Um……….ooooookay. The strangeness continues

I know J Dub will have a good read with this.

So last night for some reason I couldn’t sleep. I was utterly exhausted and had been almost falling asleep throughout the day so I was what we call ‘dog tired’.

Hubby was fast asleep next to me. Snoring his beautiful head off and I turned my laptop and TV off so I could ease into a slumber when I heard someone come into the house.

I clearly heard them step through my door as the part of my front door flooring has a distinctive sound. But my hair stood on end so I knew instantly it was Spirit. So I did a blessing over and over to make sure my family was protected. Got the Ancestors in on the action.

But there was an electrical charge to the atmosphere.

I heard it make it’s way up the stairs and into my room. When it got into my room it moved around our bed and kind of not paced but positioned itself next to me. I had the distinct feeling it was making sure my Mr was asleep before coming back to my side.

I was NOT afraid oddly. Not a bit. But something was beginning to happen to me. I was fully conscious. I tested myself. I made myself sit up and touch my feet. I made myself check all my senses and had total free movement and will.

I knew I was to lay back down. So I did.

Then it started……………………….I became aware of my vision seeing everything in green. Everything my eyes could see turned green. I fuzzed and pinged all over then suddenly became aware that I was very heavy. Like I was being slowly sucked down into the bed and floor under the bed but again I wasn’t afraid.

I said to Spirit ‘Don’t scare me, if your gonna do it don’t let it be scary’ and they said ‘Daughter, just relax, trust us’. I said ‘Okay but just make sure I remember it all, if I’ve got to do this please let me see everything clearly so I know I’m not losing my mind’.

With that said I lay back down and I could see everything through the green in perfect 3D vision. The vision of my bedroom became a street. Where was once my wall with my scarves hanging up over my Fozzie Bear bag and Totoro Bag became a street with a row of Tenement houses. About 20 stuck together, all in a row. I could see everything with perfect vision. I could see the paving, the tiles, the bubbles in the paint, everything. The lace of the curtains hanging up, even though I was at least 60-100 feet away standing across the street.

There were trees out the front of the houses. I can still see the leaves and bark patterns it was so vivid.

Also the dutiful student I made myself stop what I was doing and sit up and touch my toes then sit on the end of the bed just to make sure I was conscious. I had total free will.

I lay back down and as I was starting to pay attention to the vision of what was on my wall. But then I felt myself being pulled down, it was so heavy. My body was fighting gravity and then all of a sudden blue holes began to appear in my vision but in the middle of the air about 3 feet up off the bed.

As I was being pulled down blue holes popped up looking like a cigarette burn in video tape. It was burning but ripping open in or over the green vision I had instead of a bedroom wall.

I had so many holes pop open in the air of my vision above my bed (does that make sense?) that I was losing the green. The blue was overlapping the green. So my eyes were seeing a green green, green house, green road, everything was green. Like I was looking at a photo and someone tipped green water over the photo so the whole image on the photo became the same colour green. Not an inch of colour. However, I could see colour through the green.

So imagine your wearing night vision goggles. Everything is green but if you looked at something in particular like a bit of the wall for example you could see the grey stone, the brown dirt etc…in super mega high def detail.

BUT then the blue was over lapping and I ended up having vision not unlike a fly. You know when you see through a flies eyes on a movie or those science movies you were forced to watch at school? Just like that….BUT WAIT THERE’S MORE J DUB!!!!

Fascinated yet Babe? hahahahahaha And by the way while this was happening to me my husband was dreaming of stealing gold from the Devil :) How fucking cool is that? Something incredible is coming for my hubby. WOOHOO!!!

Anyway…………(I’m trying to build up suspense because this next bit is unbelievable)

So by now imagine your wearing night vision goggles but holes were popping out of no where. But they were a bright purplish blue colour and they were now saturating the green. However I became aware that I felt my body being on two different levels above me. Does make sense?

One of myself was in the green time, and above that I felt myself in the blue time also. The blue then began to overlap the green and as it did it I felt my self in the blue time overlap and cover the me that was in the green time so we were becoming one. Three became one because don’t forget I was still aware of myself being in my room.

I again sat up and touched my toes and sat of the end of the bed. Looked around the room. My hubby was still snoring. lol

I lay back down and the blue self and green self began to merge into one. I felt floaty. Like I was floating in space without the need for a space suit or anything.

But when I started to pay attention I noticed each blue hole that appeared, each one had an individual vision DA DA DAAAAAAAAA!!!

Yip, each blue was a vision different from the next. I could focus on each vision individually and the incredible bit is this…..they were visions of my childhood.

I focused on one up to the left of my door where it was the car we had when I was 6. A blue hole in the middle where the wedding photo of my Mum and Dad was hanging on my wall I saw the salt and pepper shakers we had when I was about 10-11 yrs old.

But the thing was I could see it perfectly. I could make out the bumps in the plastic. The grains of the salt and pepper individually. I could see the red plastic and white plastic on the back lights of my Dads black car. It was so familiar to me it felt incredible. I felt elated. And not once was I frightened.

I wanted to see all of them….I wanted to sit and watch all these memories, or vision of memories but I became aware of my husband moving to cuddle me. Then the blue lay over the green and it became black and white like a photo and I felt so heavy I thought I was going to fall through the ground but kind of cave in on myself like someone pushes me into the dirt grave but the grave bottom is never ending. So I’m just going down down down and everything was black and white and extremely heavy. The bed felt heavy, the walls felt heavy, the clothes on my chair felt heavy etc……

And it was over……………………………….or so I thought. Because I had to go to the toilet and when I stood up I couldn’t move my legs.

I had to consciously tell my brain to move my legs and it felt like from the thigh down someone had attached weights to my legs. Like 200 pound weights on each leg. I almost fell over with my top half being normal like my front end was going to move forward but my legs don’t move so my front end falls over but your legs don’t move. I would of hit the floor bending over but I landed on the chair and it stopped my fall.

I went to the bathroom trying to make sense of it all and I came back to bed and Mr was awake and so I told him what happened and he sat quietly and said ‘That’s how Scientists think black holes act.’.

We talked for an hour. Passed out and woke up utterly exhausted but not tired lol

I love my Man. He never laughs at me. Never judges me.

As I type this I had a thought though and J Dub this will explode your brians (brains but we say Brians because of one of my favourite movies Igor lol )

I thought to myself (or was it me?)



J Dub!!!? You may now pick yourself up off the floor :)

I wish I could get some Scientists to help me study me and what’s going on. I know it’s like a Quantum Leap thing but it’s not as other people, it is as me.

But that’s me ever the student lol

I’m such a Parageek. lol

You know who would know this? Dr Who would know this lol I need to find David Tennant lol (he’s my favourite)

The taste of things to come.

