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The Epiphany of Me:

As my time as a Student of Spirit and The Universe comes to an end. I am having the most incredible discussions with my Friends and Teachers of the last nearly 43 years.

And I’ve connected so much with my past. It’s helped me understand so much more about my life, my purpose. Our Lives and Our Purposes.

Anything they teach me is to help me to teach and guide anyone who needs it. That’s the whole reason why I’ve been pissing some people off lately.

The thing that makes me what I am is my honesty. It’s why people pay their hard earned money to hear my predictions and observations of their lives. It’s why people trust me. Because brutal or not it is the truth. And as I have been saying lately ‘The truth while bitter and a lie sweet when first told in time become different over time. So eventually the true will be sweet and the lie bitter.’

We ALL have to start seeing our truths. We need to own who we are. Because it all matters. It all happens to teach you about you. Your existence. Your path. Your journey from beginning to end.

Oh My God……if everyone on the planet could have this experience we would finally be the human race we are meant to be.

The truth is, if we don’t get our shit together we are doomed. As a planet we will be destroyed and not just by the bad people in the world. Not just the Bankers and Leader and Greedy and Powerful. This planet will be destroyed and we will die out as a species.

Rich or poor we will die out. Or we can finally get the bigger picture and evolve into what we are meant to be which is Space Travellers.

They have all the technology to be rich and famous and lazy and taken care of but when we get lazy we stop developing. We stop dreaming and hoping and creating and designing and it is a select few who get to shine. But that person who shines has their own story to tell none of which would be made possible without the people they had in their lives.

This is why I can’t answer emails you all keep sending me to ask me how to have a connection to Spirit like mine.

But my connection came about because of my life and all the wonderful things that have happened as well as all the shitty things that have happened.

You have to be brave and you have to have unquestioning faith. I can not give you faith. Faith is what you have when you remove ALL the middle men. You don’t need to pay someone to have a connection to God. Whoever that God may be. It’s there all the time.

It makes you brave, and it brings you home at night and it never leaves you even when your angry at it for hurting you. But eventually you realize it’s not God who took your sister at age 28 just a few weeks after having her daughter, it was her wish to live a short life. God simple gave her the one she needed until it was her time to leave. He made sure when she was taking her last breathes on the Friday, the Thursday night before hand her little sister was remembering all she had to to keep her memory alive for her dying sisters new baby daughter.

God surrounded her with her loved ones on her last day and gave us all plenty of arms to be held by when you needed a hug. God left her the children to always remind you she wasn’t a figment of your imagination.

Whoever God is to you, it doesn’t matter as long as it makes you happy. But being happy is so much more important next to finding God. Because you find that he is where ever your happiest.

I’m finally cracking the code to all my visions of my past and feelings of being in the presence of complete strangers lives.

I can’t explain it but I keep getting flashes of peoples lives. Just random strangers. I can see the colours, and smell the same air they breathe, I can hear the birds and the elements be it wind or rain, sun or snow.

And they have no idea as they collect their paper and read their coffee of whatever that I’m there, watching them. I could watch them all day.

Their lives are so interesting to me. So much more exciting. When I see them connect with someone they love, I have that love for them too. I feel their desires and fears to say ‘I like you’ to the one who doesn’t notice them, or ‘I love you’ to the one who does but it afraid you won’t say it back.

I feel it all. The excitement, the fear, the joy, the worry, some of these people I see their lives flash before my eyes. I want to know it ends well for these people.

Their lives seem so exciting. More so than mine and this is coming the person who gets to see all these peoples lives play out like a movie.

I see random funerals too. I talk to the Spirits of the deceased while they watch themselves be remembered and mourned. For the most part it’s always lovely but some of them have a real moan lol Hate what they were put in, pissed off because now it means the woman’s rival is going to make a play for her man etc….but none of them are interested in going back.

Of all the Spirits who talk to me when I see these things they are always wanting to tell me their story.

They all say the same thing.

  1. Don’t do anything for less than love. You deserve to know true love. Everyone does. Don’t settle for stable or good enough. Do it because you can’t breathe without the other person next to you. Your only going to love one person for the rest of your life if your not anticipating a tragedy. So before you find that love go out and have some great sex. Be safe of course and it goes without saying that it should be with anyone where it would break up a family or another persons heart unless you can’t stop breathing for each other. Adultery is not on. Not even in Spirit. IF you told someone you loved them and want to make a life with them then you do what you have to, to live up to your end of the bargain. Too many people marry for the wrong reasons. They think because they have great chemistry and your friends, and the sex was good, and you knew you’d have a stable life with them. But if you don’t love them your not with them for the right reasons.

