I’ve recently had the pleasure of meeting and reading for a handful of people who’s lives are in turmoil.
They’re reaching out for me to help them, guide them, inspire them and I can’t. I can’t do it. Spirit have told me it isn’t possible. I can’t fix your life. Just because I fixed mine doesn’t mean I can fix yours. There is a big difference between me and all these staggeringly beautiful lost souls and that difference is ‘I have faith’…..’I found faith’…….’I got faith’
At some point in my life, after being sexually abused my men my Dad was in charge of in the Army at the age of about 6, being raped by Police Men in Australia when I turned to them for help, after being kicked out of School at the age of 14 because they felt they could know longer offer me an education, after marrying a man who loved me for being way out of his mundane life who then proceeded to suffocate me and smoother what I was, after sleeping with too many men to count (none of them married to my knowledge) after taking drugs and drinking every night (it was fun, I can’t lie) I have drunk Russian Sailors under the table, the New Zealand Army twice, and Glaswegians 4 times, lets just say ‘The girl can drink’. I never once got myself into anything I couldn’t get myself out of. After all of it…………I grew myself some faith.
After crying many many nights for someone to save me and not getting anything back. Me……..the lady who talks to the dead, couldn’t hear anything when it came to me. So who was I to turn to if I couldn’t rely on Spirit?
Well the truth is, You. When the chips are down YOU are the one YOU can rely on. You can have 100 accurate readings, but none of them really answer the questions you seek. You can buy the Self Help Books, go to seminars, take prescription medication, drink a bit, search the internet for forums etc……looking for that someone and something to trigger an answer for you but none of it matters if you don’t have faith.
If you have Faith. You don’t question what happens. You can be angry and confused but in the end you don’t question it. Because you know that when something happens, it’s not going to be forever. It might change things, it might break things up, it might bring more than you can carry even, but you know that if you can’t control what is going on, your not meant to so leave it alone, get your head down and ride out the storm. That is all you can do and putting all of that effort in to finding someone with the magic word or wand is just wasting time and energy on nothing. Your better off being honest with yourself, being realistic and admitting ‘If my problem isn’t fixed now then it’s obviously nothing, outside of me that I can do to fix it’
No one can change your life but you. And the Faith you grew from trusting and listening to YOU is what opens up the lines of communication with Spirit.
Faith involves no Church, or Minister, Priest or Rabbi. Faith is stronger than religion.
People blindly follow religion without any real clue why they’re doing it they just know they supposed to have a religion.
But few have true Faith.
Faith is knowing that regardless the situation, like being raped by Police Officers
, I’m getting out alive and nothing will stop me from living my life to the best of my ability. Where I got out alive of any situation I got myself into was me growing a bit more faith in myself and my abilities to take care of me which grew more faith in the fact I knew someone had my back every single time.
Being kicked out of school lead me to becoming the youngest people ever to get my Degree in Beauty Therapy and Massage. Turns out I wasn’t trouble in school. I was bored. I’m on of these people who excel at the things I’m interested in. I was A’s in English and History but not Maths and Science. But I got IQ tested, something my school should of done. It changed my life. I went and got degrees in loads of things. Tried my hand at many things, all of which gave me life experience which gave me faith in myself which grew me some more in Spirit because they were opening my world right up. That was at 18 and that is when I decided to ‘trust my gut and just do the things in life I want to do, I have gotten myself this far with the faith thing, why not put it to the test.’ Saying that simple sentence changed my life forever and I will be eternally grateful.
Now I know ‘Just because I don’t get the things I want doesn’t mean they aren’t listening to me. It means what I wanted wasn’t meant for me and I was just wasting time wishing for something I knew I might ever get. You have to be realistic about these things. Know the difference between what you Want and what you Need from your life and if your putting all that time and angst into getting something then chances are it isn’t something you even need. Your faith teaches you the difference.
Everything that happened in my life has happened for a reason and those reasons were to give me the faith I have now which is why I regret nothing that has ever happened to me.
My life has been about adventures and getting the things I need into my life. I knew I needed love and family and I needed to help people. I tried many forms of those things but nothing came close until I met my husband Mr.
See, get the faith in you first. Take all the things that have happened to you in your life and use it to push you along.
When shit happens, just say ‘Fuck it….I can’t control it so I’ll just move on’. Don’t let the fear of living destroy your life, let the life your living destroy your fears.
It’s that simple. If you don’t like your life, do something about changing it, then you can’t blame anyone if it goes wrong and you’ll learn so much more about yourself and your faith by doing it which money can’t buy and no Psychic will tell you this for free because it means you don’t need her as much.
You can blame the world for your life going wrong or take from the lessons you learned and you can demand action in yourself and bring about the changes yourself., but if you do nothing to take action, and nothing changes and Spirit still don’t talk to you then you have a choice, do nothing or Grow some faith.
The choice can only be yours. I can’t do it for you no more than you could of for me.
But it’s there, and it’s for everyone.
P.S I don’t want any sympathy for my life. My past doesn’t define me, and my future..