This is just the beginning of the Cleansing. He was lucky he wasn’t lynched.
Some won’t be so lucky.

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Am I wrong?

So I got an email from a very persistent woman while I’m up here in Scotland saying goodbye to Granddad and being there for my Father in law, Aunts and Uncles etc…and if you’ve emailed me you’ll know that I posted an Out of Office notice on my Email stating I am in mourning and please give me until Tuesday to grieve and bury Granddad etc. …but if it’s an emergency contact me marking the email URGENT.
I said please be very careful what you class as an emergency.
This is her first email below.


Im an indigo starchild born 5th Aug 70.
Always used angel boards but I dont think that is the reason for my scratches.
Im just divorcing a man (Yousef) after years of domestic violence,we got married July 3rd 2004.(he wants me back of course,I said no & have a restraining order)
I lived in a lovely house for 15 years but in 2012 – the night I was moving out,a “man thing” growled in my face and was trying to bite my face,I could feel his breath in my face,I stayed awake after that,he seemed very angry I was going.I had never felt a presence prior to that.
Upon moving I only saw one spirit – but he was just a friendly navy man welcoming us in.
Since moving back to this area (which I hate) I have had a horrific rash and sometimes with scratches,these present as someone who used to self harm,Amy Winehouse style,like razor slits.
I have them now,they appeared after watching an Amy documentary actually.
My daughter has the soul of a very famous lady,she is named Vienna and was born on the 1st July,she is only 7 but highly psychic.
Something or somebody keeps “blocking me” – I want to move away due to memories of past abuse – the police have recommended it too but everytime I try, blocks are placed there,then I lose the move.
I found a great guy named Zafar online and he only lives an hours drive away but as soon as we started to get close for no reason he pulled away but I feel such a strong connection to him.
Even got a specialist soulmate reader to look – there was no doubt.
Im highly stressed and sick of these obstacles.
The nazi SS child protection tried to come and get us but I refused to let them in.
I know every trick in the book for spiritual protection and my nana Hilda is always around me.
PLEASE what is “blocking me” Im raring to get out of here,away from the abusive husband and I so want to be with Zafar.
I enclose photos of myself and Zafar.
ANYTHING however small about what is after me is appreciated.
Im not in fear,Im bold,so its not that.
Something does NOT want me to have peace,its been like this since I was little and wasnt using angel board then,abusive childhood from hell.
*hugs* thank you – your blog is wonder-full.

I didn’t reply then she sent this marked as Urgent having received my Out of Office emails. So she’s contacted me knowing I’m away and grieving. And she sent this.
Marked Urgent.

Been told it could be something called -“Kundalini rash?”
My gatekeeper has made me feel only loved ones appeared on my angel board, just as instructed and that he oversees at all times,the blocks are still a mystery but starchildren do suffer a lot of hardship,Im really exhausted and fed up with that xxx

Vi Veri Veniversum Vivus Vici

So now I’m upset because she’s decided to send it marked urgent taking my time away from Granddad and my devastated husband.

So I wrote back saying.

Look……I’m sorry I’m not replying but I an in mourning. In my culture we shut down all forms of communication so we can work on our grief. Your problems are manifested out of the stress you are under. This does not involve Spirit.
It’s a telekinetic manifestation of the stress your under.
Your surrounded by negative energy so you create negative energy. It’s that simple.
You’ve totally over complicated all of this as well as made me have to come out of mourning.
You marked your email urgent when all you have to do is stop embracing the negative.
You get what you send out. That’s it in a nut shell.
Now please leave me be.
This isn’t fair. I give hundreds of hours away for free every month and all I asked was to have my 5 days for grieving over the loss of my Grandfather.
It’s not too much to ask is it?
Read my post about The Tempters and stop listening to bull shit. Your head is so full of mumbo jumbo your mixing fact with fiction.
I suggest you read my post called March to the Beat of your own drum’ as well because nothing you say even makes sense.
Your head is jumbled. You need to start from scratch and calm down.
Seriously your so highly strung from your stress I can feel it from here.

Now please leave me alone.

She replied.

Im sorry,
I thought I was under psychic attack and Im a domestic violence survivor, hence my stress.
So you are nice on your site and two faced,rude in email.
I have a culture – its called being polite.
Im sorry for your mourning,Im still mourning my nana from the 90,s.
There is never any need for rudeness though,even if you didnt reply to me.
I found your site one day ago and I didnt know you thought YOU were the mighty “follow me” my truth is the way.
Follow me,follow me.
Thats insecurity,approval seeking and ego.
Everyone has their own path – dont force YOURS onto others.
No,I wont bother you again, you are brainwashed and send negative rude replies to people,I consider blogs,I wont follow.
Here is MY beat and I dont force it on others,true Sirian starchildren will never do that.
Spiritual arrogance is ego – MY path.

Then she said this.

Ma,at Hotep,
So you know about Aspartame,Fluoride ..vaccines…chemtrails…Russell Means and the imbalance of male/female – MATRIARCHY being forced out to cause chaos but dont know that FACEbook is run by the CIA.

Earth Star TV – there isnt life on other planets ok – YOU are the “know it all”

Chief Standing Elk ,is wrong of course…

everyone has their own life path and truth – stop forcing YOUR opinions on others- ASHE.

So my question to you all is this.
Was I out of order? And do I deserve this kind of abuse and negative response?

She contacted me three times knowing I’m dealing with a lot of grieving family members.
Am I not allowed time to grieve?
I said to her.

Of course I do. I’ve known for years. My facebook is work based only.
My laptop, mobile phone and broadband are protected from being monitored and read.
I don’t even use normal internet but Tor Browsers on the Dark  Net.
I was the one telling people about Facebook.
I don’t know why you’ve taken offense to me when your the one who said you’d read my posts.
If you’d read them all you’d know your scratches are manifested by stress.
It’s very basic knowledge based on actual scientific analysis from the 1970s.
Your angry at a person who was asking for 5 days out of the 365 i give to the public for free so I could grieve and bury my Granddad.
Do you have any idea how selfish your acting?
There are family members with me right now crying and hurting because they lost their father and grandfather, and I’m having to defend myself to you.
I’m going to post your angry emails on my blog anonymously and I’m going to post mine and I’m going to ask my public if my anger was justified or not.
If the public agree your right to be this aggressive with me I’ll give you a free reading.
If they agree with me I’m going to block your email.
If I thought for one minute you were under psychic attack I’d of dropped everything.
But you believe what you want.
Your making a fool out of yourself.
I’ve learned a long time ago I had to pick my battles.
I’m more Spiritual than entire towns combined but if you come into my circle and abuse the privilege when all I’ve asked for is 5 days to mourn a War Hero then I’ll defend myself.
I’m starting to understand why your bringing this plague of negative manifestation on yourself when all you do is embrace the negative.
Your a horrible hearted person.
You and I couldn’t stand in the same room.
Your not calm enough to deal with this stuff.
You don’t have the patience nor the maturity.
I’m just not allowed to read people who embrace the negative. And I know your not usually like this.
Your under a lot of stress. Ordinarily I’d be the first to help but I won’t tolerate being treated like this.