So what is love then? According to Spirit from what I’ve just learned. True Love is when you find the one person who makes everything stop. You hold your breathe whenever your near them. You have an electric current run through your body every time they touch you. You feed off each others words. You have this connection that no matter what you know the trust is always there. They are the first person you go to when something good happens to you and the one who runs to you when it’s something bad.

They know just what to say when they want to hurt you most. The words no person wants to hear come out of their loves mouth. The words that cut deep in the heat of an argument. It hurts like fuck and you want to die. You never want to hear words that hurt so badly. But you couldn’t take them from anyone else. The truth hurts and yes it was said to hurt you but it’s always better to be hurt by the truth than devastated by a lie and who better to tell you the truth than the one you love. Right?

Sometimes my husband has done something in public which not only cut me to the bone but embarrassed me as well. He’s done it twice when he accused me of doing something I didn’t do. I saw a side to him I didn’t like because usually he is the first one to defend me but he was actually the first one to accuse me and instead of helping me rectify the understanding he made it worse. In those two moments I could of walked away and never looked back. I hated him so much for thinking so little of me. He sometimes has this way of making me think he thinks so little of me. He’s not a romantic. I am. I want the big romantic gestures. He is very self centered, he’s an artist and a Libra so everything is always about him. He creates drama where ever he goes because people don’t get him. He’s a procrastinator and a hedonist. He is kind to a fault. He has been manipulated and cheated by so many people he called friend or family. But he looks like butter wouldn’t melt in his mouth. And when you need an ally he is the one you can rely on to cut the conversation with quick wit and humor. He’s up for anything. He’s not afraid to be different. He embraces his individuality and is proud of it. He is a brilliant man. Quite frankly one of thee most if not thee most intelligent man I’ve ever met.

He needs no explaining. He’s an incredible motivator, and is inspiring. He has this way of helping you find your thing and then helps you understand why your thing is your thing. Be it to a Kebab Delivery Man who also feels the same draw of attraction that I do lol to a man he buys a burger for on the street lol My husband a gift of people just being able to pour their hearts out to him. And he goes on and on and on about how much he hates people. He’s a cantankerous, grumpy old man who has the heart of an Angel. He makes out he’s all grumpy so he won’t get hurt by people but any one of you could go to him and he’d do what he could to help you. He’s impulsive and embarrassing, he’s mean and heartless sometimes. But when he reaches for me when I hop into bed and holds me into him, when he brings me a cup of tea and toast at night when I’m working away on a reading, when he sits and listens to every word of my latest Psychic experience so thoughtfully and immediately launches into a tirade of questions instead of mocking me, when he tells me what a good mother I am, when he tells me I’m a good cook, they are his big gestures of love. It might not be the big one you dream of one day but it is to him and that means something. He’s not a touchy feely guy anymore and that’s because of the people who hurt him in the past. But he is to his Best Friend, Uncle Andy. And he is with his sons and his Dad and his Step Mum and he is with me, and that’s okay. It matters to him. And that’s why I can’t breathe until he is in the same room as me. He’s the first person I call when I need someone I trust. He is the first person to come to my side when something happens that isn’t nice. Even if it’s just me being my usual quirky Empath self who is crying over photos of a friends dog being put to sleep.

He’s there and he embraces my crazy and understands it. He never makes me feel like I need to explain myself. When he holds me I go weak. No man on this planet makes me so weak and giggly and there is no day that goes by where I’m not grateful he chose me.

So do yourself a favour and LOVE the one your with. Choose the one who makes you hold your breathe and who cares what anyone else thinks. If my husband and I didn’t fight for our love my boys wouldn’t be here today. I know the day I met my husband and agreed to put up with his madness that I ticked a box in my ‘Destiny Fulfilled’ box.

Each one being so important you know they can’t of been anything less than ‘Destiny’ Being able to tick one of those suckers means your not only starting to Understand the reason for your existence but your getting control over it too. That in itself is a huge break through.

If your going to commit your life to one Soul then let it be for the one who makes you hold your breathe. The one who makes you straighten your hair and push up your boobs for (or puffs out your chest for if your a man). They make you want to appear smarter. They make you throw caution to the wind just to get another glimpse of them.

That love doesn’t go away when you marry them and have kids and get old along side each other. When you have that love in the start, you never find reasons to stop loving them. Good or bad. You married your best friend and when you marry the right reasons it never goes away. It makes you work harder when things go wrong. You never worry about if they will leave. You know you have a warrior by your side. Someone who will take up arms with you not against you. If you married or are with someone because they are good looking, well…all I can say is ‘looks fade and one day when you’re old and wrinkly you better hope and pray they grew nice personalities somewhere along the line’.

Looks fade, unless you have millions to pay for surgeries lol But my point is If your not with someone who gets you. If you love them even after they hurt you and embarrassed you, if you love every day because they are in your life, if you hold your breathe when they touch you and you hurt when you don’t hear from them and they aren’t with you, then you need to tell them.

