The Epiphany of Me:

As my time as a Student of Spirit and The Universe comes to an end. I am having the most incredible discussions with my Friends and Teachers of the last nearly 43 years.

And I’ve connected so much with my past. It’s helped me understand so much more about my life, my purpose. Our Lives and Our Purposes.

Anything they teach me is to help me to teach and guide anyone who needs it. That’s the whole reason why I’ve been pissing some people off lately.

The thing that makes me what I am is my honesty. It’s why people pay their hard earned money to hear my predictions and observations of their lives. It’s why people trust me. Because brutal or not it is the truth. And as I have been saying lately ‘The truth while bitter and a lie sweet when first told in time become different over time. So eventually the true will be sweet and the lie bitter.’

We ALL have to start seeing our truths. We need to own who we are. Because it all matters. It all happens to teach you about you. Your existence. Your path. Your journey from beginning to end.

Oh My God……if everyone on the planet could have this experience we would finally be the human race we are meant to be.

The truth is, if we don’t get our shit together we are doomed. As a planet we will be destroyed and not just by the bad people in the world. Not just the Bankers and Leader and Greedy and Powerful. This planet will be destroyed and we will die out as a species.

Rich or poor we will die out. Or we can finally get the bigger picture and evolve into what we are meant to be which is Space Travellers.

They have all the technology to be rich and famous and lazy and taken care of but when we get lazy we stop developing. We stop dreaming and hoping and creating and designing and it is a select few who get to shine. But that person who shines has their own story to tell none of which would be made possible without the people they had in their lives.

This is why I can’t answer emails you all keep sending me to ask me how to have a connection to Spirit like mine.

But my connection came about because of my life and all the wonderful things that have happened as well as all the shitty things that have happened.

You have to be brave and you have to have unquestioning faith. I can not give you faith. Faith is what you have when you remove ALL the middle men. You don’t need to pay someone to have a connection to God. Whoever that God may be. It’s there all the time.

It makes you brave, and it brings you home at night and it never leaves you even when your angry at it for hurting you. But eventually you realize it’s not God who took your sister at age 28 just a few weeks after having her daughter, it was her wish to live a short life. God simple gave her the one she needed until it was her time to leave. He made sure when she was taking her last breathes on the Friday, the Thursday night before hand her little sister was remembering all she had to to keep her memory alive for her dying sisters new baby daughter.

God surrounded her with her loved ones on her last day and gave us all plenty of arms to be held by when you needed a hug. God left her the children to always remind you she wasn’t a figment of your imagination.

Whoever God is to you, it doesn’t matter as long as it makes you happy. But being happy is so much more important next to finding God. Because you find that he is where ever your happiest.

I’m finally cracking the code to all my visions of my past and feelings of being in the presence of complete strangers lives.

I can’t explain it but I keep getting flashes of peoples lives. Just random strangers. I can see the colours, and smell the same air they breathe, I can hear the birds and the elements be it wind or rain, sun or snow.

And they have no idea as they collect their paper and read their coffee of whatever that I’m there, watching them. I could watch them all day.

Their lives are so interesting to me. So much more exciting. When I see them connect with someone they love, I have that love for them too. I feel their desires and fears to say ‘I like you’ to the one who doesn’t notice them, or ‘I love you’ to the one who does but it afraid you won’t say it back.

I feel it all. The excitement, the fear, the joy, the worry, some of these people I see their lives flash before my eyes. I want to know it ends well for these people.

Their lives seem so exciting. More so than mine and this is coming the person who gets to see all these peoples lives play out like a movie.

I see random funerals too. I talk to the Spirits of the deceased while they watch themselves be remembered and mourned. For the most part it’s always lovely but some of them have a real moan lol Hate what they were put in, pissed off because now it means the woman’s rival is going to make a play for her man etc….but none of them are interested in going back.

Of all the Spirits who talk to me when I see these things they are always wanting to tell me their story.

They all say the same thing.

  1. Don’t do anything for less than love. You deserve to know true love. Everyone does. Don’t settle for stable or good enough. Do it because you can’t breathe without the other person next to you. Your only going to love one person for the rest of your life if your not anticipating a tragedy. So before you find that love go out and have some great sex. Be safe of course and it goes without saying that it should be with anyone where it would break up a family or another persons heart unless you can’t stop breathing for each other. Adultery is not on. Not even in Spirit. IF you told someone you loved them and want to make a life with them then you do what you have to, to live up to your end of the bargain. Too many people marry for the wrong reasons. They think because they have great chemistry and your friends, and the sex was good, and you knew you’d have a stable life with them. But if you don’t love them your not with them for the right reasons.

So what is love then? According to Spirit from what I’ve just learned. True Love is when you find the one person who makes everything stop. You hold your breathe whenever your near them. You have an electric current run through your body every time they touch you. You feed off each others words. You have this connection that no matter what you know the trust is always there. They are the first person you go to when something good happens to you and the one who runs to you when it’s something bad.

They know just what to say when they want to hurt you most. The words no person wants to hear come out of their loves mouth. The words that cut deep in the heat of an argument. It hurts like fuck and you want to die. You never want to hear words that hurt so badly. But you couldn’t take them from anyone else. The truth hurts and yes it was said to hurt you but it’s always better to be hurt by the truth than devastated by a lie and who better to tell you the truth than the one you love. Right?

Sometimes my husband has done something in public which not only cut me to the bone but embarrassed me as well. He’s done it twice when he accused me of doing something I didn’t do. I saw a side to him I didn’t like because usually he is the first one to defend me but he was actually the first one to accuse me and instead of helping me rectify the understanding he made it worse. In those two moments I could of walked away and never looked back. I hated him so much for thinking so little of me. He sometimes has this way of making me think he thinks so little of me. He’s not a romantic. I am. I want the big romantic gestures. He is very self centered, he’s an artist and a Libra so everything is always about him. He creates drama where ever he goes because people don’t get him. He’s a procrastinator and a hedonist. He is kind to a fault. He has been manipulated and cheated by so many people he called friend or family. But he looks like butter wouldn’t melt in his mouth. And when you need an ally he is the one you can rely on to cut the conversation with quick wit and humor. He’s up for anything. He’s not afraid to be different. He embraces his individuality and is proud of it. He is a brilliant man. Quite frankly one of thee most if not thee most intelligent man I’ve ever met.

He needs no explaining. He’s an incredible motivator, and is inspiring. He has this way of helping you find your thing and then helps you understand why your thing is your thing. Be it to a Kebab Delivery Man who also feels the same draw of attraction that I do lol to a man he buys a burger for on the street lol My husband a gift of people just being able to pour their hearts out to him. And he goes on and on and on about how much he hates people. He’s a cantankerous, grumpy old man who has the heart of an Angel. He makes out he’s all grumpy so he won’t get hurt by people but any one of you could go to him and he’d do what he could to help you. He’s impulsive and embarrassing, he’s mean and heartless sometimes. But when he reaches for me when I hop into bed and holds me into him, when he brings me a cup of tea and toast at night when I’m working away on a reading, when he sits and listens to every word of my latest Psychic experience so thoughtfully and immediately launches into a tirade of questions instead of mocking me, when he tells me what a good mother I am, when he tells me I’m a good cook, they are his big gestures of love. It might not be the big one you dream of one day but it is to him and that means something. He’s not a touchy feely guy anymore and that’s because of the people who hurt him in the past. But he is to his Best Friend, Uncle Andy. And he is with his sons and his Dad and his Step Mum and he is with me, and that’s okay. It matters to him. And that’s why I can’t breathe until he is in the same room as me. He’s the first person I call when I need someone I trust. He is the first person to come to my side when something happens that isn’t nice. Even if it’s just me being my usual quirky Empath self who is crying over photos of a friends dog being put to sleep.

He’s there and he embraces my crazy and understands it. He never makes me feel like I need to explain myself. When he holds me I go weak. No man on this planet makes me so weak and giggly and there is no day that goes by where I’m not grateful he chose me.

So do yourself a favour and LOVE the one your with. Choose the one who makes you hold your breathe and who cares what anyone else thinks. If my husband and I didn’t fight for our love my boys wouldn’t be here today. I know the day I met my husband and agreed to put up with his madness that I ticked a box in my ‘Destiny Fulfilled’ box.

Each one being so important you know they can’t of been anything less than ‘Destiny’ Being able to tick one of those suckers means your not only starting to Understand the reason for your existence but your getting control over it too. That in itself is a huge break through.

If your going to commit your life to one Soul then let it be for the one who makes you hold your breathe. The one who makes you straighten your hair and push up your boobs for (or puffs out your chest for if your a man). They make you want to appear smarter. They make you throw caution to the wind just to get another glimpse of them.

That love doesn’t go away when you marry them and have kids and get old along side each other. When you have that love in the start, you never find reasons to stop loving them. Good or bad. You married your best friend and when you marry the right reasons it never goes away. It makes you work harder when things go wrong. You never worry about if they will leave. You know you have a warrior by your side. Someone who will take up arms with you not against you. If you married or are with someone because they are good looking, well…all I can say is ‘looks fade and one day when you’re old and wrinkly you better hope and pray they grew nice personalities somewhere along the line’.

Looks fade, unless you have millions to pay for surgeries lol But my point is If your not with someone who gets you. If you love them even after they hurt you and embarrassed you, if you love every day because they are in your life, if you hold your breathe when they touch you and you hurt when you don’t hear from them and they aren’t with you, then you need to tell them.

You only get one life loving that person. Please……tell them. EVEN if they don’t feel the same way. Give yourself the respect of admitting it. And you just never know. Maybe when you tell them, they will say it back. But you’ll never know if you don’t try. You owe it to yourself to find out. You might eye each other up when you collect your mail coz you live in the same Apartment building. Maybe she’s a customer who lingers a little too much longer than the others and who makes you smile the second she walks in the door. If they have been delivering to your house for years and they have been helping you out a little since you lost your partner. Whatever it is. Whoever it is. DO IT!!!! Because to be loved is even better than loving someone.

You get one life so (this takes me nicely into Number 2.

2) Get rid of all your regrets now while your alive because your life becomes so much sweeter when your lighten your load. As you know from recent posts I’ve put up things have been a bit dramatic recently but I’ve gotten to a point in my life where I’m learning to self govern my behavior. I’m dealing with my Karma now so it doesn’t happen in the next life. (If you read my Blog about Karma and what I think it means you’ll know what I’m talking about lol).