That’s not my fault so please don’t come in here getting all aggressive with me.
The truth is bitter and a lie is Sweet but give it time because the lie will be bitter and the truth eventually sweet.

I wish you the best. I really do. I hope you find peace.
Love and Light

If your reading this SJ, you accuse me of being brainwashed and saying I FORCE my opinions on people but your the one who came to me remember?
I didn’t ask you to come here you poor deluded child.
So your arguments don’t even make sense.

I do not entertain dramatics or aggressive behavior.
You emailed me. You came to and you couldn’t wait two more days.
Your constantly emailing has taken my time and your the one resorted to pathetic school girl bullying.
If it’s urgent I respond.
But your love life is not urgent.
If you were in danger as I have done in the pastI drop everything.
Which is why I ask people to be very careful what you mark as urgent.

To anyone reading this.
Do you think I was harsh in my response?
Do I deserve to be abused like this?
All I wanted was 5 days.
Hundreds of people have waited patiently.

I work so hard for you all. I work 90+ hours a week often for free helping you all.
All I asked for was 5 days.

If anyone speaks to me like that again I’ll go underground. Which mean you’ll need passwords to enter my Blogs and you won’t get to email me without going through a team of people.
I won’t be talked to like this.
You selfish, disrespectful, immature, cold hearted and mean, angry person you are.
You care about noone but yourself.
You didn’t think about my husband or my devastated child. You certainly didn’t think about me.
You tried to take something from me for free then abuse me when I don’t give you what you want.
Ordinarily I’d be happy to help but what struck me about all of your emails is it was all ‘me me me’.
No thought for anyone else. Yet you abuse me for thinking of others before you.
Is that fair?</strong.
Also I'm sorry youra domestic abuse survivor but it doesn't give you the right to demand attention more than the others who are patiently waiting for me to return.
Some of whom are dealing with a lot more than what your going through believe it or not.
But I'm never one to get involved in what people believe in but the stuff you believe is contradictory and doesn't even make sense. How can you be a Starchild and not believe in life on other planets.
Do you even know what a TRUE Indigo is? You couldn't be a Starchild as well as an Indigo not if you understand their true meaning.
Yet I'm accused of forcing people to believe my stuff. But you believe things that aren't real or have scientific merit. If it takes you happy them who am I to judge.
All I said was if you sat and studied what you believe you'd realize most of it makes no sense and the rest your confused about.

I’m starting to understand now why Spirit only send me those who need it most. Why I’m not a mainstream in thoughts, experience or pratice.
My Spirits and I are caviar. Not everyone can have it. Not everyone would appreciate it.
Only those who know it’s true worth can appreciate it most and get the most out of it.
I’m so done with negative and selfish people.
My followers would NEVER talk to me or Spirit in such a way.

To my followers:
Granddad got the perfect send off. He had reps from the Paras there including one of his soldiers he was in charge of during the war.
How cool was that. He got the Paras flag on his casket. He was buried with his Paras Beret.
And it even mended a bridge between my Father in law and I. I know how a Father in law I love and respect.
Thank you all for your time, patience and thoughts of condolences.

I love you all.

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Do it for Love

John Lennon once sang ‘All you need is love’. And they killed him.
But his message while never forgotten, never reached all the ears that were meant to listen.The biggest lesson Spirit have taught me in the 42 years of my life is ‘If your not doing it for the love, your not doing it for the right reasons.’

People are suffering, suffering for their art, suffering for survival, suffering for their cause.
My husband works long hours, grueling hours, on his art because he loves what he does so much, he knows it is with the sacrifices.
I support him, even when I’m missing him, because I love him so much.
I’m not a Super Model, I’ve never been known for my looks but I’ve never been without a boyfriend or partner. I’ve always had a gift of knowing what a man wants.
Whatever he is into, I learn, so we have something to talk about.
All to often in my job I’ve had women coming to me for a reading wanting to know why the men they are with are no longer the men they fell in love with.
And the answer is always the same.
‘You dated a man you thought you could change and you ended up changing so much about him he is no longer recognizable.’
There are so many men and women who crush the Spirit of their partner when they see things in them they don’t like, then no longer recognize the things they saw in them they originally loved in the first place.
That isn’t love.
Love is worth hurting for. Love is with the sacrifices being made to be together.
My beautiful husband gets up every day to work his ass off so I can stay home and raise our boys.
I work part time, helping where I can but he takes all that pressure off me so I can concentrate on educating and nurturing our boys with the best life we can give them. Because he loves me.
He has endured 16 years of emotional bullshit, threats and abuse from his own family because he loves me.
He has given up all of his holiday days, sick days, and even lost wages taking unpaid leave to take care of me when I was dealing with all my health issues because he loved me.
People have divorced for less and it’s because none of those couples loved each other.
Not really.
Love is hard to get a hold of but once you have it, and I mean REALLY have it, the hard stuff doesn’t seem so hard.
Some one once said ‘True love is wanting to kill your partner but never going through with it.’ and with the exception of abusive behavior, most things our partners do to upset us are forgivable and can be worked on.

By abuse I mean, physical, mental, verbal, sexual, financial, etc….
If you have ever been in love, REALLY been in love you’ll know how much it hurts.
But Love can save the world. Love can stop wars. Love can change the entire way you see the world, the Universe and the Dead.

The reason why Spirit keep on at us even though we are idiots who run around with cameras flashing in their faces, and putting our hands through their energy is because they love us.
Even though we don’t give ourselves the time to get to know them, even though we might not or mostly don’t have any genetic history with that Spirit (meaning they might not be a family member or ancestor) put themselves through exhausting, and often time consuming, contact with us because they love us and want to guide us on our journey to becoming enlightened and happy Souls.

The same goes with our ‘Galactic Family’.
The reason they come to keep an eye over us because we are war mongering idiots who instead of allowing ourselves to educate, protect, nurture, heal and love each other and our beautiful planet we fight and steal, lie and cheat each other out of having Love. True Love.
Love really does make the world go round.
While Governments are threatening to shoot on sight, terrified refugees who were forced to flea their own countries because of the wars those very countries who want to shoot them created.

Yet among it are these beautiful, truly Spiritual souls who are offering, food and sanctuary to these refugees because they understand what it is we are all meant to be. It should be the first reaction we have when we see any living breathing soul in need to want to go to their aid and offering them help, or love.

We allow ourselves to be divided by the colour of our skin, by our religious beliefs, by the Uniforms we wear, by the money in our bank accounts and by the soil that lay under our feet at the time of birth.

