’m the antithesis of everything I described up there. My sister is too. She has this incredible Aura about her She hums and glows. I’ve been watching her do what she does so well for 42 years.

But my sister works differently to me. She prefers Mediumship to Prediction.

Me? I prefer Prediction to Mediumship and why is that? For many reasons actually.

1) I’m so scared of getting it wrong and letting people down who have paid financially and emotionally wanting to hear from their loved ones. To not bring them through when they pinned their hopes on it, would break my heart and knock my confidence. I could never forgive myself.

2) I can talk to our loved ones anytime I want. If your not bothered with wanting confirmation it was them with immediate visual answers and you just let them talk and answer your questions then I could do that till the cows came home. Eventually they would step forward so I could describe them for you.

I don’t do Mediumship because I understand how it all works. It is far out there for a lot of people what I’m about to say but I’m just the messenger.

When we die, we go from being a physical body with a soul, to an invisible light source of pure energy. We are the same but more powerful as the energy that runs your homes but this energy has the ability to travel through space and time. To the future, the past, into Space, visit other planets, other life forms join them, they visit their past lives, they go back to the Spirit World to help out and when they are wanting to they can be reborn and live through another lesson.

But as with all energy, it’s infinite and at it’s best when it’s strong and powerful. Full batteries if you will. If we died and stayed in our physical form we would take up space. We’d have to go somewhere. There would be a crowding issue lol

But as energy we are one. You can’t tell us apart. All living beings are connected to each other both genetically and psychically.

They are essentially our twins. We are meant to be at a point in our Spiritual journey where we can talk to them all telepathically. We are to eventually be a species of human so highly evolved, we can talk without speaking we will no longer be able to talk.

We will be healers and death will be a celebration because it’s going home but they’ll call you when they get there.

We will live for hundreds of years. New diseases will be cured within hours of contracting anything. Old diseases will be forever locked in the history of all time like Tuberculous, Polio and Leprosy were 60 years, they will come to an end and be a part of our chimp based existence. Bones will be healed in minutes, tumors won’t exist, if any organs die or get damaged in any way we will just grow new ones. We won’t age. Only accidents and suicide and murder will kill us before old age will. But we will be living in such an advanced Medical and Psychological era, people won’t be angry and stressed out.

Taking drugs will be for a recreational thing only as they are the source of much great inspirations in music and art.

But people won’t feel the need to take enough that they get addicted.

We will be happy, spiritual beings. Eventually there will be no crime. People will be happy. But in the odd case where it happens, the murder would have to be done where no medical help was possible because we will pretty much be able to cure anything. And this isn’t in the far off distant future, I’m talking in my life time.

I, neigh you, may very well live to 200 plus with your siblings and parents etc…..but your great grandchildren may live to be 1000. We will be learning souls, and helping each other. On earth and other planets.

I believe that once we have a majority of Spiritual people on the planet after the cleansing our friends from other planets will come down and introduce themselves and they will teach us many things and we will ALL be equal. No one will stand out from the other. We will all be one. You’ll all be in for a shock when you realize Greys, Blues and Greens don’t exist. Neither do the 10 feet blonde Humanoids. It’s actually quite insulting to them. They are navigators, and healers and technicians and teachers. Each species has a different skill that no other have. They share their technologies and discoveries. I know this sounds nuts but I’m just the messenger.

It sounds incredible I know, but communication with any of them, living, dead, ET, future selves etc…isn’t possible if we didn’t have that connection.

We have that connection because we are one energy.

I feel Spirit, because I am Spirit, I feel planets, when they are distressed or upset especially because I am the planets. They hum, I hear the hum. When they are happy, distressed or sad they hum at different frequencies. It’s incredible. I share the same energy as the planets, as your deceased loved ones, as you, as the cows and ants and grass, fish, birds and trees because we are all of the same energy.

This is why we share our DNA with Daffodils and Apes and Pigs etc..we are all one. We all started out as a thought for the Greatest and Ultimate Consciousness.

Because we all started as space dust that was sparked by the sun which was created first along with the moon, we all share the same connection, genetically and physically.

We started as bacteria which grew into everything, that then evolved and traveled and created and made and grew and discovered and learned and taught and procreated. From that bacteria turning into living organisms that grew into other water based beasties, they all left the water to escape the quicker evolved beasties.

But we eventually figured it out and started walking, singing, inventing, painting etc,,,, but through all of that people forgot the fact it meant we all came from the same thing means when we die, we are going home to family. Time is nothing to Spirit. So the past lives, future lives, present life, mean nothing.

We visit them in our sleep. They play out roles in our dreams. Other beings also. Sounds nuts but it’s true. You just don’t remember them. Why though?

Because we are all the one energy. Like a Battery Charger. We all get plugged in to the same power source even though we are all different species.

This I know because I talk to them. This is why I refer to all the dead as Spirit. Including my family and friends I’ve lost. Because they are all one.

Mediums call on Spirit. They turn up to work and expect our loved ones to come through to whoever needs it most. And that is wonderful. My sister I know has so much respect for Spirit, she made me brave and it taught me that it’s okay to not be normal with your gift. And that I can only find it when I go on the journey to look for it. It won’t come to me.

But because of this relationship I have with Spirit it means I’d never want to intrude and expect them to drop everything for me. So I leave the door open. My clients know I only bring them through if they step forward.

If they don’t step forward, to me, they are the same energy as everyone else. They don’t look like anything. They’re an invisible but with a voice. That talks to me telepathically, SO they will answer all your questions if they want to and eventually they might choose to step forward but for me they don’t have to.

If they choose not to step forward or there is not enough energy for them to step through it doesn’t anything other than they didn’t step forward. It doesn’t mean they don’t love you. They either have no energy to come through or they know their turning up might be too upsetting. That’s it.

They don’t need to step forward for me because I don’t expect them too.

They know my door is always open. Any of you reading this I’ve done readings for who’s loved ones have come through during your reading on the rare occasion know it’s a big deal for me because I don’t do Mediumship. To me they are all the same until they step forward.

My sister said to me ‘If you talk to Spirit, then your a Medium.’ Which she is right I talk to Spirit and I work as a Medium between this life and the next. But the difference being I let them make the call. If they want to have a video phone and they connection is good they are welcome to turn the camera on. I’d never stop them. But if they are more comfortable just texting then that is perfectly fine too.

There is no pressure from me. It’s how ever they feel comfortable and have the energy for. It takes up very little energy for Spirit to talk telepathically than it does to show themselves.

But when you talk to yourself in your head and your voice (or not) answers you back, stop to think about the fact it might not even be a Spirit answering you back. It could be the tree outside, or someone in the next Galaxy over. Picking up on your thoughts because they tuned their Pineal Gland in a search to find an Extra Terrestrial Life lol

Things that make you go Hmmmm…….

We are ALL one. Everything. So I don’t do Mediumship because Spirit don’t need the big production. One day we will all be Mediums and Psychics.

But the trouble is, We are no where near ready to have visits from Beings on other planets. We are no where near ready for such power.

We still hunt Whales and Execute Disabled People, we eat cats and dogs and abort babies at 8 months old.

While people like Kanye West and his husband Kim Kardashian are rich and famous we will never evolve.

I’m not a Medium because I don’t need to be. Like I can read for you without even knowing your name or date of birth or needing a photo, I can talk to your Mum, Husband, Sister, Dog, Tree or Child etc….. Because we are all one energy.

Do you understand? Did I explain it properly?