So instead of learning in the next life I was a bitch in the way I handled the first problem I had on here with SJ and Granddads funeral I immediately had Spirit on my case and my inner self was feeling like shit and as soon as I fixed the problem my life felt incredible again. I learned so much more about my Self worth and my limits. I learned I have a responsibility over anyone who reads my blog and reaches out to me. I learned it’s not about me any more. It’s about you the reader, follower, client etc…..etc……it’s while been dealing with all the regrets in my life that I’ve had the most epiphanies. The most awe inspiring epiphany’s one can have about ones own life, gift and purpose all came about because I was dealing with all my regrets.

Regrets aren’t a bad thing to have if your man enough to admit to them. Being seen as anything less than perfect nowadays seems to a mental Illness or some thing. Don’t laugh at someone who is brave enough to fix their mistakes or who takes life by the balls.

Make sure your regrets are never bad ones. So don’t do anything so bad and so horrible they haunt you. I know this is true of many Spirits who took a life in their life time. Not being able to make amends to the people they killed and such, it’s a heavy load to bear. Not everyone kills in anger. Some times people get caught up in bad situations and do everything they can to make up for what they did. These are the examples of some Spirits I’ve talked with who have been helping me over the last part of my journey.

They all have stories to tell and I ask them all the same questions. Not every one who takes a life is a bad person. They were just in a bad situation. The victims usually end up being Teaching Souls who chose short lives or dramatic deaths because of the lessons that come from it for those involved. I’m not condoning Violence or Murder. What I’m saying is no one is going to judge a man worse than an innocent one who knows he did a bad thing. But what is ‘a bad thing’ in your eyes?

Because I don’t think if a person takes a life in self defense or the defense of others they have anything to be ashamed about do you?

But if your holding on to things that are hurting you, or your not doing something you yearn for then your going to die with regrets and trust me when I say ‘Regrets are important to Spirit’. So your reading this which means you know from this day on you have the power to get the most of your life to make it the best life ever to prepare you for death. So instead of laying there wasting time on going through all your regrets, you can use the time to remember the good things, and make memories for those left behind.

Write the book that’s inside you. Get it out. Release it on a Kindle or tell no one. But get it out.

If you have a hobby or a love of something, go and do it. It’s your life. You only get one chance to live it as you. When your dead and gone what do you want people to remember you by?

People can say I’m bat shit crazy, people can accuse me of being a fraud, NO ONE can say I didn’t do what I didn’t want to do. I have achieved everything in my life I’ve set out to do. And now that I’ve dealt with my regrets and stuff my life is only just about to get to the good bit.

I implore you to pick up that paint brush, sit at that type writer, put on that dress and heels young man and find your inner Queen.

Put that gorgeous dress on Mama and make a man feel alive. Do what feeds your soul. Everyone has their thing. If your with someone who doesn’t let you have your thing your not with the Love of your Life. Because your Forever Love would not just let you have your thing, they will pay for you to have more of it and even occasionally join in, just for you, because they love you.

Don’t be afraid of pursuing all those things you always wanted to do. If your partner doesn’t want to do learn to Salsa, take a friend. Maybe you’ll start to walk with a pep in your step, maybe he notices. A little jealousy is a good thing if it’s not done on purpose and with the intention of hurting someone. Playful innocent jealousy is cute but anything more than that is cruel and not coming from a good place.

But my point is, instead of saving all your money for your kids after your dead, put some aside for your funeral and spend the lot on holidays ad cruises. It’s your money your earning for while your alive for when your dead. Do you know how nuts that sounds?

Why not just make sure you have enough to pay for your funeral. Let the kids have the insurances but take the money you have and spend the lot of making memories for yourself while your alive. It’s what you worked for. You worked hard for your retirement but it doesn’t mean your retirement has to be spent you waiting for death. Go dancing. Go on a cruise. Get your partner and you a nice new wardrobe and hit the clubs. Play Bingo once in a while sure but play it on a cruise for Seniors or Widows. Go with your lover and have a romantic unplanned weekend in Paris.

Take some cooking classes and cook for your love and family etc….live your life now while your living it. Because you can’t take any of it back when your looking back on your life.

There is only one thing worse than living with fear and that is dying with it. (Obviously I’m not talking about physical fear. I mean emotional fear).

So many people are unhappy. And it’s spreading like a disease. We live these long hard lives because we are in debt and we need to buy stuff and a job is better than no job and your no one if your not on the property ladder.

FUCK the property ladder. Shall I tell you why?

Because your killing your Soul dead just so the bank can take all of your money for you not to own a piece of wood and concrete until you make the last payment.

If it all caught fire right now and you were stuck in the middle what would you save and what would you tell those you loved the most if you had the chance.

If the one your with isn’t the one you love, if the one you love is sitting right next to you, if the one you love is just a message away then do something now that tells them it’s them you chose. Never regret telling those you love that you love them. Make sure they all have no doubts about your love.

If it all went up in smoke would you really be that sad if you knew you had insurance and all the important stuff was out would you really be bothered? I think not. I know of quite a few people that have said ‘When we assessed the damage and moved on with a new flat and charity shop stuff and things people gave us, until our insurance money came through it was kind of just so nice not having crap to worry about any more. There was no more worries about the lawns being too long and the neighbours judging my every step etc…..and once it was all removed I just became so much happier.’

I’m yet to find one who went on to buy another house. They all just paid off debt and traveled or started businesses etc……

A house is just stuff. How much stuff do you need? You can’t take it with you and your not a Pharaoh who is going into a huge chamber. You can’t take any of it with you when you go. It’s all stuff your loved ones are going to have to rifle through after your dead. Most of it will get fought over, donated or sold for £1.

Your belongings will go to other people and if your blessed a lot of people will have nicer food and clothes once your money becomes theirs. Seriously?

Is that what your breaking your back for? So your ‘LOVED ONES’ can feast on your earnings when your dead?

I like what my parents did. They said we were to use our money to ‘Make memories for them’. Which is what I do. Everything I do now I do for Mum and Dad. Stuff they can’t do I now do for them.

If your going to leave a lot of money for your friends and family, make sure you know they will appreciate the sentiment and not use it as an excuse to ‘doss about for a bit’.

which brings us to Number 3 of what Spirit have taught me to teach others.

3) Plan your funeral NOW.

Never leave anyone guessing about what you would want. Write it down. Make it YOUR way. My husband and I have this great idea of setting up a CD of music to hand out to everyone at the funeral and the songs on the CD will be chosen by us that represent our best memories.

IE When our son was born in Ninewells, Dundee Hospital, the song ‘Real Gone Kid’ by Scottish band Deacon Blue was playing on the radio.

Don’t you forget about me by Simple Minds was playing when our youngest son, Train was born. So they would be on our CDs.

Plus any songs we have attached to our best memories and then everyone can take the CD home and remember us when they hear those songs.

I want a cardboard coffin and I want everyone to write messages, sign it, poems and little notes and drawings on it. So when I’m food for the worms and grass grows and maybe one day trees will grow where I’m buried all of those messages of love and support will become a part of the very ground that feeds birds and worms and hence give life. Their words will give life.

But it is common knowledge on this Blog that Spirit ALWAYS go to their Funerals or Wakes or whatever it is we do to remember and send off our loved ones. And if they don’t like it, they WILL find someone to have a moan about it to.

So don’t be afraid to ask your loved ones. ‘When you die, how do you want to be buried. How do you want to be remembered. If they say don’t be so morbid, don’t talk like that etc………say to them ‘I read an article by this Psychic lady who said Spirit gave her a list of rules she is to live by and if it helps others tell them too because it’s for everyone to know these rules. If you live by them will you not only have a happier life but your death will be sweeter too.

Tell them what you want when you die. What you want to wear, what you want played etc….One of my rules is it’s not to be called a Funeral but a ‘Bon Voyage’ party. I’m off on a trip of a life time but we will see each other soon kind of party.

No hymns or church or anything. I’m gonna have a Tangi where everyone tells stories and sings songs and has a laugh and a cry and they draw on my cardboard casket. Then I want my Unveiling to be one HUGE Party. I want everyone to drink and have a laugh and just love each other with good food and drink and stories.

But my husband knows to put me in my nicest pjs and to take everything but my wedding ring off. He knows where everything is to go and I’m an organ donor too so…hopefully I get to save lives too. They get everything but my heart. My heart goes home to New Zealand. In our Memorial war of our Family Cemetery in Bulls, New Zealand. So that regardless of what part of the world has my body, my heart goes home to New Zealand.

Get it all written down. If someone is terminally ill, ask them, what they want. They appreciate it after they die my Babies, I promise. It really does mean a lot to them they way they are sent out. They like to know they mattered to someone.

I have however seen funerals where no one but the Minister and cemetery staff and if you put the ‘Debbie’ glasses on you’d see the thousands who are there in Spirit. So no one EVER dies and is buried alone. So we can all rest a little easier now knowing even the homeless get a good send off. Coz that always bothered me until recently.

When your preparing to bury someone, you have a billion and one things will be going through your mind. You’ll be so busy trying to make sure you got everything right, you don’t have time to mourn your loss?

It always happens, especially for the Oldest couple of siblings. But what if it was already decided and all you had to do was hand over the clothes they requested and have a date and time to tell people? So then all you had to do was be with your family and remember/honor their memory. Isn’t that so much nicer?

Also don’t be afraid to had some humor into your send off. Don’t do all that organ music bullocks. Put your favourites up there. The music you loved to love when you were alive. So when everyone there hears those songs from that day on they remember you and your memory. That is after all what a funeral is supposed to be. A Service to say Goodbye to a loved one.

Remembering your dead is the highest honour you can give them. Their memory is everything to them because it’s letting them know they did a good job. They left an imprint in the fabric of time and it mattered to someone. That’s why they do it. It’s why they keep coming back to live life after life. Because no other existence has the same experience as the human experience. We are inspirational. We are Creative, We are Enduring, and we embrace enlightenment. Without us, if we die out we will never join them up there and we won’t save our planet and all that we are will be lost forever.

They up there, need our inspiration and our need to observe and discover and invent and create, and understand so we can ALL advance as a Higher Beings. When we advance as higher beings it means death will no longer exist and we will exist together in the one time. All species, all, galaxies, all planets etc….as well as all the dead.

So people like me have been sent to give every one the lessons they need to do their bit to making sure that in a couple of hundred years we don’t all just die out.