But the truth is, this is ALL of our planet. No one owns this planet. It was given to all of us. The fact we need to ask for permission to travel from one bit of dirt to another is a slap in the face of everything we were given this planet for.

Our Creator gave us life, gave us birth, gave us all that we see because he was so proud of what he created he wanted someone to enjoy what he had created.
It would make no sense or serve no purpose to have all of this staggeringly beautiful Galaxy to have only one planet have life on it who then would have to wait millions of years for us to evolve enough to get off our asses and build a way of getting out into the Universe and explore it.

We drop bombs on each other because some people in a posh office decide the innocent men, women and children on a patch of soil are no longer worthy of standing on it.
We send millions and millions of people out onto the streets, often starving and in need of medical care and mental health protection because they don’t have enough paper in their wallets or digits on their banks computer screen to please a Fat Cat on millions a year in stolen, often illegal but most definitely sinful revenue who has decided you and your family aren’t worthy of life.

The Love of Money is the Root of all Evil. And it is true.
Spirit are like proud parents who want to give their children the best of everything. They WANT us to work hard and make a good living. They want us to be successful and have all the good things in life.
As long as what you do you do for the love of it and as long as no living being be it animal, mineral or vegetable have to suffer or sacrifice themselves for your success them Spirit support you every step of the way.

Yes Spirit have no concept of money nor do they have a need or want for it.
But we have allowed ourselves to be taken in to believing money is everything and it just isn’t.
Love is.
If you don’t love your fellow, if you don’t love this planet, you don’t love yourself.
The wealthy people of this world might like to believe they are envied and are powerful. They might like to believe there are people who want to emulate them and for the most part it is true.
There are plenty of people who want what they have. But what these people seem to forget is, if you remove your skin, we are all the same underneath.
If you remove the paper we are all the same in the cemetery.
However in Spirit the way your treated will be vastly different.

The more you love money, the more Souls who were sacrificed in order to make you wealthy and powerful on earth the worse you’ll be when your Spirit because you had no love for your fellow man.

The people who are sacrificed their homes, their health, their livelihoods and often families, because it was the right thing to do according to Universal Law will be the ones who are given the higher place in Spirit than the Donald Trumps of the world.

If you love yourself, you’ll love your fellow man regardless of colour or religion.
A man who wears rags who shares his donated food or dollar with his fellow homeless brothers and sisters has more love and will be in a better position come the New Renaissance And the After Life than the man in the Rolls Royce who thought it was funny claiming ‘Nothing smaller than a hundred’ to the man in the first place will.

We must ALL learn to be more Empathic. And not the Empathic that drives me insane lol the ‘Oh I’m so sensitive to Spirit and the energy around me’ bull shit. I mean ‘Empathic’…. As according to the Oxford Dictionary.

Which says: People often confuse the words empathy and sympathy. Empathy means ‘the ability to understand and share the feelings of another’ whereas sympathy means ‘feelings of pity and sorrow for someone else’s misfortune’. Empathy hurts you to witness as much as the person your witnessing. You suffer the emotional highs and lows with the man or beast. And it can take days even weeks to get over something.

I know I say all the time it is my least favourite gift because I’m constantly in floods of tears for someone or some thing I’ve never met before.
It’s not just negative or unpleasant stuff either because I will cry seeing moments of great joy as well.
Like my favourite YouTube clip of the dog that see’s her Papa for the first time in 2 years having spent the time apart because Papa was in the US Military.
This Dog howls, and screams and cries so much, it’s hysterical out pouring of love almost makes the poor beast pass out.

THAT is Love.

You only get one chance at this life. What you do next, all depends on what happens to you when you die.

If your chasing the money to be rich, and not because you enjoy the job. If you buy the house or shoes you can’t afford to be like everyone else, if you take a life because the person in the shell represented someone or an ideal you found offensive, if you endure a relationship that is so toxic, negative and or dangerous because they are hot and look good on your arm, or because they are rich and can give you an easier life, if you destroy or remove someone or some thing from it’s domicile so you can have the land or money from renovating and flipping the house for profit, if you walk past a homeless person whether they are a drunk or not and you don’t help them, if you find their presence an inconvenience to you, if you find the homeless animals and humans who eat from the bins in our neighbourhood an embarrassment or worse if you’ve ever abused, insulted or worse to them because they offended you with their mere existence then you have never known and will never know the true meaning of love.

Love isn’t just about having a partner you have great sex with, or who buys you nice things who makes our friends envious and who can give you a dream wedding.

Love isn’t about putting yourself and your parents in debt for tens of thousands of dollars/pounds for the perfect wedding and if you had your dream wedding where you got everything you wanted and it cost so much your still paying it off years after you were married then I’m sorry but you didn’t marry for love.

The truth of the matter is, it shouldn’t matter where you marry them. The wedding is supposed to be about the union of two families coming together to celebrate the union between the Bride and Groom, or Bride and Bride or Groom and Groom.

It shouldn’t be about how much they spent on flowers and whether the bride managed to talk her parents into buying her the dress she wanted that was over her budget allowance.

Marriage was originally a business deal between two Tribal members as a show of trust and partnership.

Nowadays it’s seem as a show of often non existent wealth and to be frank…………gluttony. You invite people who ordinarily you’d never have a lot to do with outside of family gatherings so you can show off your wealth under the guise of Love.

When in fact what you should be doing is gathering your nearest and dearest to celebrate the union between two people who love each other.

All the money you could save by exchanging vows in a garden and having a BBQ or supper then having a shin dig in a hall somewhere could go on the honeymoon of a life time. Making memories and having experiences to live your entire marriage by would be so much more worth it than wearing a designer gown your never going to wear again and more than likely one day will look back on with hate and regret because you realized you married the wrong person.

Marriage is such a special union very few are mature enough to enter into. Marriage is about going to hell and back with each other for. Making sacrifices for each other. Having each others backs in the good time and the bad. Marriage is about never having to explain yourself because without saying a word your partner understands why you said or did what you said or did. Marriage is the perfect embodiment of what Love really is all about if it is shared by two people who understand the true meaning of the word.


It’s about being there without being asked to be there whether it is being there for your spouse, or a stranger.

Love is saying ‘No I will not fight for you or anyone else unless’

We are living in countries where our leaders are systematically slaughtering human and animal beings because of oil, money and power in the exact same ways the Jews were persecuted in WW2 yet no one is stopping it.

What we are allowing to happen to the poor Syrians in Europe is exactly what happened to the Jews. Yet it seems to be for the most part acceptable. Why is that?