You only get one life loving that person. Please……tell them. EVEN if they don’t feel the same way. Give yourself the respect of admitting it. And you just never know. Maybe when you tell them, they will say it back. But you’ll never know if you don’t try. You owe it to yourself to find out. You might eye each other up when you collect your mail coz you live in the same Apartment building. Maybe she’s a customer who lingers a little too much longer than the others and who makes you smile the second she walks in the door. If they have been delivering to your house for years and they have been helping you out a little since you lost your partner. Whatever it is. Whoever it is. DO IT!!!! Because to be loved is even better than loving someone.

You get one life so (this takes me nicely into Number 2.

2) Get rid of all your regrets now while your alive because your life becomes so much sweeter when your lighten your load. As you know from recent posts I’ve put up things have been a bit dramatic recently but I’ve gotten to a point in my life where I’m learning to self govern my behavior. I’m dealing with my Karma now so it doesn’t happen in the next life. (If you read my Blog about Karma and what I think it means you’ll know what I’m talking about lol).

So instead of learning in the next life I was a bitch in the way I handled the first problem I had on here with SJ and Granddads funeral I immediately had Spirit on my case and my inner self was feeling like shit and as soon as I fixed the problem my life felt incredible again. I learned so much more about my Self worth and my limits. I learned I have a responsibility over anyone who reads my blog and reaches out to me. I learned it’s not about me any more. It’s about you the reader, follower, client etc…..etc……it’s while been dealing with all the regrets in my life that I’ve had the most epiphanies. The most awe inspiring epiphany’s one can have about ones own life, gift and purpose all came about because I was dealing with all my regrets.

Regrets aren’t a bad thing to have if your man enough to admit to them. Being seen as anything less than perfect nowadays seems to a mental Illness or some thing. Don’t laugh at someone who is brave enough to fix their mistakes or who takes life by the balls.

Make sure your regrets are never bad ones. So don’t do anything so bad and so horrible they haunt you. I know this is true of many Spirits who took a life in their life time. Not being able to make amends to the people they killed and such, it’s a heavy load to bear. Not everyone kills in anger. Some times people get caught up in bad situations and do everything they can to make up for what they did. These are the examples of some Spirits I’ve talked with who have been helping me over the last part of my journey.

They all have stories to tell and I ask them all the same questions. Not every one who takes a life is a bad person. They were just in a bad situation. The victims usually end up being Teaching Souls who chose short lives or dramatic deaths because of the lessons that come from it for those involved. I’m not condoning Violence or Murder. What I’m saying is no one is going to judge a man worse than an innocent one who knows he did a bad thing. But what is ‘a bad thing’ in your eyes?

Because I don’t think if a person takes a life in self defense or the defense of others they have anything to be ashamed about do you?

But if your holding on to things that are hurting you, or your not doing something you yearn for then your going to die with regrets and trust me when I say ‘Regrets are important to Spirit’. So your reading this which means you know from this day on you have the power to get the most of your life to make it the best life ever to prepare you for death. So instead of laying there wasting time on going through all your regrets, you can use the time to remember the good things, and make memories for those left behind.

Write the book that’s inside you. Get it out. Release it on a Kindle or tell no one. But get it out.

If you have a hobby or a love of something, go and do it. It’s your life. You only get one chance to live it as you. When your dead and gone what do you want people to remember you by?

People can say I’m bat shit crazy, people can accuse me of being a fraud, NO ONE can say I didn’t do what I didn’t want to do. I have achieved everything in my life I’ve set out to do. And now that I’ve dealt with my regrets and stuff my life is only just about to get to the good bit.

I implore you to pick up that paint brush, sit at that type writer, put on that dress and heels young man and find your inner Queen.

Put that gorgeous dress on Mama and make a man feel alive. Do what feeds your soul. Everyone has their thing. If your with someone who doesn’t let you have your thing your not with the Love of your Life. Because your Forever Love would not just let you have your thing, they will pay for you to have more of it and even occasionally join in, just for you, because they love you.

Don’t be afraid of pursuing all those things you always wanted to do. If your partner doesn’t want to do learn to Salsa, take a friend. Maybe you’ll start to walk with a pep in your step, maybe he notices. A little jealousy is a good thing if it’s not done on purpose and with the intention of hurting someone. Playful innocent jealousy is cute but anything more than that is cruel and not coming from a good place.

But my point is, instead of saving all your money for your kids after your dead, put some aside for your funeral and spend the lot on holidays ad cruises. It’s your money your earning for while your alive for when your dead. Do you know how nuts that sounds?