Stop wasting time. We waste so much time. We are humans being not humans doing. When your doing your experiencing and learning and absorbing the world around you. Go out there and make someones breathing stop for a second when you walk in the room.

There is love out there for everyone. You just have to look for it. Not everyone is lucky enough to have their love come to their door but just because they don’t come to yours doesn’t mean you can’t go to theirs.

If it’s love it’s so worth looking for. And as long as nothing you breaks the Law of the Universe ‘I shall not by my own actions cause loss or harm to any other living soul’ then get off your ass and start to live your life and love every minute of it.

I’m greedy now, I’m asking the Universe for everything now. I want to travel the world and I want to meet people. I want to not be afraid to hide my gift in the outside world any more. I am going to tell the world ‘I’m an internationally renowned Psychic’.

I’ve worked hard for that title. I deserve to use it just like I did when I took my husbands named and got to sign it Mrs. I’ve put in my time on the battle field and earned my scars. So I’m gonna wear that badge with honour.

I still have one regret I’m yet to fulfill and that is Relearn Guitar. One of my wonderful friends made one of my other dreams come true the other day and bought me a Massage Table for my Birthday. I’ve already used it hahahaha I’m such a lucky duck. I got to cross a regret off my list and it felt fantastic.

This last Epiphany came to me today. As I watched Two Documentaries I watched on Netflix.

One was Back in Time, about the making of Back to the Future and it’s Cult following, and First Comes Love.

First Comes love is a movie documentary about a 41yr old Movie maker who decided to have a baby without a Father present. No Husband. Just being a Single Mum. As I watched this woman Nina grieve for her Beloved Mother and then question her own existence I started to have flash backs of this woman’s life. Her Mothers life caught hold of me and I realized things I was seeing months ago were images of this woman’s life months ago but I didn’t know who she was.

This womans Mother was showing me her life, months before I ever saw the movie. Suddenly memories of flashes I’d been having over the months make sense to me.

Then I got my notebook out in my head about previous conversations with Spirit and I started talking to them and this is how I think I have finally cracked the meaning of life and I don’t mind saying ‘I’m pretty Blown away’. Let me know what you think.

The last stage of my training has been introspective as you know. I’ve been made to pay attention to everything they are shown me and being the perfect Teachers they are I have finally cracked their code.

I know eventually the stuff they show me will make sense. So I knew these images I was seeing of these peoples pasts would make sense one day. Little did I know what t would lead to.

Stay with me………….So obviously when I’ve been seeing these things I’ve been having contact with Spirits teaching me the significance of making memories.

I’ve been seeing memories of my childhood, and other peoples. Slowly the cogs have been turning.

Upon watching this Nina bury her Mother in First Comes Love, I said to Spirit as I’m balling my eyes out ‘Why do we do it, grieving hurts so much, why do we put ourselves through the experience?’

And they said (get how perfect this is, I had to sit down when they said this bit)

They said ‘Because to know grieve is to know true love’.

Get it? Only when we know the pain of losing someone we love do we know what LOVE IS.

You can love your cars, your money and your job but losing any of it doesn’t hurt like losing someone you love.

Stay with me, I’m getting to my point.

Then it started dawning on me. That’s what they are trying to teach us. The Meaning of Life.

We chose a life where we have to be born fighting, we have to fight to find our place in society as kids, we have to fight to find our identity as teens, then fight to find your place as an adult then to find love and start a family and have an experience then grow old and die.

And then we stand there and say as Spirits ‘Hmm…..yeah I was a good Mum but I want to learn to love a little more. I never loved my kids the way they should of been loved, I want to go back and know love’.

So off they go and they fight to be born and they we have to fight to find our place in society as kids, we have to fight to find our identity as teens, then fight to find your place as an adult then to find love and start a family and have an experience then grow old and die.

Then they come back and they say ‘I loved my kid perfectly but I think I want to know a life that teaches instead of learns’ so they go off and they fight to be born and they die as a teenager……etc……..get it?

Why? Well if you’ve paid attention to my last few posts you’ll know it’s because of the Human Experience.

Why a Back to the Future Documentary? Because that film created a human experience for billions of people.

They ‘LOOK UP’ told me No one creates like we do, no one takes ideas and makes them something that transcends all time like humans do.

Our human experience is incredible and it’s personal and it means something to everyone having one.

To choose a life of pain and suffering makes you the wisest souls. Your nearly at the top. You chose a harder life for the lessons for yourself and those around you.

No Other species knows the experience like that of the humans. We are creative and inventive and supportive and embracing and free thinking and we LOVE movies and TV shows and they inspire others to have and create their own human experience.

This is why the keep saying ‘Remember me, don’t mourn me’. ‘Honour my memory’.

Because when you remember them it makes them know their human experience meant something AND it means when we remember we travel back in memory with the person who has no gone.

To Mourn them and feel that pain, is what life is. Life is Love and love hurts but there is nothing like it in this universe.

The love of a movie that inspired generations of people to become inspiring themselves.

The love of a child you create and nurture.

The love of a parent,

The love of Nina’s best friend, what an incredible woman her friend is. I know these woman that I’ve never met because Ninas mother showed me months ago. I wish I could tell Nina her Mother is so proud of her. Being a Mother brought Nina’s Mother life and I wish I could tell her that.

Her memory of her Mother keeps her memory alive and then what happens is her boy Jasper will grow up seeing the footage of his Grandma and he’ll have his own thoughts about her and put her in his memory and there her Spirit lives with her Grandson.

See how it works? So that is the Mothers Spirit living on inside the grandkids and anyone who watches the film who thinks about the Mother and their own loved ones etc….and it brings the Spirits right there.

The Human Experience lives on. The Meaning of Life.

Having the human experience so you can make memories and keep your Spirit alive in those who remember you.

Be it a loved one or a stranger, it doesn’t matter. Its the fact to that Spirit of Nina’s Mother (Davenport was her name) her memory is kept alive because someone chose to remember her.

And when your watching someones Mother in a coffin in a documentary you can’t help it. It’s a sadness you feel if you’ve ever had to bury a beloved Mother, parent, sibling or loved one. Grief hurts.

BUT!!! Death is only painful for the living. Spirit are trying to teach us to make memories. Have the human experience. Go out and do and see. Make the memories, not just for you but for everyone around you.

Because one day you’ll be dead and you’ll want to know that your experience meant something.

To the Dead and those living elsewhere there is no death. We live in each others memories. We see each other just by thought alone.

Now I’ve learned to just jump to where I need to go, in a reading or by thought, I can walk around random streets and read out street signs and addresses and describe houses and even peoples lives and funerals etc…….at will.

If we could all get like my level of ability death would no longer exist. We would no longer grieve because our loved ones would exist in my memories and in my dreams and by pure thought alone I can have them by my side.

And they have taught me more in the last 5 months than I’ve learned in the last 42.

Make memories people. Stop wanting money, stop buying houses you don’t can’t take with you, stop wishing to be with someone to love, go out there and find it.

Go put your stuff in storage and travel, write that book, kiss that girl in your class, take those dance lessons. Who cares what people think.

Who cares what people think. We worry so much about what people might think and yet who are these people to judge us for wanting to be happy? Fuck them.

It’s not their life it’s yours.

Don’t go to College if you don’t really want to. Being happy is more important than a decade of being a debt slave.

Write that screen play. I know someone who is writing a book……’s taking a while Dr Who lol

We spend all our time listening to stories on the news and in the media about when the end of the world comes.

People are obsessed with the end of the world. No one wants to hear what I see because it’s not a future ruled by Media, and Banks and Hollywood and Big Business and Pharmaceutical companies where people have been indoctrinated to buy more stuff and be a star and find fame any way you can, and any emotion other than Happy is a mental illness. God forbid you have a real emotion, quick get them on meds for ADHD and tell people they have Bi Polar because suddenly if your happy and then life gets a bit shit your bi polar.

Wake up people. We have human lives. Lives get hard some times. But just because your too lazy to do something to fix it doesn’t mean you should be letting the Government medicate your emotions away. Oh My God!!!

I’m saying this because I’ve had 20 emails this WEEk about people saying they have ADHD because they get moody some times.

Well…..your supposed to get moody. Life gets hard, stuff gets awesome, a twat breaks your heart and a skank steals your money. It happens. Its life.

Stop blaming it on ‘mental disorders’ and deal with your life. If you don’t like the life your experiencing change it. You have the right to change all the things you don’t like in your life.

THAT is why Spirit are saying over and over and over to my clients. Stop worrying about what ifs and just do it. Worrying about possible out comes is far more hassle than just doing it and seeing what happens.

But Good or bad it’s all part of the human experience. And it all takes you down the paths you need to go but you have total control. You can always change the things you don’t like.

Your life is like a Sat Nav. You can’t change the destinations but you can sure as hell decide what roads you want to go down to get there.

So get out there and live your life to the best of your potential. Stop hiding behind fear and mental illness and make your life a human experience for all of us who will remember you.

Then your life lives on forever. To Remember is to be Psychic if you are able to remember the way I have learned to. It’s n incredible feeling to know the lives and childhoods of people who come to me in Spirit.

Then we all just meet up in our dreams and have fun.

I’m utterly exhausted now. I think I’ll sleep for a month.

I need to be Teaching I think. I need to be maybe writing a book. If I could I would give talks but I wouldn’t know where to begin. I also would like to put in out there to anyone reading my Blogs who works in the Science Industry. I want to study myself under a scientific environment to see if I can understand these Time Slips I’m having. Is it a Chemical reaction to something or is it a seizure? is it a hormonal thing or is a part of my brain active?

I’d love to find out.

Anyway, just something for you all to think about. I’m exhausted now lol

I hope this inspires you to start living. Stop allowing this world to stop you from having an incredible human experience.

Because when a Soul gets to the point where it is no longer remembered they stop having human lives and opt be Elders and stuff. Which is sad. But you have to remember, this is why they all flock to us. No one lives like we do. No other planet in the Universe has the same lives as us.

And we fuck it up with wars, The Kardashians and Pocket Dogs.

I mean…..if that’s your experience then have fun with that but stop trying to push it onto us. No everyone wants to be famous because of making a porn. Some people actually have talent and are too poor or too worried with not being bombed to care if KeyWest or whatever their names are having a boy or a girl.

I’d be more impressed if they did a show where she gave away all her wealth. She is married to Yeesuz after all. Wouldn’t he be wanting the poor to prosper.