Are people so insular now they are refusing to see we are walking right into another World War? Our Governments would have you believe that Muslims are bad people just like how Germans were told that Jews were bad people not worthy of life. But what people forget it it’s not just Muslims who’s lives get affected by a war. This is NOT YOUR country. It is NOT yours or your Governments planet. It is OUR country and OUR planet. You do not own the soil under our feet and yet your happy to pay over half your wages to own some of it that at any moment the bank could refuse you the ownership of.

God created ALL things Equal. So why the hell are we allowing our brothers and sisters, our animals and trees, our lands and our oceans to be treated as though they belong to anyone other than all of us?

If you’ve ever said ‘These fuckin immigrants come here and take our jobs and buy our houses making everything too expensive for us to live in our own country’ then your an idiot. I’m sorry. But there is NOT one piece of land on this planet that wasn’t founded by immigrants.

We all came from Africa. Our African Grandparents traveled from Africa, up through Europe and across the oceans to find a home for themselves. There is no one on this planet that is 100% of anything other than Human. Yet we are prepared to indebt ourselves and fight for a bit of soil that belongs to all of us.

Is that what you think God wants? Is that Love? Love for your fellow man? Love for your Country? Love for your Planet?


Equality creates balance. Our Universe, our Spiritual Format, is ALL running in perfect order when we have balance.

Our Solar System reacts so much better when everything is in Balance.

Regardless of whether your God is Christian, Muslim, Jewish, Buddhist, Hindu, Jedi, Alien, A Tree or an Animal. It’s all the same to the person who believes.

God is LOVE. Love makes the Universe go round. It’s a fact.

We are ALL connected whether your an Ape on this planet, a bacteria on the Moon, a Being from another Galaxy, or a planet in our Galactic sky. The comets, the meteors, planets, beings, space dust, black holes, milky ways, in this Universe and the others, are ALL connected. We all were born from the one original source of life.

What we do to ourselves we do to them. What we destroy they suffer with, what we create they enjoy, what we invent they receive the benefits from and what we love creates a balance and calm they are attracted to.

They are NOT a threat or a danger to us regardless of what they might start saying. Project Blue Beam has been in the works for a long time and to prove I’m write I suggest for the next 8 weeks you watch the news articles going up on the Yahoo news website.

I’ve noticed that every day for the last 2 weeks the news is about the discovery of or existence of ‘Alien life’. And that is the basis or foundation for the start of Project Blue Beam. I know it sounds insane but it is true. I suggest you Google it.

What we have been fed about our ‘Intergalactic Brethren’ is all founded on stories, wild imagination and very carefully planned out plots and role playing games to fool the masses into believing that what is out there wants to hurt us and experiment on us sexually and mentally. Which is typical of us to make everything about sex and power.

But as with Spirit, they aren’t interested in us sexually. In no way shape or form. We are the only beings who have sex for pleasure. And sex does NOT mean love.

But I digress. I could talk for days about this stuff but I’m going off on a tangent.

The reason why our Galatic Brethren help us, why they have stopped missiles from being set off on ‘the enemy’ is because they love us.

We are compared to Spirit and them, the Babies of the Galaxy. They are trying to help us reach the level of Love and Understanding we need to get our shit together to join them up there. So that we too can Play among the stars.

But we will never be allowed to go near Space in it’s true glory until we can learn to love each other.

They are our Ancient ancestors and the only ones of us who seem to truly understand that they are our Ancestors are the Native Americans and other Indigenous peoples such as the Aboriginals and Maori. But none more so than the Native Americans.

This is why they don’t come down to speak to our Military leaders and Presidents. The first thing they would do is kill them, the second would be to steal their technology.

So they are waiting until we ALL get off our backsides and create Balance.

Don’t do it if it isn’t for love. When you do it for love your doing it for the entire greater good of your Spirit, your Ancestors and your Galaxy.

Any less of a reason isn’t good enough and you’ll never evolve while your doing it for any reason other than love.

The best thing you can do for yourself right now is leave that job you hate, leave that partner your not happy with, leave those possessions your in debt up to your eye balls for and the house your never truly going to own until the day you make your last payment for in about 30 years time and go out into the world and find your true love.

I’m not just talking about ‘Partner’. Find the job you love, find the person you love, find the culture you love, eating the food you love, embracing all the aspects that come with having that love and watch how rich you become after it.

Then when you are rich of heart you will be rich in life and there is nothing more rewarding I can promise you than waking up next to the one you love in a job you love with a life you love.

Sure some days you might not have two pennies to rub together but if your belly is full and our warm and healthy who cares. As long as your living an honest life, where your honoring yourself. You deserve to have the best of everything if your prepared to work hard enough to seek it out,

Whether it is with millions in the bank or not. If you can write the chapters of your story where the experiences you have create the content where there laws of the Universe aren’t broken then live like each day like you’ve never seen it before. So much awaits us when you go looking for love.

Life is an adventure from the second your born.

Go out there and tell your story. Write each chapter as though it is your last and fill it with memories of all the things you got to love along the way.

Just make a promise to yourself to learn the difference between Love and Sexual Attraction, Education and Learning, Honor and Duty, Balance and Order. Life and Living, because only one of those in each selection is what’s wanted for us.

Love is the reason we exist. If our Galactic brothers and sisters were that dangerous they would of cleaned our clock a long time again. The fact they haven’t speaks volumes.

Spirit are the same. They could of gone about their business and left us to deal with death and Spiritual understanding on our own but they all help us because they want us to know the true meaning of the word Love.

Do what you do for the right reasons, and you’ll live thee most rewarding life you could ever imagine. When you have that confidence to love all things openly, nothing is more attractive. And nothing is more attracting. Like attracts like. It’s Universally understood. Like attracts like.

I spent 20 years working on myself. Writing my Chapters. Finding balance and now as I come to the end of my time as a Student. As I prepare for graduation and life with whatever Spirit have in store for me I do so with excitement and confidence. Because even when it’s been hard, I’ve hurt and suffered and been betrayed disrespected, used and abused and I’ve wanted to walk away, call it quits, start again and forget about it, I get up every morning to the greatest love I ever want to know beside me.

With the beautiful children he blessed me with, and the loving insanity of a cat he bought me, in the body he helped me nurture and repair, in a life that I love, helping the people I love through a gift that I love. Sure…..I’m mostly broke, and my clothes are falling off me lol (because I’ve lost so much weight) but my life is an adventure from the second I open my eyes. My journey as a Spiritual person of the purest form of Love and Light enables me to have adventures beyond space and time, in and around our planet and universe, because everything I do, and everyone I do it for, I do for Love.

Love………….is Universal. It creates and nurtures, in heals and mends, it inspires and develops, it builds and protects, it transforms and transcends, it balances and bends, it feeds and nourishes. It turns dark into light and enables. It opens up not just the world around you but the Universe as well.

I wish I could show you. I wish I could show you. Then you wouldn’t be so afraid to live your life as you.

Go out there and love. I promise you John Lennon was right.