Why not just make sure you have enough to pay for your funeral. Let the kids have the insurances but take the money you have and spend the lot of making memories for yourself while your alive. It’s what you worked for. You worked hard for your retirement but it doesn’t mean your retirement has to be spent you waiting for death. Go dancing. Go on a cruise. Get your partner and you a nice new wardrobe and hit the clubs. Play Bingo once in a while sure but play it on a cruise for Seniors or Widows. Go with your lover and have a romantic unplanned weekend in Paris.

Take some cooking classes and cook for your love and family etc….live your life now while your living it. Because you can’t take any of it back when your looking back on your life.

There is only one thing worse than living with fear and that is dying with it. (Obviously I’m not talking about physical fear. I mean emotional fear).

So many people are unhappy. And it’s spreading like a disease. We live these long hard lives because we are in debt and we need to buy stuff and a job is better than no job and your no one if your not on the property ladder.

FUCK the property ladder. Shall I tell you why?

Because your killing your Soul dead just so the bank can take all of your money for you not to own a piece of wood and concrete until you make the last payment.

If it all caught fire right now and you were stuck in the middle what would you save and what would you tell those you loved the most if you had the chance.

If the one your with isn’t the one you love, if the one you love is sitting right next to you, if the one you love is just a message away then do something now that tells them it’s them you chose. Never regret telling those you love that you love them. Make sure they all have no doubts about your love.

If it all went up in smoke would you really be that sad if you knew you had insurance and all the important stuff was out would you really be bothered? I think not. I know of quite a few people that have said ‘When we assessed the damage and moved on with a new flat and charity shop stuff and things people gave us, until our insurance money came through it was kind of just so nice not having crap to worry about any more. There was no more worries about the lawns being too long and the neighbours judging my every step etc…..and once it was all removed I just became so much happier.’

I’m yet to find one who went on to buy another house. They all just paid off debt and traveled or started businesses etc……

A house is just stuff. How much stuff do you need? You can’t take it with you and your not a Pharaoh who is going into a huge chamber. You can’t take any of it with you when you go. It’s all stuff your loved ones are going to have to rifle through after your dead. Most of it will get fought over, donated or sold for £1.

Your belongings will go to other people and if your blessed a lot of people will have nicer food and clothes once your money becomes theirs. Seriously?

Is that what your breaking your back for? So your ‘LOVED ONES’ can feast on your earnings when your dead?

I like what my parents did. They said we were to use our money to ‘Make memories for them’. Which is what I do. Everything I do now I do for Mum and Dad. Stuff they can’t do I now do for them.

If your going to leave a lot of money for your friends and family, make sure you know they will appreciate the sentiment and not use it as an excuse to ‘doss about for a bit’.

which brings us to Number 3 of what Spirit have taught me to teach others.

3) Plan your funeral NOW.

Never leave anyone guessing about what you would want. Write it down. Make it YOUR way. My husband and I have this great idea of setting up a CD of music to hand out to everyone at the funeral and the songs on the CD will be chosen by us that represent our best memories.

IE When our son was born in Ninewells, Dundee Hospital, the song ‘Real Gone Kid’ by Scottish band Deacon Blue was playing on the radio.

Don’t you forget about me by Simple Minds was playing when our youngest son, Train was born. So they would be on our CDs.

Plus any songs we have attached to our best memories and then everyone can take the CD home and remember us when they hear those songs.

I want a cardboard coffin and I want everyone to write messages, sign it, poems and little notes and drawings on it. So when I’m food for the worms and grass grows and maybe one day trees will grow where I’m buried all of those messages of love and support will become a part of the very ground that feeds birds and worms and hence give life. Their words will give life.

But it is common knowledge on this Blog that Spirit ALWAYS go to their Funerals or Wakes or whatever it is we do to remember and send off our loved ones. And if they don’t like it, they WILL find someone to have a moan about it to.

So don’t be afraid to ask your loved ones. ‘When you die, how do you want to be buried. How do you want to be remembered. If they say don’t be so morbid, don’t talk like that etc………say to them ‘I read an article by this Psychic lady who said Spirit gave her a list of rules she is to live by and if it helps others tell them too because it’s for everyone to know these rules. If you live by them will you not only have a happier life but your death will be sweeter too.

Tell them what you want when you die. What you want to wear, what you want played etc….One of my rules is it’s not to be called a Funeral but a ‘Bon Voyage’ party. I’m off on a trip of a life time but we will see each other soon kind of party.

No hymns or church or anything. I’m gonna have a Tangi where everyone tells stories and sings songs and has a laugh and a cry and they draw on my cardboard casket. Then I want my Unveiling to be one HUGE Party. I want everyone to drink and have a laugh and just love each other with good food and drink and stories.