I’m telling you now America, if that man becomes the next President of the United States your screwed and you’ll have no one to blame but yourself.

STOP WORSHIPPING Celebrities. Raise your children to know about our War Heroes, raise them to have an interest in Science. There are men and women in Science and Medicine and Music and Art and Literature who deserve to be worshiped more than someone who kicks a ball for a Million a week and still can’t get their team to win a Final.

Stop trying to find someone to give you the answers. look for it yourself. Don’t try to be a McPsychic. Be a Gourmet one instead. Sure it takes longer but you’ll enjoy it so much more and you’ll appreciate the efforts that went into making it.

Stop being a Human Being and be a Human Doing.

Enjoy the experiences. Sleep under the stars, get a little stoned, go sing Karaoke, dance with a stranger, hold someones hand, buy a stranger lunch, if you can pay for someones shopping you know looks like they need the help. Some of us have such wonderful experiences we have Forever Loves and Soul mates who want to enjoy the experience with us. They simply chose a different role to play in your life every time there but that’s why a FL or SM are soooo special. Because they share your experience with you in this life and the next and previous etc….They are so so rare. That’s why the connection goes deeper than just loving someone. There is a need to be in each others lives. That is an incredible human experience to have. But it’s why we do it. It’s why we must always do it for the love.

The love of Art, Music, a Human, an Animal, a Movie, a Game, a Genre of something, architecture, history, whatever it is, have it. Know it. Try new foods, open up your world to new experiences. Each one you have will change your life to how it was before. The more you experience the more you want to experience the more you’ll understand. Trust me. Go out and do it. Whatever it is.

Adopt a puppy or cat no one wants and love it with ever fiber of your soul. Offer to help a neighbour, help if you see a need. I promise you, it changes your entire perspective on life when you start to have a more human experience.

Start living people. And I am putting a challenge out to every single one of you. If you come back to me with a story about something you did this week that pushed you out of your comfort zone to enjoy a human experience or about how you went and did something you’ve always wanted to do I’ll grant you a free question. I’ll know if your telling the truth remember lol so don’t make it up.

I want you all to start taking notice of your thoughts and memories and start documenting how many are based around a deceased loved one. I want to see how often you think of them randomly or on purpose.

Your my guinea pigs. And please….I don’t want stories about things you have already done. I only want to hear things you’ve done because I asked you to do it. Just remember the one rule of the Universe.

I shall not by my own actions cause loss or harm to any living soul.

And you’ll be fine.

Love and Light


Um……….ooooookay. The strangeness continues

I know J Dub will have a good read with this.

So last night for some reason I couldn’t sleep. I was utterly exhausted and had been almost falling asleep throughout the day so I was what we call ‘dog tired’.

Hubby was fast asleep next to me. Snoring his beautiful head off and I turned my laptop and TV off so I could ease into a slumber when I heard someone come into the house.

I clearly heard them step through my door as the part of my front door flooring has a distinctive sound. But my hair stood on end so I knew instantly it was Spirit. So I did a blessing over and over to make sure my family was protected. Got the Ancestors in on the action.

But there was an electrical charge to the atmosphere.

I heard it make it’s way up the stairs and into my room. When it got into my room it moved around our bed and kind of not paced but positioned itself next to me. I had the distinct feeling it was making sure my Mr was asleep before coming back to my side.

I was NOT afraid oddly. Not a bit. But something was beginning to happen to me. I was fully conscious. I tested myself. I made myself sit up and touch my feet. I made myself check all my senses and had total free movement and will.

I knew I was to lay back down. So I did.

Then it started……………………….I became aware of my vision seeing everything in green. Everything my eyes could see turned green. I fuzzed and pinged all over then suddenly became aware that I was very heavy. Like I was being slowly sucked down into the bed and floor under the bed but again I wasn’t afraid.

I said to Spirit ‘Don’t scare me, if your gonna do it don’t let it be scary’ and they said ‘Daughter, just relax, trust us’. I said ‘Okay but just make sure I remember it all, if I’ve got to do this please let me see everything clearly so I know I’m not losing my mind’.

With that said I lay back down and I could see everything through the green in perfect 3D vision. The vision of my bedroom became a street. Where was once my wall with my scarves hanging up over my Fozzie Bear bag and Totoro Bag became a street with a row of Tenement houses. About 20 stuck together, all in a row. I could see everything with perfect vision. I could see the paving, the tiles, the bubbles in the paint, everything. The lace of the curtains hanging up, even though I was at least 60-100 feet away standing across the street.

There were trees out the front of the houses. I can still see the leaves and bark patterns it was so vivid.

Also the dutiful student I made myself stop what I was doing and sit up and touch my toes then sit on the end of the bed just to make sure I was conscious. I had total free will.

I lay back down and as I was starting to pay attention to the vision of what was on my wall. But then I felt myself being pulled down, it was so heavy. My body was fighting gravity and then all of a sudden blue holes began to appear in my vision but in the middle of the air about 3 feet up off the bed.

As I was being pulled down blue holes popped up looking like a cigarette burn in video tape. It was burning but ripping open in or over the green vision I had instead of a bedroom wall.

I had so many holes pop open in the air of my vision above my bed (does that make sense?) that I was losing the green. The blue was overlapping the green. So my eyes were seeing a green green, green house, green road, everything was green. Like I was looking at a photo and someone tipped green water over the photo so the whole image on the photo became the same colour green. Not an inch of colour. However, I could see colour through the green.

So imagine your wearing night vision goggles. Everything is green but if you looked at something in particular like a bit of the wall for example you could see the grey stone, the brown dirt etc…in super mega high def detail.

BUT then the blue was over lapping and I ended up having vision not unlike a fly. You know when you see through a flies eyes on a movie or those science movies you were forced to watch at school? Just like that….BUT WAIT THERE’S MORE J DUB!!!!

Fascinated yet Babe? hahahahahaha And by the way while this was happening to me my husband was dreaming of stealing gold from the Devil :) How fucking cool is that? Something incredible is coming for my hubby. WOOHOO!!!

Anyway…………(I’m trying to build up suspense because this next bit is unbelievable)

So by now imagine your wearing night vision goggles but holes were popping out of no where. But they were a bright purplish blue colour and they were now saturating the green. However I became aware that I felt my body being on two different levels above me. Does make sense?

One of myself was in the green time, and above that I felt myself in the blue time also. The blue then began to overlap the green and as it did it I felt my self in the blue time overlap and cover the me that was in the green time so we were becoming one. Three became one because don’t forget I was still aware of myself being in my room.

I again sat up and touched my toes and sat of the end of the bed. Looked around the room. My hubby was still snoring. lol

I lay back down and the blue self and green self began to merge into one. I felt floaty. Like I was floating in space without the need for a space suit or anything.

But when I started to pay attention I noticed each blue hole that appeared, each one had an individual vision DA DA DAAAAAAAAA!!!

Yip, each blue was a vision different from the next. I could focus on each vision individually and the incredible bit is this…..they were visions of my childhood.

I focused on one up to the left of my door where it was the car we had when I was 6. A blue hole in the middle where the wedding photo of my Mum and Dad was hanging on my wall I saw the salt and pepper shakers we had when I was about 10-11 yrs old.

But the thing was I could see it perfectly. I could make out the bumps in the plastic. The grains of the salt and pepper individually. I could see the red plastic and white plastic on the back lights of my Dads black car. It was so familiar to me it felt incredible. I felt elated. And not once was I frightened.

I wanted to see all of them….I wanted to sit and watch all these memories, or vision of memories but I became aware of my husband moving to cuddle me. Then the blue lay over the green and it became black and white like a photo and I felt so heavy I thought I was going to fall through the ground but kind of cave in on myself like someone pushes me into the dirt grave but the grave bottom is never ending. So I’m just going down down down and everything was black and white and extremely heavy. The bed felt heavy, the walls felt heavy, the clothes on my chair felt heavy etc……

And it was over……………………………….or so I thought. Because I had to go to the toilet and when I stood up I couldn’t move my legs.

I had to consciously tell my brain to move my legs and it felt like from the thigh down someone had attached weights to my legs. Like 200 pound weights on each leg. I almost fell over with my top half being normal like my front end was going to move forward but my legs don’t move so my front end falls over but your legs don’t move. I would of hit the floor bending over but I landed on the chair and it stopped my fall.

I went to the bathroom trying to make sense of it all and I came back to bed and Mr was awake and so I told him what happened and he sat quietly and said ‘That’s how Scientists think black holes act.’.

We talked for an hour. Passed out and woke up utterly exhausted but not tired lol

I love my Man. He never laughs at me. Never judges me.

As I type this I had a thought though and J Dub this will explode your brians (brains but we say Brians because of one of my favourite movies Igor lol )

I thought to myself (or was it me?)



J Dub!!!? You may now pick yourself up off the floor :)

I wish I could get some Scientists to help me study me and what’s going on. I know it’s like a Quantum Leap thing but it’s not as other people, it is as me.

But that’s me ever the student lol

I’m such a Parageek. lol

You know who would know this? Dr Who would know this lol I need to find David Tennant lol (he’s my favourite)

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Do it for Love

John Lennon once sang ‘All you need is love’. And they killed him.
But his message while never forgotten, never reached all the ears that were meant to listen.The biggest lesson Spirit have taught me in the 42 years of my life is ‘If your not doing it for the love, your not doing it for the right reasons.’

People are suffering, suffering for their art, suffering for survival, suffering for their cause.
My husband works long hours, grueling hours, on his art because he loves what he does so much, he knows it is with the sacrifices.
I support him, even when I’m missing him, because I love him so much.
I’m not a Super Model, I’ve never been known for my looks but I’ve never been without a boyfriend or partner. I’ve always had a gift of knowing what a man wants.
Whatever he is into, I learn, so we have something to talk about.
All to often in my job I’ve had women coming to me for a reading wanting to know why the men they are with are no longer the men they fell in love with.
And the answer is always the same.
‘You dated a man you thought you could change and you ended up changing so much about him he is no longer recognizable.’
There are so many men and women who crush the Spirit of their partner when they see things in them they don’t like, then no longer recognize the things they saw in them they originally loved in the first place.
That isn’t love.
Love is worth hurting for. Love is with the sacrifices being made to be together.
My beautiful husband gets up every day to work his ass off so I can stay home and raise our boys.
I work part time, helping where I can but he takes all that pressure off me so I can concentrate on educating and nurturing our boys with the best life we can give them. Because he loves me.
He has endured 16 years of emotional bullshit, threats and abuse from his own family because he loves me.
He has given up all of his holiday days, sick days, and even lost wages taking unpaid leave to take care of me when I was dealing with all my health issues because he loved me.
People have divorced for less and it’s because none of those couples loved each other.
Not really.
Love is hard to get a hold of but once you have it, and I mean REALLY have it, the hard stuff doesn’t seem so hard.
Some one once said ‘True love is wanting to kill your partner but never going through with it.’ and with the exception of abusive behavior, most things our partners do to upset us are forgivable and can be worked on.