Love…… all you need.

To The Loves of my Life, Mr, J Dub, Spirit and my Sons,

I can’t express to you enough how blessed I am to have you all in my life.

I love you all more than you will ever know. My life is rich because I have you in my life. You make my life rich and rewarding and you put up with me regardless of the fact I’m often throwing some of the most bizarre situations your way expecting you to have answers for me to help me understand what’s happening. I trust you with my life and most importantly I trust you with my gift.

You see the side to me I don’t share with anyone else because no one understands my gift the way you do. You never judge me. You my husbands often spend days pondering things I’ve told you in order to help me understand what’s happening to me and you both have never once doubted me.

Your the only people who know the things about my gift I dare not share with anyone. Things I would take to my grave. The stuff people just aren’t ready to hear or know about. You have patience with me and you never make me explain myself. Your the first people I go to when something new happens and the first two I go to when I need advice, help or just to talk. My life wouldn’t be half of what it is without you in my life and I just want to thank you for loving me the way you do.

I am rich because your my reward for everything I do along with my sons.

Everything I do, I do because I am loved by you and everything I am, I am because of you. I wouldn’t be what I am today without you in my life. Separately and together you give my life joy and balance.

I am the Master of my Universe and you are my Stars.

I love you and Thank you.


My Detox of Death and why it saved my life. (don’t read if your J Dub)

I’m kind of reluctant to write this post for two reasons.

  1. I’m scared people are going to copy me and end up in hospital and
  2. When my best friend reads this and some of the things I’m about to divulge I’m expecting a very public telling off. I’ve never made him angry in the 487 years he has been the 2nd love of my life and I know either my email or Skype is going to ring angrily after he reads this post. And he will read this post. lol

So you all know I’ve been battling with health issues for the last 5 years. I had meshes put in three times and my body has been rejecting them. I’ve developed a bacteria in my gut which makes me violently ill, gives me fevers and indescribable pain.

Because of this bacteria I have a higher chance of getting stomach cancer and when I’m not vomiting everything I eat, I’m doubled over in pain. I’ve almost lost my life twice because of it and at one point my body was so run down my body contracted Chicken Pox while in hospital and my immune system created it’s own skin bacteria the Specialist had never heard of before. I had to go on Immune Boosters for 12 weeks and it was the only thing that gave me strength to go on.

I was put in a High Dependency Unit and put into Quarantine. The only people allowed into the room were the people treating me and two nurses and cleaners who took shifts. People were coming and steering into the window to get a lot at the freak in the cordoned off room. I cried for days and it was a most humbling experience.

But while I was in there I got a wee visit from a Spirit nurse. She walked up to my bed in full 3D manifestation and said to me ‘Mrs Black? Good news, next year will be your year so just hang in there a little bit longer, we’re gonna get you out of this’.

Almost 12 months to the day, they did indeed ‘get me out of it’ and I’m going to tell you how. But before I do I’m going to put up a disclaimer.

I will not be held responsible for anyone who copies me and gets ill because if it. What I am doing is on the advice of my Spirits. The best Doctors in the world because I couldn’t rely on the NHS to do their job and fix me.

Every 8-10 weeks I have these bouts that used to put me in hospital for dehydration, pain, and fever. I had an infected Seroma that would flare and give me raging infections. My sister Mihi, who isn’t blood related but was the best friend of my beloved Paula growing up but she called my parents Mum and Dad and as far as I’m concerned she is my sister. Anywho she is the foremost expert on all things natural and herbal. Her alternative therapies and she told me about CDS, or Chloride Dioxide Solution.

I did some research and found a supplier in Australia. The Government are trying to ban it saying it is a poison but the Lancet Medical Journal are calling it the Medical find of the Century. It is curing all sorts of diseases by kind of making you purge from your body all heavy metals and toxins from your system on a molecular level. The trouble I had was that the antibiotics I was being put on, cleared the infection on top of the mesh but not between the meshes. They are microscopic and nothing was getting it inside the mesh.

I took the CDS for 2 weeks. Just a glass in the morning and it was disgusting. It smelt like  swimming pool and actually had no real taste. If you could get past the smell it wasn’t that bad. You only put 7 drops in the water. It stunk to high heaven but it did the trick.

I spent 2 weeks with gut wrenching diarrhea. I mean….I was never off the bowl. But I haven’t had an infection in 2 years now. No Fevers either.

But I still had the guts ache, severe pain, vomiting that would keep me awake all night and dizzying nausea. I’d be kept awake for weeks at a time with excruciating pain and every 4 weeks or so I’d not be able to get out of bed.

One of the biggest illnesses you get with these meshes is a condition called Fibro Mylagia. It is a painful condition that makes you thoroughly exhausted. Your joints get inflamed and sore and you get something called ‘Restless legs syndrome’ where you can’t keep our legs and feet still. Your constantly feeling the need to move them and it doesn’t matter if your sitting, laying or reclining. I always know when I’m going to have a Fibro attack because 2 weeks before I get saw neck, jaw, nape, shoulders. Not just achy sore, it’s literally sore to touch. It feels like your bruised and any slight touch makes it really painful. Even water from the shower on my skin can hurt.

All I want to do is sleep. I can’t eat, I ache all over and many many times I have had to run my home from my bed. My poor babies being sent downstairs to get me bottles of water and having adventures without me. In fact they were so used to me being stuck at home in bed they used to get disappointed if I came with them because they knew it meant we wouldn’t be doing anything fun because I could only walk so far before being in pain.

I was miserable. I just wanted my life back. I ballooned to 277 pounds. A Size 28-30 in clothes because while I wasn’t eating a lot of food, what I was eating wasn’t healthy because it was quick foods, loaded with sugar, fat and carbs. And because I wasn’t exercising I wasn’t burning any of it off.

I told you 6 months ago I had a visit from the Council. They told me I would be needed to work more. That more people would start needing my help and I needed to be prepared. They also said I was coming to the end of my training and my time as a student was coming to an end. And when that happens it means you begin a public career.

I told them that was ‘fine as long as they helped me get better and looking a little more presentable. I didn’t want to be out in public looking like someone had inflated a me through a valve near my butt lol They said they would be in touch and when they were ready I was to follow their every instruction. And this is the part I take no responsibility for should you follow my diet.

So 4 months ago they came to me with a list of things I was to buy and a list of instructions and guidelines I was not to deviate from.

I was to limit my diet to no more than 800 calories. I was to eliminate white flour, and milk from my diet. Cheese was fine as long as it was as low fat as possible.

I could eat as much fruit and meat as I wanted to but seeing as I only eat chicken and the occasional piece of fish it wasn’t really an issue for me.

I was to eliminate sugar completely. No sugar was to be eaten or added to my food. I could only get my sugar from natural sources. Like fruit, raisins and other dehydrated fruits.