But my husband knows to put me in my nicest pjs and to take everything but my wedding ring off. He knows where everything is to go and I’m an organ donor too so…hopefully I get to save lives too. They get everything but my heart. My heart goes home to New Zealand. In our Memorial war of our Family Cemetery in Bulls, New Zealand. So that regardless of what part of the world has my body, my heart goes home to New Zealand.

Get it all written down. If someone is terminally ill, ask them, what they want. They appreciate it after they die my Babies, I promise. It really does mean a lot to them they way they are sent out. They like to know they mattered to someone.

I have however seen funerals where no one but the Minister and cemetery staff and if you put the ‘Debbie’ glasses on you’d see the thousands who are there in Spirit. So no one EVER dies and is buried alone. So we can all rest a little easier now knowing even the homeless get a good send off. Coz that always bothered me until recently.

When your preparing to bury someone, you have a billion and one things will be going through your mind. You’ll be so busy trying to make sure you got everything right, you don’t have time to mourn your loss?

It always happens, especially for the Oldest couple of siblings. But what if it was already decided and all you had to do was hand over the clothes they requested and have a date and time to tell people? So then all you had to do was be with your family and remember/honor their memory. Isn’t that so much nicer?

Also don’t be afraid to had some humor into your send off. Don’t do all that organ music bullocks. Put your favourites up there. The music you loved to love when you were alive. So when everyone there hears those songs from that day on they remember you and your memory. That is after all what a funeral is supposed to be. A Service to say Goodbye to a loved one.

Remembering your dead is the highest honour you can give them. Their memory is everything to them because it’s letting them know they did a good job. They left an imprint in the fabric of time and it mattered to someone. That’s why they do it. It’s why they keep coming back to live life after life. Because no other existence has the same experience as the human experience. We are inspirational. We are Creative, We are Enduring, and we embrace enlightenment. Without us, if we die out we will never join them up there and we won’t save our planet and all that we are will be lost forever.

They up there, need our inspiration and our need to observe and discover and invent and create, and understand so we can ALL advance as a Higher Beings. When we advance as higher beings it means death will no longer exist and we will exist together in the one time. All species, all, galaxies, all planets etc….as well as all the dead.

So people like me have been sent to give every one the lessons they need to do their bit to making sure that in a couple of hundred years we don’t all just die out.

Stop wasting time. We waste so much time. We are humans being not humans doing. When your doing your experiencing and learning and absorbing the world around you. Go out there and make someones breathing stop for a second when you walk in the room.

There is love out there for everyone. You just have to look for it. Not everyone is lucky enough to have their love come to their door but just because they don’t come to yours doesn’t mean you can’t go to theirs.

If it’s love it’s so worth looking for. And as long as nothing you breaks the Law of the Universe ‘I shall not by my own actions cause loss or harm to any other living soul’ then get off your ass and start to live your life and love every minute of it.

I’m greedy now, I’m asking the Universe for everything now. I want to travel the world and I want to meet people. I want to not be afraid to hide my gift in the outside world any more. I am going to tell the world ‘I’m an internationally renowned Psychic’.

I’ve worked hard for that title. I deserve to use it just like I did when I took my husbands named and got to sign it Mrs. I’ve put in my time on the battle field and earned my scars. So I’m gonna wear that badge with honour.

I still have one regret I’m yet to fulfill and that is Relearn Guitar. One of my wonderful friends made one of my other dreams come true the other day and bought me a Massage Table for my Birthday. I’ve already used it hahahaha I’m such a lucky duck. I got to cross a regret off my list and it felt fantastic.

This last Epiphany came to me today. As I watched Two Documentaries I watched on Netflix.

One was Back in Time, about the making of Back to the Future and it’s Cult following, and First Comes Love.

First Comes love is a movie documentary about a 41yr old Movie maker who decided to have a baby without a Father present. No Husband. Just being a Single Mum. As I watched this woman Nina grieve for her Beloved Mother and then question her own existence I started to have flash backs of this woman’s life. Her Mothers life caught hold of me and I realized things I was seeing months ago were images of this woman’s life months ago but I didn’t know who she was.

This womans Mother was showing me her life, months before I ever saw the movie. Suddenly memories of flashes I’d been having over the months make sense to me.

Then I got my notebook out in my head about previous conversations with Spirit and I started talking to them and this is how I think I have finally cracked the meaning of life and I don’t mind saying ‘I’m pretty Blown away’. Let me know what you think.

The last stage of my training has been introspective as you know. I’ve been made to pay attention to everything they are shown me and being the perfect Teachers they are I have finally cracked their code.

I know eventually the stuff they show me will make sense. So I knew these images I was seeing of these peoples pasts would make sense one day. Little did I know what t would lead to.

Stay with me………….So obviously when I’ve been seeing these things I’ve been having contact with Spirits teaching me the significance of making memories.