By abuse I mean, physical, mental, verbal, sexual, financial, etc….
If you have ever been in love, REALLY been in love you’ll know how much it hurts.
But Love can save the world. Love can stop wars. Love can change the entire way you see the world, the Universe and the Dead.

The reason why Spirit keep on at us even though we are idiots who run around with cameras flashing in their faces, and putting our hands through their energy is because they love us.
Even though we don’t give ourselves the time to get to know them, even though we might not or mostly don’t have any genetic history with that Spirit (meaning they might not be a family member or ancestor) put themselves through exhausting, and often time consuming, contact with us because they love us and want to guide us on our journey to becoming enlightened and happy Souls.

The same goes with our ‘Galactic Family’.
The reason they come to keep an eye over us because we are war mongering idiots who instead of allowing ourselves to educate, protect, nurture, heal and love each other and our beautiful planet we fight and steal, lie and cheat each other out of having Love. True Love.
Love really does make the world go round.
While Governments are threatening to shoot on sight, terrified refugees who were forced to flea their own countries because of the wars those very countries who want to shoot them created.

Yet among it are these beautiful, truly Spiritual souls who are offering, food and sanctuary to these refugees because they understand what it is we are all meant to be. It should be the first reaction we have when we see any living breathing soul in need to want to go to their aid and offering them help, or love.

We allow ourselves to be divided by the colour of our skin, by our religious beliefs, by the Uniforms we wear, by the money in our bank accounts and by the soil that lay under our feet at the time of birth.

But the truth is, this is ALL of our planet. No one owns this planet. It was given to all of us. The fact we need to ask for permission to travel from one bit of dirt to another is a slap in the face of everything we were given this planet for.

Our Creator gave us life, gave us birth, gave us all that we see because he was so proud of what he created he wanted someone to enjoy what he had created.
It would make no sense or serve no purpose to have all of this staggeringly beautiful Galaxy to have only one planet have life on it who then would have to wait millions of years for us to evolve enough to get off our asses and build a way of getting out into the Universe and explore it.

We drop bombs on each other because some people in a posh office decide the innocent men, women and children on a patch of soil are no longer worthy of standing on it.
We send millions and millions of people out onto the streets, often starving and in need of medical care and mental health protection because they don’t have enough paper in their wallets or digits on their banks computer screen to please a Fat Cat on millions a year in stolen, often illegal but most definitely sinful revenue who has decided you and your family aren’t worthy of life.

The Love of Money is the Root of all Evil. And it is true.
Spirit are like proud parents who want to give their children the best of everything. They WANT us to work hard and make a good living. They want us to be successful and have all the good things in life.
As long as what you do you do for the love of it and as long as no living being be it animal, mineral or vegetable have to suffer or sacrifice themselves for your success them Spirit support you every step of the way.

Yes Spirit have no concept of money nor do they have a need or want for it.
But we have allowed ourselves to be taken in to believing money is everything and it just isn’t.
Love is.
If you don’t love your fellow, if you don’t love this planet, you don’t love yourself.
The wealthy people of this world might like to believe they are envied and are powerful. They might like to believe there are people who want to emulate them and for the most part it is true.
There are plenty of people who want what they have. But what these people seem to forget is, if you remove your skin, we are all the same underneath.
If you remove the paper we are all the same in the cemetery.
However in Spirit the way your treated will be vastly different.

The more you love money, the more Souls who were sacrificed in order to make you wealthy and powerful on earth the worse you’ll be when your Spirit because you had no love for your fellow man.

The people who are sacrificed their homes, their health, their livelihoods and often families, because it was the right thing to do according to Universal Law will be the ones who are given the higher place in Spirit than the Donald Trumps of the world.

If you love yourself, you’ll love your fellow man regardless of colour or religion.
A man who wears rags who shares his donated food or dollar with his fellow homeless brothers and sisters has more love and will be in a better position come the New Renaissance And the After Life than the man in the Rolls Royce who thought it was funny claiming ‘Nothing smaller than a hundred’ to the man in the first place will.

We must ALL learn to be more Empathic. And not the Empathic that drives me insane lol the ‘Oh I’m so sensitive to Spirit and the energy around me’ bull shit. I mean ‘Empathic’…. As according to the Oxford Dictionary.

Which says: People often confuse the words empathy and sympathy. Empathy means ‘the ability to understand and share the feelings of another’ whereas sympathy means ‘feelings of pity and sorrow for someone else’s misfortune’. Empathy hurts you to witness as much as the person your witnessing. You suffer the emotional highs and lows with the man or beast. And it can take days even weeks to get over something.

I know I say all the time it is my least favourite gift because I’m constantly in floods of tears for someone or some thing I’ve never met before.
It’s not just negative or unpleasant stuff either because I will cry seeing moments of great joy as well.
Like my favourite YouTube clip of the dog that see’s her Papa for the first time in 2 years having spent the time apart because Papa was in the US Military.
This Dog howls, and screams and cries so much, it’s hysterical out pouring of love almost makes the poor beast pass out.

THAT is Love.

You only get one chance at this life. What you do next, all depends on what happens to you when you die.

If your chasing the money to be rich, and not because you enjoy the job. If you buy the house or shoes you can’t afford to be like everyone else, if you take a life because the person in the shell represented someone or an ideal you found offensive, if you endure a relationship that is so toxic, negative and or dangerous because they are hot and look good on your arm, or because they are rich and can give you an easier life, if you destroy or remove someone or some thing from it’s domicile so you can have the land or money from renovating and flipping the house for profit, if you walk past a homeless person whether they are a drunk or not and you don’t help them, if you find their presence an inconvenience to you, if you find the homeless animals and humans who eat from the bins in our neighbourhood an embarrassment or worse if you’ve ever abused, insulted or worse to them because they offended you with their mere existence then you have never known and will never know the true meaning of love.

Love isn’t just about having a partner you have great sex with, or who buys you nice things who makes our friends envious and who can give you a dream wedding.

Love isn’t about putting yourself and your parents in debt for tens of thousands of dollars/pounds for the perfect wedding and if you had your dream wedding where you got everything you wanted and it cost so much your still paying it off years after you were married then I’m sorry but you didn’t marry for love.

The truth of the matter is, it shouldn’t matter where you marry them. The wedding is supposed to be about the union of two families coming together to celebrate the union between the Bride and Groom, or Bride and Bride or Groom and Groom.

It shouldn’t be about how much they spent on flowers and whether the bride managed to talk her parents into buying her the dress she wanted that was over her budget allowance.

Marriage was originally a business deal between two Tribal members as a show of trust and partnership.

Nowadays it’s seem as a show of often non existent wealth and to be frank…………gluttony. You invite people who ordinarily you’d never have a lot to do with outside of family gatherings so you can show off your wealth under the guise of Love.

When in fact what you should be doing is gathering your nearest and dearest to celebrate the union between two people who love each other.

All the money you could save by exchanging vows in a garden and having a BBQ or supper then having a shin dig in a hall somewhere could go on the honeymoon of a life time. Making memories and having experiences to live your entire marriage by would be so much more worth it than wearing a designer gown your never going to wear again and more than likely one day will look back on with hate and regret because you realized you married the wrong person.

Marriage is such a special union very few are mature enough to enter into. Marriage is about going to hell and back with each other for. Making sacrifices for each other. Having each others backs in the good time and the bad. Marriage is about never having to explain yourself because without saying a word your partner understands why you said or did what you said or did. Marriage is the perfect embodiment of what Love really is all about if it is shared by two people who understand the true meaning of the word.


It’s about being there without being asked to be there whether it is being there for your spouse, or a stranger.

Love is saying ‘No I will not fight for you or anyone else unless’

We are living in countries where our leaders are systematically slaughtering human and animal beings because of oil, money and power in the exact same ways the Jews were persecuted in WW2 yet no one is stopping it.

What we are allowing to happen to the poor Syrians in Europe is exactly what happened to the Jews. Yet it seems to be for the most part acceptable. Why is that?

Are people so insular now they are refusing to see we are walking right into another World War? Our Governments would have you believe that Muslims are bad people just like how Germans were told that Jews were bad people not worthy of life. But what people forget it it’s not just Muslims who’s lives get affected by a war. This is NOT YOUR country. It is NOT yours or your Governments planet. It is OUR country and OUR planet. You do not own the soil under our feet and yet your happy to pay over half your wages to own some of it that at any moment the bank could refuse you the ownership of.

God created ALL things Equal. So why the hell are we allowing our brothers and sisters, our animals and trees, our lands and our oceans to be treated as though they belong to anyone other than all of us?

If you’ve ever said ‘These fuckin immigrants come here and take our jobs and buy our houses making everything too expensive for us to live in our own country’ then your an idiot. I’m sorry. But there is NOT one piece of land on this planet that wasn’t founded by immigrants.

We all came from Africa. Our African Grandparents traveled from Africa, up through Europe and across the oceans to find a home for themselves. There is no one on this planet that is 100% of anything other than Human. Yet we are prepared to indebt ourselves and fight for a bit of soil that belongs to all of us.

Is that what you think God wants? Is that Love? Love for your fellow man? Love for your Country? Love for your Planet?


Equality creates balance. Our Universe, our Spiritual Format, is ALL running in perfect order when we have balance.

Our Solar System reacts so much better when everything is in Balance.

Regardless of whether your God is Christian, Muslim, Jewish, Buddhist, Hindu, Jedi, Alien, A Tree or an Animal. It’s all the same to the person who believes.

God is LOVE. Love makes the Universe go round. It’s a fact.

We are ALL connected whether your an Ape on this planet, a bacteria on the Moon, a Being from another Galaxy, or a planet in our Galactic sky. The comets, the meteors, planets, beings, space dust, black holes, milky ways, in this Universe and the others, are ALL connected. We all were born from the one original source of life.