I started the no sugar diet first, thinking it would be the hardest to kick and in terms of the effects it had on my body I’d say it was the one thing my body kicked up a fuss about. After 4 days of no sugar, I started to get headaches and while I’ve never had any cravings for the sugar I found myself feeling the need to snack more. In which case I ate brazil nuts, walnuts and popcorn (cooked by me in a pot with coconut oil)

I didn’t miss sugar or crave it. In fact within 5 days of having no sugar I found I began to sleep better, my skin was looking clear, no redness or puffiness on my face.

I started to drink Sparkling Mineral Water too and for some reason my brain really enjoys it because it tastes sweet. Like Fizzy Pop but it’s just water. I don’t know if the Carbonated part of it tricks my brain into thinking it’s pop but my husband and sons now drink it. I sometimes put juice in it so they think they’re having Fizzy Pop lol

After week 2 I felt feckin fantastic. I had so much energy I was exhausting my husband and sons out from all the walking I was doing.

I lost 14lbs in a week.

Then after week two they bought in the diet part.

I also started taking B12 vitamins and within 4 days got the feeling back in my feet and fingers again after 3 years of not feeling them. It really was a miracle. The voices in my head were starting to cure me of things hundreds of Doctors, Surgeons and Specialist didn’t have a clue over.

They would of wasted 10s of thousands if tax payer dollars on not fixing me. They all had an idea of what it could be. And I was misdiagnosed 3 times with Diabetes (which almost killed me while I was pregnant with Train), IBS and Tumors.

So the diet became this.

No more than 800 calories a day.

No butter, no marg. I can only eat low fat, zero sugar olive spread. Which is fine. I like it. My cheese is 50-70% fat free, my cottage cheese is fat free, I even have cheese spread which is fat free. It’s great on my Sesame Seed Ryvita crackers I have for lunch or a snack.

My bread is wholemeal, or Granary. It isn’t big slices but if I have cheese spread and cheese on it for breakfast it’s really very filling. No white flour what so ever.

I was to eat breakfast, lunch and dinner only if I felt hungry.

Some days I skip breakfast but I’ll have a coffee with coconut milk in it and maybe an apple and pear around 10-11am. Coconut milk is what I use for everything I consume. Apart from mash potato but I don’t eat it very often.

For lunch I can have a sandwich with say lettuce, cottage cheese, tomatoe and vegemite for example. Or if I have some left over chicken from dinner I’ll have chicken, cheese and zero fat mayo.

Then dinner. Which is whatever the family eat but if they have pasta or spaghetti or rice I eat wholemeal pasta, brown or basmati rice. My salt, soy sauce and gravy’s are low salt, low sugar. I had some tomatoe sauce the other day that wasn’t low sugar and salt and it was disgusting. I couldn’t eat it if it was on my food.

My taste buds have changed so much. Sugar coats your tongue with a slime that goes away after about 2 weeks and I promise you your taste buds will thank you for eliminating sugar.

Everything you eat tastes soooo much better. A bite of a home made burger or pizza is incredible. In one bite you taste every flavour. Your taste buds single them out one by one and you enjoy every flavour one by one. It has made me want to experiment with my cooking just because I want to see what certain things taste like.

Homemade Southern Fried Chicken is next. My Chicken Goujons are to die for.

I’m only allowed to eat if I’m hungry and if I’m peckish I’m only allowed my dried fruit, fruit, nuts and popcorn. I also have ‘Salt your own’ crisps too which are low salt, zero sugar and low fat.

If I have bread for toast I won’t have any more bread for the day. Basically though I eat what I’m told to when I’m told to.

I have a stack of brazil nuts, walnuts, peanuts, cashews, almonds, dehydrated fruit like raisins, cranberries, blueberries, mango, guava, etc….

All my food is grilled, oven baked or cooked in coconut oil. I have found that in doing my Detox of Death with nuts as my source of snackage and cooking my memory has started to return and I’m remembering the names of people and places I had forgotten for decades. Like High School teachers and birthdays etc….

Also the other thing I do is when I wake up before having anything to eat and drink I have a glass of apple cider vinegar. About 4 caps full in a half a glass of water.

My nails and hair are looking shiny and gorgeous, my skin is clear, not puffy, or red any more. It’s taut and smooth. I’ve always been blessed with good skin but now my skin is like it was when I was 17.

I’m full of energy again, my husband hasn’t had to take one day off this year for my illnesses. He has twice for my back or a Fibro day (before the detox) but not one day since. This is coming from a man who lost all of his holiday and sick days for 5 years because of me. He even had to take unpaid leave to help me never once complaining.

Befor, everything I did was from bed. All my house work was done bit by bit leaving the big things like hoovering to my husband who was already working 2 jobs as it was.

Now my house is always spotless because I have the energy to do it all myself.

I am sleeping so much better now. I used to get woken up constantly with pain, of feeling the need to vomit, or the other end sometimes 5-6-7 times a night. I was so inflamed in my gut and organs they would glow in the CT Scans. All my organs were twice the sized, engorged from the inflammation.

I used to feel my blood coursing through my veins. Like a torrential river. It burned so much.

In 4 months I have stopped vomiting. Stopped with the gut wrenching excruciating pain that made me feel like I was being stabbed. My guts would make these horrible sounds which always led to me being in agony within a day or two.

In four months, I have lost nearly 60 pounds. Weight loss is a part of Fibro Myalgia but I had nearly 12 stone to lose.

I have gone from a size 28-30 to a 18-20 which means I’m 2 stone away from being at my gorgeous pre pregnancy weight. I have long slender legs again, I have wrist bones, hip bones and slender arms again. I bought myself a gorgeous dress in a size 22 and it’s too big lol

I’m never hungry. Some days all I’ll have is Ryvita crackers with Cottage cheese and some fruit and I’m happy as a lamb.

I’m eating so healthy now that yesterday I stupidly had a piece of Domino’s BBQ chicken pizza and woke up this morning with sore joints and hay fever like symptoms so needless to say I won’t be doing that again.

I have no trapped wind, no nausea, I’ve stopped taking 80% of my medication.

Unfortunately I do still get pain of the ripping tearing adhesion type but once I can manage that I will be in perfect health.

I still have Fibro days but where as before they would have me bed ridden for up to 4 weeks but now it’s 2-3 days and that’s if I don’t have my Ganga.

I’m happier than I have ever been. I’m replacing ALL of my clothes and bringing out my pre-pregnancy clothing. I’m sleeping better and to be perfectly honest with you my libido is back and it’s back with a vengeance. My poor husband is being sexually accosted on a regular basis lol I think I’ve turned into a pervert with him lol He’s all I think about lol

I am more patient with my boys too. My blood pressure has returned to normal, my hands and feet are no longer swollen and I’m not retaining fluid and get this. I have done ZERO exercise. Apart from walking on the weekends or occasionally as a family we walk to the shop.