I’ve been seeing memories of my childhood, and other peoples. Slowly the cogs have been turning.

Upon watching this Nina bury her Mother in First Comes Love, I said to Spirit as I’m balling my eyes out ‘Why do we do it, grieving hurts so much, why do we put ourselves through the experience?’

And they said (get how perfect this is, I had to sit down when they said this bit)

They said ‘Because to know grieve is to know true love’.

Get it? Only when we know the pain of losing someone we love do we know what LOVE IS.

You can love your cars, your money and your job but losing any of it doesn’t hurt like losing someone you love.

Stay with me, I’m getting to my point.

Then it started dawning on me. That’s what they are trying to teach us. The Meaning of Life.

We chose a life where we have to be born fighting, we have to fight to find our place in society as kids, we have to fight to find our identity as teens, then fight to find your place as an adult then to find love and start a family and have an experience then grow old and die.

And then we stand there and say as Spirits ‘Hmm…..yeah I was a good Mum but I want to learn to love a little more. I never loved my kids the way they should of been loved, I want to go back and know love’.

So off they go and they fight to be born and they we have to fight to find our place in society as kids, we have to fight to find our identity as teens, then fight to find your place as an adult then to find love and start a family and have an experience then grow old and die.

Then they come back and they say ‘I loved my kid perfectly but I think I want to know a life that teaches instead of learns’ so they go off and they fight to be born and they die as a teenager……etc……..get it?

Why? Well if you’ve paid attention to my last few posts you’ll know it’s because of the Human Experience.

Why a Back to the Future Documentary? Because that film created a human experience for billions of people.

They ‘LOOK UP’ told me No one creates like we do, no one takes ideas and makes them something that transcends all time like humans do.

Our human experience is incredible and it’s personal and it means something to everyone having one.

To choose a life of pain and suffering makes you the wisest souls. Your nearly at the top. You chose a harder life for the lessons for yourself and those around you.

No Other species knows the experience like that of the humans. We are creative and inventive and supportive and embracing and free thinking and we LOVE movies and TV shows and they inspire others to have and create their own human experience.

This is why the keep saying ‘Remember me, don’t mourn me’. ‘Honour my memory’.

Because when you remember them it makes them know their human experience meant something AND it means when we remember we travel back in memory with the person who has no gone.

To Mourn them and feel that pain, is what life is. Life is Love and love hurts but there is nothing like it in this universe.

The love of a movie that inspired generations of people to become inspiring themselves.

The love of a child you create and nurture.

The love of a parent,

The love of Nina’s best friend, what an incredible woman her friend is. I know these woman that I’ve never met because Ninas mother showed me months ago. I wish I could tell Nina her Mother is so proud of her. Being a Mother brought Nina’s Mother life and I wish I could tell her that.

Her memory of her Mother keeps her memory alive and then what happens is her boy Jasper will grow up seeing the footage of his Grandma and he’ll have his own thoughts about her and put her in his memory and there her Spirit lives with her Grandson.

See how it works? So that is the Mothers Spirit living on inside the grandkids and anyone who watches the film who thinks about the Mother and their own loved ones etc….and it brings the Spirits right there.

The Human Experience lives on. The Meaning of Life.

Having the human experience so you can make memories and keep your Spirit alive in those who remember you.

Be it a loved one or a stranger, it doesn’t matter. Its the fact to that Spirit of Nina’s Mother (Davenport was her name) her memory is kept alive because someone chose to remember her.

And when your watching someones Mother in a coffin in a documentary you can’t help it. It’s a sadness you feel if you’ve ever had to bury a beloved Mother, parent, sibling or loved one. Grief hurts.

BUT!!! Death is only painful for the living. Spirit are trying to teach us to make memories. Have the human experience. Go out and do and see. Make the memories, not just for you but for everyone around you.

Because one day you’ll be dead and you’ll want to know that your experience meant something.

To the Dead and those living elsewhere there is no death. We live in each others memories. We see each other just by thought alone.

Now I’ve learned to just jump to where I need to go, in a reading or by thought, I can walk around random streets and read out street signs and addresses and describe houses and even peoples lives and funerals etc…….at will.

If we could all get like my level of ability death would no longer exist. We would no longer grieve because our loved ones would exist in my memories and in my dreams and by pure thought alone I can have them by my side.

And they have taught me more in the last 5 months than I’ve learned in the last 42.

Make memories people. Stop wanting money, stop buying houses you don’t can’t take with you, stop wishing to be with someone to love, go out there and find it.

Go put your stuff in storage and travel, write that book, kiss that girl in your class, take those dance lessons. Who cares what people think.

Who cares what people think. We worry so much about what people might think and yet who are these people to judge us for wanting to be happy? Fuck them.