What we do to ourselves we do to them. What we destroy they suffer with, what we create they enjoy, what we invent they receive the benefits from and what we love creates a balance and calm they are attracted to.

They are NOT a threat or a danger to us regardless of what they might start saying. Project Blue Beam has been in the works for a long time and to prove I’m write I suggest for the next 8 weeks you watch the news articles going up on the Yahoo news website.

I’ve noticed that every day for the last 2 weeks the news is about the discovery of or existence of ‘Alien life’. And that is the basis or foundation for the start of Project Blue Beam. I know it sounds insane but it is true. I suggest you Google it.

What we have been fed about our ‘Intergalactic Brethren’ is all founded on stories, wild imagination and very carefully planned out plots and role playing games to fool the masses into believing that what is out there wants to hurt us and experiment on us sexually and mentally. Which is typical of us to make everything about sex and power.

But as with Spirit, they aren’t interested in us sexually. In no way shape or form. We are the only beings who have sex for pleasure. And sex does NOT mean love.

But I digress. I could talk for days about this stuff but I’m going off on a tangent.

The reason why our Galatic Brethren help us, why they have stopped missiles from being set off on ‘the enemy’ is because they love us.

We are compared to Spirit and them, the Babies of the Galaxy. They are trying to help us reach the level of Love and Understanding we need to get our shit together to join them up there. So that we too can Play among the stars.

But we will never be allowed to go near Space in it’s true glory until we can learn to love each other.

They are our Ancient ancestors and the only ones of us who seem to truly understand that they are our Ancestors are the Native Americans and other Indigenous peoples such as the Aboriginals and Maori. But none more so than the Native Americans.

This is why they don’t come down to speak to our Military leaders and Presidents. The first thing they would do is kill them, the second would be to steal their technology.

So they are waiting until we ALL get off our backsides and create Balance.

Don’t do it if it isn’t for love. When you do it for love your doing it for the entire greater good of your Spirit, your Ancestors and your Galaxy.

Any less of a reason isn’t good enough and you’ll never evolve while your doing it for any reason other than love.

The best thing you can do for yourself right now is leave that job you hate, leave that partner your not happy with, leave those possessions your in debt up to your eye balls for and the house your never truly going to own until the day you make your last payment for in about 30 years time and go out into the world and find your true love.

I’m not just talking about ‘Partner’. Find the job you love, find the person you love, find the culture you love, eating the food you love, embracing all the aspects that come with having that love and watch how rich you become after it.

Then when you are rich of heart you will be rich in life and there is nothing more rewarding I can promise you than waking up next to the one you love in a job you love with a life you love.

Sure some days you might not have two pennies to rub together but if your belly is full and our warm and healthy who cares. As long as your living an honest life, where your honoring yourself. You deserve to have the best of everything if your prepared to work hard enough to seek it out,

Whether it is with millions in the bank or not. If you can write the chapters of your story where the experiences you have create the content where there laws of the Universe aren’t broken then live like each day like you’ve never seen it before. So much awaits us when you go looking for love.

Life is an adventure from the second your born.

Go out there and tell your story. Write each chapter as though it is your last and fill it with memories of all the things you got to love along the way.

Just make a promise to yourself to learn the difference between Love and Sexual Attraction, Education and Learning, Honor and Duty, Balance and Order. Life and Living, because only one of those in each selection is what’s wanted for us.

Love is the reason we exist. If our Galactic brothers and sisters were that dangerous they would of cleaned our clock a long time again. The fact they haven’t speaks volumes.

Spirit are the same. They could of gone about their business and left us to deal with death and Spiritual understanding on our own but they all help us because they want us to know the true meaning of the word Love.

Do what you do for the right reasons, and you’ll live thee most rewarding life you could ever imagine. When you have that confidence to love all things openly, nothing is more attractive. And nothing is more attracting. Like attracts like. It’s Universally understood. Like attracts like.

I spent 20 years working on myself. Writing my Chapters. Finding balance and now as I come to the end of my time as a Student. As I prepare for graduation and life with whatever Spirit have in store for me I do so with excitement and confidence. Because even when it’s been hard, I’ve hurt and suffered and been betrayed disrespected, used and abused and I’ve wanted to walk away, call it quits, start again and forget about it, I get up every morning to the greatest love I ever want to know beside me.

With the beautiful children he blessed me with, and the loving insanity of a cat he bought me, in the body he helped me nurture and repair, in a life that I love, helping the people I love through a gift that I love. Sure…..I’m mostly broke, and my clothes are falling off me lol (because I’ve lost so much weight) but my life is an adventure from the second I open my eyes. My journey as a Spiritual person of the purest form of Love and Light enables me to have adventures beyond space and time, in and around our planet and universe, because everything I do, and everyone I do it for, I do for Love.

Love………….is Universal. It creates and nurtures, in heals and mends, it inspires and develops, it builds and protects, it transforms and transcends, it balances and bends, it feeds and nourishes. It turns dark into light and enables. It opens up not just the world around you but the Universe as well.

I wish I could show you. I wish I could show you. Then you wouldn’t be so afraid to live your life as you.

Go out there and love. I promise you John Lennon was right.

Love…… all you need.

To The Loves of my Life, Mr, J Dub, Spirit and my Sons,

I can’t express to you enough how blessed I am to have you all in my life.

I love you all more than you will ever know. My life is rich because I have you in my life. You make my life rich and rewarding and you put up with me regardless of the fact I’m often throwing some of the most bizarre situations your way expecting you to have answers for me to help me understand what’s happening. I trust you with my life and most importantly I trust you with my gift.

You see the side to me I don’t share with anyone else because no one understands my gift the way you do. You never judge me. You my husbands often spend days pondering things I’ve told you in order to help me understand what’s happening to me and you both have never once doubted me.

Your the only people who know the things about my gift I dare not share with anyone. Things I would take to my grave. The stuff people just aren’t ready to hear or know about. You have patience with me and you never make me explain myself. Your the first people I go to when something new happens and the first two I go to when I need advice, help or just to talk. My life wouldn’t be half of what it is without you in my life and I just want to thank you for loving me the way you do.

I am rich because your my reward for everything I do along with my sons.

Everything I do, I do because I am loved by you and everything I am, I am because of you. I wouldn’t be what I am today without you in my life. Separately and together you give my life joy and balance.

I am the Master of my Universe and you are my Stars.

I love you and Thank you.


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My Detox of Death and why it saved my life. (don’t read if your J Dub)

I’m kind of reluctant to write this post for two reasons.

  1. I’m scared people are going to copy me and end up in hospital and
  2. When my best friend reads this and some of the things I’m about to divulge I’m expecting a very public telling off. I’ve never made him angry in the 487 years he has been the 2nd love of my life and I know either my email or Skype is going to ring angrily after he reads this post. And he will read this post. lol

So you all know I’ve been battling with health issues for the last 5 years. I had meshes put in three times and my body has been rejecting them. I’ve developed a bacteria in my gut which makes me violently ill, gives me fevers and indescribable pain.

Because of this bacteria I have a higher chance of getting stomach cancer and when I’m not vomiting everything I eat, I’m doubled over in pain. I’ve almost lost my life twice because of it and at one point my body was so run down my body contracted Chicken Pox while in hospital and my immune system created it’s own skin bacteria the Specialist had never heard of before. I had to go on Immune Boosters for 12 weeks and it was the only thing that gave me strength to go on.

I was put in a High Dependency Unit and put into Quarantine. The only people allowed into the room were the people treating me and two nurses and cleaners who took shifts. People were coming and steering into the window to get a lot at the freak in the cordoned off room. I cried for days and it was a most humbling experience.

But while I was in there I got a wee visit from a Spirit nurse. She walked up to my bed in full 3D manifestation and said to me ‘Mrs Black? Good news, next year will be your year so just hang in there a little bit longer, we’re gonna get you out of this’.

Almost 12 months to the day, they did indeed ‘get me out of it’ and I’m going to tell you how. But before I do I’m going to put up a disclaimer.

I will not be held responsible for anyone who copies me and gets ill because if it. What I am doing is on the advice of my Spirits. The best Doctors in the world because I couldn’t rely on the NHS to do their job and fix me.

Every 8-10 weeks I have these bouts that used to put me in hospital for dehydration, pain, and fever. I had an infected Seroma that would flare and give me raging infections. My sister Mihi, who isn’t blood related but was the best friend of my beloved Paula growing up but she called my parents Mum and Dad and as far as I’m concerned she is my sister. Anywho she is the foremost expert on all things natural and herbal. Her alternative therapies and she told me about CDS, or Chloride Dioxide Solution.

I did some research and found a supplier in Australia. The Government are trying to ban it saying it is a poison but the Lancet Medical Journal are calling it the Medical find of the Century. It is curing all sorts of diseases by kind of making you purge from your body all heavy metals and toxins from your system on a molecular level. The trouble I had was that the antibiotics I was being put on, cleared the infection on top of the mesh but not between the meshes. They are microscopic and nothing was getting it inside the mesh.

I took the CDS for 2 weeks. Just a glass in the morning and it was disgusting. It smelt like  swimming pool and actually had no real taste. If you could get past the smell it wasn’t that bad. You only put 7 drops in the water. It stunk to high heaven but it did the trick.

I spent 2 weeks with gut wrenching diarrhea. I mean….I was never off the bowl. But I haven’t had an infection in 2 years now. No Fevers either.

But I still had the guts ache, severe pain, vomiting that would keep me awake all night and dizzying nausea. I’d be kept awake for weeks at a time with excruciating pain and every 4 weeks or so I’d not be able to get out of bed.

One of the biggest illnesses you get with these meshes is a condition called Fibro Mylagia. It is a painful condition that makes you thoroughly exhausted. Your joints get inflamed and sore and you get something called ‘Restless legs syndrome’ where you can’t keep our legs and feet still. Your constantly feeling the need to move them and it doesn’t matter if your sitting, laying or reclining. I always know when I’m going to have a Fibro attack because 2 weeks before I get saw neck, jaw, nape, shoulders. Not just achy sore, it’s literally sore to touch. It feels like your bruised and any slight touch makes it really painful. Even water from the shower on my skin can hurt.

All I want to do is sleep. I can’t eat, I ache all over and many many times I have had to run my home from my bed. My poor babies being sent downstairs to get me bottles of water and having adventures without me. In fact they were so used to me being stuck at home in bed they used to get disappointed if I came with them because they knew it meant we wouldn’t be doing anything fun because I could only walk so far before being in pain.