After 4 months I can no longer stomach the smell of sweeties and I’m only have supposed to have been on this Detox of Death for 3 months but I’m enjoying it so much I won’t ever stop.

I miss cups of tea but it’s not very nice with coconut milk but I’ll maybe use skim milk every now and then.

I’ve been testing myself on foods to see if I react to it in any way and so far it seems to be white flour, milk and sugar that are doing the most damage. So I’m avoiding it.

Not once have I had a craving for anything sweet. I miss nothing apart from Ice Cream BUT Icelands and Tesco sell this sugar free ice cream that is supposed to taste gorgeous so I’m going to try that.

If I do want something sweet at any point it is only allowed to be Dark Chocolate with the highest percentage of cocoa in it as possible.

It is incredibly healthy for you and is linked to some incredible medical benefits. Diet sweets or diabetic sweets often have Aspartame or other artificial sweetener in it.

I feel 22 again. I feel so good and my husband has been so impressed with what it has done to me he is wanting to try my detox of death so we are waiting on Spirit giving him his instructions.

They seem to know what you can and can’t eat better than even you do. They set my meal plan for the day when I get up so I know what I’m eating.

I actually look forward to eating now and enjoy every bite. I stop when I feel full, even if it’s half a plate. But I can’t stomach as much as I used to. I don’t have to eat more than my 800 calorie allowance. But I can’t go over.

I’ve only been over once and that was last night when I ate the pizza slice and boy did I pay for it.

I keep a journal so I can document all the foods that I’ve noticed a difference with. Bananas have been a bit of an issue I’ve noticed too.

I’m so grateful to Spirit. They have saved my life. I’ve never felt this good. And I get to go clothes shopping again. I am starting to dress all trendy again as opposed to looking 9 months pregnant. And you want to see my new shoes I’ve been buying. Nothing over £20 but I am actually wanting to take pride in my appearance again.

So I know J Dub is asking ‘Why would she worried I’ll get angry at her?’

And the answer is because I had 3 clients who became kind of friends who have started taking my friendship for granted. I worked out for one of the over the 3 years I’ve know me I have given away £10,640 quids worth of free readings and questions. I have another who has gotten £15,500 worth of free readings and questions in 2 years and another who has gotten £5000 worth of free questions.

I’m having to scrap and save my pennies together to buy my husbands birthday presents and these people got £36540 quids worth of work from me. When I told them this because I was so angry at how they were taking the piss out of me and my time neither apologized and one of them actually said ‘I don’t know why your so pissed off at me, can you hurry up and get over this tantrum of yours and get back to me please because I need your help and I can’t do it without you, this isn’t about you Debbie, this is about me.

So needless to say he and I no longer talk.

I’m not talking about people who come to me asking for help in dealing with a situation in their lives or home. I’m talking about people who got endless free readings and questions. Selfish people who would call any time night and day waking me up, interrupting my time with my family, even during readings with paying clients.

None of whom even had the decency to ask me if it was okay to call. Just people who would ring and make me stop doing what ever it was I was doing to answer me phone. However I’d never answer unless I wasn’t busy.

When I told these people that they were literally taking the shirts off my kids backs none of them battered an eye lid.

So no more. For them, the free ride is over. I still get the odd client trying to get a free question off me but I just don’t answer. Why them then?

Because I thought we were friends. I thought I was doing them a favour. I thought I was being a friend. I didn’t even realize that I was doing it.

But remember I said Spirit said I was coming to an end of my time as a student? It seems the last lesson is all about me. Working on me and ironing out the last chinks in my armour so to speak.

I’ve unloaded a lot of dead weight in my time on this last lesson.

Letting go of people, thoughts, fears and issues that were holding me back. They were three of them I guess.

One time i worked 100 hours just over a 10 day stretch and earned £90 because I was doing so many free readings. I refuse to take money from my husband though. How can I work 100 hours and be so broke?

And they just didn’t seem to care.

Don’t worry J Dub, it won’t happen again. And readers I’m not talking about questions in the forum or Blog. I will never stop helping you all and I’ll never charge for it.

I’m talking about readings, and questions where I’m having to use my gift to answer them as opposed to my knowledge. These were people who considered me a friend who took the ‘Never charge friends or family’ rule a little too literally.

I’m disgusted at them and their behaviour and pissed off at myself for being such a mug. I thought I was really good at spotting the takers and users but I never saw it coming from within.

One of them got a HUGE tax refund in the thousands too and never once offered to pay me. In fact I stayed up till 2.30am helping him with his issues and never even for a thank you. Now….you know this isn’t about the money. It’s not about the money. It’s about the fact that I’m working part time trying to make a name for myself and yes sometimes you have to give someone a free sample. That’s marketing.

What these people did was abuse the privilege in the name of friendship. Well this week I removed the friendships and never again will I allow myself to be taken for granted like that. The only friends I have now are friends who have proven time and time again they can be trusted. Friends who have done more for me than I have done for them that’s for sure.

People like J S, A T, P Y, etc…and of course my wonderful J Dub. The best boyfriend/second husband a girl could ask for. He’s the type of best friend you have pyjama parties with, sleeping on the floor watching movies and having snacks and doing each others nails and hair while he tells you that guy is a loser for dumping you and if he was my guy he’d totally go out with you proud to have you on his arm lol

So I’m going to run away now because I just saw him get on Skype and I know this means he is about to read my posts and I don’t want to be looking at him as he kicks my ass lol

I call it the Detox of Death because it was Death who put me on the Detox lol they created the meals and menus for me. They tell me what to eat and when. They tell me how to cook it and how to prepare it.

So if you try this detox please don’t hold me responsible if you collapse or get ill. I know my body inside and out and I know Spirit.

This detox won’t work if your not able to talk to Spirit because they give you the recipes and food ideas. They tell you which cereal to buy and which prunes to buy (I put them in my Bran Cereal for flavour because I can’t put sugar in it) sometimes I put in fresh berries or raisins, just like a tablespoon.

I’m eating a lot of brown lol but ya know what? this has been the easiest diet I’ve ever been on. It hasn’t been hard one bit. Not once have I felt like going back to my normal diet. I’m always full and I’ve never felt so alive and when I reach my target weight I promise you I’m going to post a before and after photo.

Oh and one more thing. You HAVE to try fresh percolated coffee with Alpro Coconut Milk. You will never drink normal coffee again. My husband is so impressed he is doing my Detox too. Basically my body is getting not starved but deprived of certain things to kick start itself into normality again and it has worked.

I haven’t been to the Doctor once. I have however been buying nice lingerie………grrrrrrrrr hahahahahaha

And my gift has grown at an exponential rate.

And I’m so unbelievably happy.