It’s not their life it’s yours.

Don’t go to College if you don’t really want to. Being happy is more important than a decade of being a debt slave.

Write that screen play. I know someone who is writing a book……’s taking a while Dr Who lol

We spend all our time listening to stories on the news and in the media about when the end of the world comes.

People are obsessed with the end of the world. No one wants to hear what I see because it’s not a future ruled by Media, and Banks and Hollywood and Big Business and Pharmaceutical companies where people have been indoctrinated to buy more stuff and be a star and find fame any way you can, and any emotion other than Happy is a mental illness. God forbid you have a real emotion, quick get them on meds for ADHD and tell people they have Bi Polar because suddenly if your happy and then life gets a bit shit your bi polar.

Wake up people. We have human lives. Lives get hard some times. But just because your too lazy to do something to fix it doesn’t mean you should be letting the Government medicate your emotions away. Oh My God!!!

I’m saying this because I’ve had 20 emails this WEEk about people saying they have ADHD because they get moody some times.

Well…..your supposed to get moody. Life gets hard, stuff gets awesome, a twat breaks your heart and a skank steals your money. It happens. Its life.

Stop blaming it on ‘mental disorders’ and deal with your life. If you don’t like the life your experiencing change it. You have the right to change all the things you don’t like in your life.

THAT is why Spirit are saying over and over and over to my clients. Stop worrying about what ifs and just do it. Worrying about possible out comes is far more hassle than just doing it and seeing what happens.

But Good or bad it’s all part of the human experience. And it all takes you down the paths you need to go but you have total control. You can always change the things you don’t like.

Your life is like a Sat Nav. You can’t change the destinations but you can sure as hell decide what roads you want to go down to get there.

So get out there and live your life to the best of your potential. Stop hiding behind fear and mental illness and make your life a human experience for all of us who will remember you.

Then your life lives on forever. To Remember is to be Psychic if you are able to remember the way I have learned to. It’s n incredible feeling to know the lives and childhoods of people who come to me in Spirit.

Then we all just meet up in our dreams and have fun.

I’m utterly exhausted now. I think I’ll sleep for a month.

I need to be Teaching I think. I need to be maybe writing a book. If I could I would give talks but I wouldn’t know where to begin. I also would like to put in out there to anyone reading my Blogs who works in the Science Industry. I want to study myself under a scientific environment to see if I can understand these Time Slips I’m having. Is it a Chemical reaction to something or is it a seizure? is it a hormonal thing or is a part of my brain active?

I’d love to find out.

Anyway, just something for you all to think about. I’m exhausted now lol

I hope this inspires you to start living. Stop allowing this world to stop you from having an incredible human experience.

Because when a Soul gets to the point where it is no longer remembered they stop having human lives and opt be Elders and stuff. Which is sad. But you have to remember, this is why they all flock to us. No one lives like we do. No other planet in the Universe has the same lives as us.

And we fuck it up with wars, The Kardashians and Pocket Dogs.

I mean…..if that’s your experience then have fun with that but stop trying to push it onto us. No everyone wants to be famous because of making a porn. Some people actually have talent and are too poor or too worried with not being bombed to care if KeyWest or whatever their names are having a boy or a girl.

I’d be more impressed if they did a show where she gave away all her wealth. She is married to Yeesuz after all. Wouldn’t he be wanting the poor to prosper.

I’m telling you now America, if that man becomes the next President of the United States your screwed and you’ll have no one to blame but yourself.

STOP WORSHIPPING Celebrities. Raise your children to know about our War Heroes, raise them to have an interest in Science. There are men and women in Science and Medicine and Music and Art and Literature who deserve to be worshiped more than someone who kicks a ball for a Million a week and still can’t get their team to win a Final.

Stop trying to find someone to give you the answers. look for it yourself. Don’t try to be a McPsychic. Be a Gourmet one instead. Sure it takes longer but you’ll enjoy it so much more and you’ll appreciate the efforts that went into making it.

Stop being a Human Being and be a Human Doing.

Enjoy the experiences. Sleep under the stars, get a little stoned, go sing Karaoke, dance with a stranger, hold someones hand, buy a stranger lunch, if you can pay for someones shopping you know looks like they need the help. Some of us have such wonderful experiences we have Forever Loves and Soul mates who want to enjoy the experience with us. They simply chose a different role to play in your life every time there but that’s why a FL or SM are soooo special. Because they share your experience with you in this life and the next and previous etc….They are so so rare. That’s why the connection goes deeper than just loving someone. There is a need to be in each others lives. That is an incredible human experience to have. But it’s why we do it. It’s why we must always do it for the love.