I was miserable. I just wanted my life back. I ballooned to 277 pounds. A Size 28-30 in clothes because while I wasn’t eating a lot of food, what I was eating wasn’t healthy because it was quick foods, loaded with sugar, fat and carbs. And because I wasn’t exercising I wasn’t burning any of it off.

I told you 6 months ago I had a visit from the Council. They told me I would be needed to work more. That more people would start needing my help and I needed to be prepared. They also said I was coming to the end of my training and my time as a student was coming to an end. And when that happens it means you begin a public career.

I told them that was ‘fine as long as they helped me get better and looking a little more presentable. I didn’t want to be out in public looking like someone had inflated a me through a valve near my butt lol They said they would be in touch and when they were ready I was to follow their every instruction. And this is the part I take no responsibility for should you follow my diet.

So 4 months ago they came to me with a list of things I was to buy and a list of instructions and guidelines I was not to deviate from.

I was to limit my diet to no more than 800 calories. I was to eliminate white flour, and milk from my diet. Cheese was fine as long as it was as low fat as possible.

I could eat as much fruit and meat as I wanted to but seeing as I only eat chicken and the occasional piece of fish it wasn’t really an issue for me.

I was to eliminate sugar completely. No sugar was to be eaten or added to my food. I could only get my sugar from natural sources. Like fruit, raisins and other dehydrated fruits.

I started the no sugar diet first, thinking it would be the hardest to kick and in terms of the effects it had on my body I’d say it was the one thing my body kicked up a fuss about. After 4 days of no sugar, I started to get headaches and while I’ve never had any cravings for the sugar I found myself feeling the need to snack more. In which case I ate brazil nuts, walnuts and popcorn (cooked by me in a pot with coconut oil)

I didn’t miss sugar or crave it. In fact within 5 days of having no sugar I found I began to sleep better, my skin was looking clear, no redness or puffiness on my face.

I started to drink Sparkling Mineral Water too and for some reason my brain really enjoys it because it tastes sweet. Like Fizzy Pop but it’s just water. I don’t know if the Carbonated part of it tricks my brain into thinking it’s pop but my husband and sons now drink it. I sometimes put juice in it so they think they’re having Fizzy Pop lol

After week 2 I felt feckin fantastic. I had so much energy I was exhausting my husband and sons out from all the walking I was doing.

I lost 14lbs in a week.

Then after week two they bought in the diet part.

I also started taking B12 vitamins and within 4 days got the feeling back in my feet and fingers again after 3 years of not feeling them. It really was a miracle. The voices in my head were starting to cure me of things hundreds of Doctors, Surgeons and Specialist didn’t have a clue over.

They would of wasted 10s of thousands if tax payer dollars on not fixing me. They all had an idea of what it could be. And I was misdiagnosed 3 times with Diabetes (which almost killed me while I was pregnant with Train), IBS and Tumors.

So the diet became this.

No more than 800 calories a day.

No butter, no marg. I can only eat low fat, zero sugar olive spread. Which is fine. I like it. My cheese is 50-70% fat free, my cottage cheese is fat free, I even have cheese spread which is fat free. It’s great on my Sesame Seed Ryvita crackers I have for lunch or a snack.

My bread is wholemeal, or Granary. It isn’t big slices but if I have cheese spread and cheese on it for breakfast it’s really very filling. No white flour what so ever.

I was to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner only if I felt hungry.

Some days I skip breakfast but I’ll have a coffee with coconut milk in it and maybe an apple and pear around 10-11am. Coconut milk is what I use for everything I consume. Apart from mash potato but I don’t eat it very often.

For lunch I can have a sandwich with say lettuce, cottage cheese, tomatoe and vegemite for example. Or if I have some left over chicken from dinner I’ll have chicken, cheese and zero fat mayo.

Then dinner. Which is whatever the family eat but if they have pasta or spaghetti or rice I eat wholemeal pasta, brown or basmati rice. My salt, soy sauce and gravy’s are low salt, low sugar. I had some tomatoe sauce the other day that wasn’t low sugar and salt and it was disgusting. I couldn’t eat it if it was on my food.

My taste buds have changed so much. Sugar coats your tongue with a slime that goes away after about 2 weeks and I promise you your taste buds will thank you for eliminating sugar.

Everything you eat tastes soooo much better. A bite of a home made burger or pizza is incredible. In one bite you taste every flavour. Your taste buds single them out one by one and you enjoy every flavour one by one. It has made me want to experiment with my cooking just because I want to see what certain things taste like.

Homemade Southern Fried Chicken is next. My Chicken Goujons are to die for.

I’m only allowed to eat if I’m hungry and if I’m peckish I’m only allowed my dried fruit, fruit, nuts and popcorn. I also have ‘Salt your own’ crisps too which are low salt, zero sugar and low fat.

If I have bread for toast I won’t have any more bread for the day. Basically though I eat what I’m told to when I’m told to.

I have a stack of brazil nuts, walnuts, peanuts, cashews, almonds, dehydrated fruit like raisins, cranberries, blueberries, mango, guava, etc….

All my food is grilled, oven baked or cooked in coconut oil. I have found that in doing my Detox of Death with nuts as my source of snackage and cooking my memory has started to return and I’m remembering the names of people and places I had forgotten for decades. Like High School teachers and birthdays etc….

Also the other thing I do is when I wake up before having anything to eat and drink I have a glass of apple cider vinegar. About 4 caps full in a half a glass of water.

My nails and hair are looking shiny and gorgeous, my skin is clear, not puffy, or red any more. It’s taut and smooth. I’ve always been blessed with good skin but now my skin is like it was when I was 17.

I’m full of energy again, my husband hasn’t had to take one day off this year for my illnesses. He has twice for my back or a Fibro day (before the detox) but not one day since. This is coming from a man who lost all of his holiday and sick days for 5 years because of me. He even had to take unpaid leave to help me never once complaining.

Befor, everything I did was from bed. All my house work was done bit by bit leaving the big things like hoovering to my husband who was already working 2 jobs as it was.

Now my house is always spotless because I have the energy to do it all myself.

I am sleeping so much better now. I used to get woken up constantly with pain, of feeling the need to vomit, or the other end sometimes 5-6-7 times a night. I was so inflamed in my gut and organs they would glow in the CT Scans. All my organs were twice the sized, engorged from the inflammation.

I used to feel my blood coursing through my veins. Like a torrential river. It burned so much.

In 4 months I have stopped vomiting. Stopped with the gut wrenching excruciating pain that made me feel like I was being stabbed. My guts would make these horrible sounds which always led to me being in agony within a day or two.

In four months, I have lost nearly 60 pounds. Weight loss is a part of Fibro Myalgia but I had nearly 12 stone to lose.

I have gone from a size 28-30 to a 18-20 which means I’m 2 stone away from being at my gorgeous pre pregnancy weight. I have long slender legs again, I have wrist bones, hip bones and slender arms again. I bought myself a gorgeous dress in a size 22 and it’s too big lol

I’m never hungry. Some days all I’ll have is Ryvita crackers with Cottage cheese and some fruit and I’m happy as a lamb.

I’m eating so healthy now that yesterday I stupidly had a piece of Domino’s BBQ chicken pizza and woke up this morning with sore joints and hay fever like symptoms so needless to say I won’t be doing that again.

I have no trapped wind, no nausea, I’ve stopped taking 80% of my medication.

Unfortunately I do still get pain of the ripping tearing adhesion type but once I can manage that I will be in perfect health.

I still have Fibro days but where as before they would have me bed ridden for up to 4 weeks but now it’s 2-3 days and that’s if I don’t have my Ganga.

I’m happier than I have ever been. I’m replacing ALL of my clothes and bringing out my pre-pregnancy clothing. I’m sleeping better and to be perfectly honest with you my libido is back and it’s back with a vengeance. My poor husband is being sexually accosted on a regular basis lol I think I’ve turned into a pervert with him lol He’s all I think about lol

I am more patient with my boys too. My blood pressure has returned to normal, my hands and feet are no longer swollen and I’m not retaining fluid and get this. I have done ZERO exercise. Apart from walking on the weekends or occasionally as a family we walk to the shop.

After 4 months I can no longer stomach the smell of sweeties and I’m only have supposed to have been on this Detox of Death for 3 months but I’m enjoying it so much I won’t ever stop.

I miss cups of tea but it’s not very nice with coconut milk but I’ll maybe use skim milk every now and then.

I’ve been testing myself on foods to see if I react to it in any way and so far it seems to be white flour, milk and sugar that are doing the most damage. So I’m avoiding it.

Not once have I had a craving for anything sweet. I miss nothing apart from Ice Cream BUT Icelands and Tesco sell this sugar free ice cream that is supposed to taste gorgeous so I’m going to try that.

If I do want something sweet at any point it is only allowed to be Dark Chocolate with the highest percentage of cocoa in it as possible.

It is incredibly healthy for you and is linked to some incredible medical benefits. Diet sweets or diabetic sweets often have Aspartame or other artificial sweetener in it.

I feel 22 again. I feel so good and my husband has been so impressed with what it has done to me he is wanting to try my detox of death so we are waiting on Spirit giving him his instructions.

They seem to know what you can and can’t eat better than even you do. They set my meal plan for the day when I get up so I know what I’m eating.

I actually look forward to eating now and enjoy every bite. I stop when I feel full, even if it’s half a plate. But I can’t stomach as much as I used to. I don’t have to eat more than my 800 calorie allowance. But I can’t go over.

I’ve only been over once and that was last night when I ate the pizza slice and boy did I pay for it.

I keep a journal so I can document all the foods that I’ve noticed a difference with. Bananas have been a bit of an issue I’ve noticed too.

I’m so grateful to Spirit. They have saved my life. I’ve never felt this good. And I get to go clothes shopping again. I am starting to dress all trendy again as opposed to looking 9 months pregnant. And you want to see my new shoes I’ve been buying. Nothing over £20 but I am actually wanting to take pride in my appearance again.

So I know J Dub is asking ‘Why would she worried I’ll get angry at her?’

And the answer is because I had 3 clients who became kind of friends who have started taking my friendship for granted. I worked out for one of the over the 3 years I’ve know me I have given away £10,640 quids worth of free readings and questions. I have another who has gotten £15,500 worth of free readings and questions in 2 years and another who has gotten £5000 worth of free questions.

I’m having to scrap and save my pennies together to buy my husbands birthday presents and these people got £36540 quids worth of work from me. When I told them this because I was so angry at how they were taking the piss out of me and my time neither apologized and one of them actually said ‘I don’t know why your so pissed off at me, can you hurry up and get over this tantrum of yours and get back to me please because I need your help and I can’t do it without you, this isn’t about you Debbie, this is about me.

So needless to say he and I no longer talk.

I’m not talking about people who come to me asking for help in dealing with a situation in their lives or home. I’m talking about people who got endless free readings and questions. Selfish people who would call any time night and day waking me up, interrupting my time with my family, even during readings with paying clients.

None of whom even had the decency to ask me if it was okay to call. Just people who would ring and make me stop doing what ever it was I was doing to answer me phone. However I’d never answer unless I wasn’t busy.

When I told these people that they were literally taking the shirts off my kids backs none of them battered an eye lid.

So no more. For them, the free ride is over. I still get the odd client trying to get a free question off me but I just don’t answer. Why them then?

Because I thought we were friends. I thought I was doing them a favour. I thought I was being a friend. I didn’t even realize that I was doing it.

But remember I said Spirit said I was coming to an end of my time as a student? It seems the last lesson is all about me. Working on me and ironing out the last chinks in my armour so to speak.

I’ve unloaded a lot of dead weight in my time on this last lesson.

Letting go of people, thoughts, fears and issues that were holding me back. They were three of them I guess.

One time i worked 100 hours just over a 10 day stretch and earned £90 because I was doing so many free readings. I refuse to take money from my husband though. How can I work 100 hours and be so broke?

And they just didn’t seem to care.

Don’t worry J Dub, it won’t happen again. And readers I’m not talking about questions in the forum or Blog. I will never stop helping you all and I’ll never charge for it.

I’m talking about readings, and questions where I’m having to use my gift to answer them as opposed to my knowledge. These were people who considered me a friend who took the ‘Never charge friends or family’ rule a little too literally.

I’m disgusted at them and their behaviour and pissed off at myself for being such a mug. I thought I was really good at spotting the takers and users but I never saw it coming from within.

One of them got a HUGE tax refund in the thousands too and never once offered to pay me. In fact I stayed up till 2.30am helping him with his issues and never even for a thank you. Now….you know this isn’t about the money. It’s not about the money. It’s about the fact that I’m working part time trying to make a name for myself and yes sometimes you have to give someone a free sample. That’s marketing.

What these people did was abuse the privilege in the name of friendship. Well this week I removed the friendships and never again will I allow myself to be taken for granted like that. The only friends I have now are friends who have proven time and time again they can be trusted. Friends who have done more for me than I have done for them that’s for sure.

People like J S, A T, P Y, etc…and of course my wonderful J Dub. The best boyfriend/second husband a girl could ask for. He’s the type of best friend you have pyjama parties with, sleeping on the floor watching movies and having snacks and doing each others nails and hair while he tells you that guy is a loser for dumping you and if he was my guy he’d totally go out with you proud to have you on his arm lol

So I’m going to run away now because I just saw him get on Skype and I know this means he is about to read my posts and I don’t want to be looking at him as he kicks my ass lol

I call it the Detox of Death because it was Death who put me on the Detox lol they created the meals and menus for me. They tell me what to eat and when. They tell me how to cook it and how to prepare it.

So if you try this detox please don’t hold me responsible if you collapse or get ill. I know my body inside and out and I know Spirit.

This detox won’t work if your not able to talk to Spirit because they give you the recipes and food ideas. They tell you which cereal to buy and which prunes to buy (I put them in my Bran Cereal for flavour because I can’t put sugar in it) sometimes I put in fresh berries or raisins, just like a tablespoon.

I’m eating a lot of brown lol but ya know what? this has been the easiest diet I’ve ever been on. It hasn’t been hard one bit. Not once have I felt like going back to my normal diet. I’m always full and I’ve never felt so alive and when I reach my target weight I promise you I’m going to post a before and after photo.

Oh and one more thing. You HAVE to try fresh percolated coffee with Alpro Coconut Milk. You will never drink normal coffee again. My husband is so impressed he is doing my Detox too. Basically my body is getting not starved but deprived of certain things to kick start itself into normality again and it has worked.

I haven’t been to the Doctor once. I have however been buying nice lingerie………grrrrrrrrr hahahahahaha

And my gift has grown at an exponential rate.

And I’m so unbelievably happy.







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Smudging and why it should never be done regularly

I know I know, but people on TV do it all the time. Well my answer to that is, the people on TV are mostly idiots who are teaching some very dangerous and BAD habits.

I know it’s cool, all these Paranormal Investigation shows on TV. They seem to easy to emulate but I’ve yet to see one of them Investigate correctly.

If I had a show on TV I would explaining the dangers and uses for everything you see in an Investigations.

I know my Photographer and Graphics expert husbands pet peeve for these shows are the people who catch ‘green stringy lights and orbs’ with their cameras.

One of them was investigating a prison that was lit up with green lighting along the cells and when she took her photo there were green swirls of light in the picture.

I have had to stop watching these shows especially My Ghost Story because 99.9% of the anomalies caught on camera is because the person stood with camera or phone in their hands.

You must NEVER take photos with your hands. Your camera should be perched on a ledge, chair or tripod because there is just too much room for era with a hand held exposure. Most people don’t put their camera on the right setting either so lights will get drawn out and over exposed looking like swirls and orbs. They can even be under exposed making shadows appear where there weren’t any light source with the naked eye.

So if you see ‘Ghost’ photos and the person was standing holding the camera you can pretty much throw it out. It is tainted evidence.

The other thing is Smudging.

Smudging is done to clear the room, house, area or person of negative or unwanted energy.

But never never never Smudge every day, every week or even every month.

Smudging should only be done once a year if that. Twice…..maybe.

If you salt your threshold to the doors that enter your home you never need to smudge.

Smudging doesn’t just remove the unwanted energy but it removes the wanted Spirits too. Not your Spirit Elder but the Spirits protecting you, loved ones, Resident Spirits and the ones drawn to your energy all get removed.

I couldn’t imagine my life without the Spirits that pass by me every day. You just need to stop being afraid of the Spirits that are around you.

It’s harsh but it’s true. If you stopped being afraid of everything and educated yourself a little better then you’d stop being afraid and wouldn’t need to smudge.

You don’t have to invite them in for cups of tea and braid each others hair but if they aren’t hurting you and aren’t doing anything to make you ill or unhappy then you simply need to toughen up and educate yourself.

I need you all to start trusting me with this. I’d never lead you astray. Everything I do is to help you and if I don’t do it then you don’t need to either.

Everything I teach you, I’m teaching my children and will teach any students I am lucky enough to get. And I’m telling you that regular smudging keeps everything you don’t want away as well as everyone you do want. Including loved ones on the other side.

Get to know what is going on with you. Learn to understand what is happening to you and you’ll start to deal with things so much better.

Smudging is for extreme cases only. If you salt your thresholds then nothing will come near you unless invited.

If your doing things that open you up or send signals to Spirit then you can’t complain when they answer you back. It is totally not fair on Spirit if you ‘open up the lines of communication’ and then get scared and don’t want to answer them.

Your asking for this stuff to happen so why is it fair that you then have to smudge them away because you weren’t ready?

People need to stop doing this to Spirit. Its not fair. You don’t have any idea how hard it is for them to be around you even as an energy and your all wanting to have these experiences on our terms and it doesn’t work like that.

These Souls just want to love you and help you and tell their story. Some just want to be acknowledged because a Spirit that isn’t remembered has to be reincarnated and while they love the adventure it hurts them to know their lives meant nothing to people.

It doesn’t matter if they died 300 years ago and have no connection to you what so ever, if your reading their name on a head stone or in a book, if you know they are there and you acknowledge them you instantly draw them to you. Just like that movie The Book of Life.

I LOVE that movie. I’m buying in DVD I love it SOOOO much because what they say in it is true.

If you remember the dead it keeps them alive. If they aren’t remembered their no longer able to exist which is why I love my culture.

Maori people honour their dead in the best possible ways. And it keeps our ancestors alive. Which is why when we need the courage and strength needed for battle or in my case my gift, I call on my ancestors first.

Our Haka Kamati Kamati is all about that very thing.

If you know Rugby then you’ll know the All Blacks and before each game we do the Haka for our enemy or opponent.

They stand on the ground as hard as they can, to wake up the dead. Then they ask for their ancestors to come up through the ground and rise up through their bodies to give them the strength of their ancestors.

So primitive man knows the importance knew the importance of remembrance.

And like I say over and over and over again, if you ask for protection from Spirit and the Ancestors every night before bed there is NOTHING that will be allowed to come even near you if it is anything other than of Love and Light.

You underestimate the power of Family. Spirit love you regardless of whether they were related in life or not but if they were related genetically even 200,000 years ago, then No THING or no ONE will be allowed anywhere near you without feeling the wrath.

Blood is thicker than water even in Spirit. So stop being so dramatic people.

Protect yourself, salt your thresholds and start saying Hello to the wonderful souls who love you so much they choose to be with you over living.

Death is nothing to fear. Spirit are nothing to fear.

If your a good person and you have a faith in something that gets you through the hard times then you have nothing to fear from the Dark Side.

The only go after victims who they see as being weak and vulnerable.

The easy targets. If you change your perception of what is negative then you’ll realize even being scratched or pushed isn’t an Evil Spirit.

I’m seriously thinking of writing a book called A Dummies Guide to The Dead lol it will be an Encyclopedia of all things Spirit. Educating people on what its all really about. Basically this Blog in Book form. Once I can get people thinking along the same lines as me, the world will be a much better place and then people the The Ghost Hunters and the rest of them can stop exploiting the dead. (I love Ghost Adventures though, they still get the best evidence however I’ve stopped watching since they started getting more people involved in the show. It’s always better to do an investigation with the least amount of people involved and it’s kind of become an Investigative Free for all lately)

I’d LOVE to do my own show. It would be educational as well as entertaining. lol You know there would be some laughs lol

I’d just need to get over my fear of being on TV and being around strangers lol

If your wondering if it’s you I’m talking about….if I’m still talking to you…….it’s not you.
These people got emails from me discussing why I would no longer be getting my help.
If you never got an email from me…it’s not you.


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