The love of Art, Music, a Human, an Animal, a Movie, a Game, a Genre of something, architecture, history, whatever it is, have it. Know it. Try new foods, open up your world to new experiences. Each one you have will change your life to how it was before. The more you experience the more you want to experience the more you’ll understand. Trust me. Go out and do it. Whatever it is.

Adopt a puppy or cat no one wants and love it with ever fiber of your soul. Offer to help a neighbour, help if you see a need. I promise you, it changes your entire perspective on life when you start to have a more human experience.

Start living people. And I am putting a challenge out to every single one of you. If you come back to me with a story about something you did this week that pushed you out of your comfort zone to enjoy a human experience or about how you went and did something you’ve always wanted to do I’ll grant you a free question. I’ll know if your telling the truth remember lol so don’t make it up.

I want you all to start taking notice of your thoughts and memories and start documenting how many are based around a deceased loved one. I want to see how often you think of them randomly or on purpose.

Your my guinea pigs. And please….I don’t want stories about things you have already done. I only want to hear things you’ve done because I asked you to do it. Just remember the one rule of the Universe.

I shall not by my own actions cause loss or harm to any living soul.

And you’ll be fine.

Love and Light


A warning to anyone who threatens me with the Dark Side.

If your going to email abuse to my private email without entering a mature adult conversation WILL be publicly named and shamed.
It is not my fault I know more than you and your not being clever or sneaky by emailing me your bullshit privately.
I’m not like other Psychics and Mediums.
I WILL kick your fuckin arse.
I will NOT tolerate being abused and threatened and I WILL take action. You don’t know who your dealing with and I have EVERY right to defend myself.
It’s not my fault your an uneducated fool who chooses to belief bullshit than the truth.
The truth is bitter at first and a lie sweet but over time the truth becomes sweet and the lie bitter.
If you choose to believe in things that make you bitter it doesn’t give you the right to abuse and threaten me because my truth is bitter to you.
Grow up. Maybe this is the reason why you weren’t gifted with anything and have to wallow in your own miseducated bullshit.
I’m more than you will ever be but just because I’m spiritual doesn’t mean I’ll put up with being treated like shit.
If you consider yourself a man  come to my house. I’ll give you my address and you and I will have it out. I’m not afraid of you .
NOTHING you can say or do to me will scare me because your weak and pathetic and I am strong.
Your DARK SIDE bollocks is no match for me. I WILL hunt you down and destroy you.
I’m a Warrior of Light and my abilities will far outweigh yours.
Only a weak pathetic dark sider would hide behind an email.
I eat pathetic dark siders like you for lunch.
Next time you want to have a piece do it to my face and watch what happens.
How dare you.
However…..being Spiritual I am surrounding you with all my love and light and may your days be filled with cotton candy, angels and fluffy kittens.
I’m sorry your parents never accepted you and you hate your life.
I suggest you do some charity work so you can remove this negative energy that surrounds you and see the true face of human nature.
I hope you find the truth because what you believe in is quite out dated and non existant quite honestly laughable. Even my Satanist friend laughed at you one line of context.
You don’t need to hide behind what was it you called them ‘Guardian demons’? Was it you said in your email to me?
I’m sure whatever it is you try to manifest is lovely and all but if you come near me again without facing me like a man I will tear your demons down with one flicker of light and shove it down your throat so hard you shit coal for a week.
Take your dark side demon bullshit and Fuck off you weak pathetic excuse for a human being and knit for the elderly or feed the homeless.

To anyone else reading this if you know me you’ll know how I deal with the dark side and there is only one way to treat any one who brings that stuff to your door.
My words are my sheild and my strength my sword.
I am happy to discuss anything you don’t believe or understand openly and with intelligence and maturity but if you sneak around sending angry emails using the Dark Side to try to gain strength or my light from me I will do exactly what I always do.
There is only one way to deal with manifested dark side bullshit and that is to get angry.
It immediately protects you from psychic attack.
So take your pathetic demons and fuck off.
My house and my heart is surrounded by the purest love and light.
You can’t come within 1 billion miles from me without getting burned.
I will NOT tolerate this kind of behavior.
I don’t force my beliefs on anyone.
I write and people read. If you don’t like it don’t read it.
The fact I’m pissing so many people off proves my truth hurts and exposes them as frauds and failures.
But what kind of person then feels the need to contact me and abuse me?
Weak, pathetic, unintelligent, bored, childish people that’s who.
And I will defend myself
The reason you came to me privately is because you know your immediately going to get shot down if you do it publicly not just by me but by the people who read my stuff as well.

I contemplated whether to post this retort or not but Spirit said ‘do it coz it teaches others’.
So to anyone who is being beaten down by someone negative who tries to use made up demons and dark side to do it. THIS  is how you battle the dark side.
And this is how Pathetic the dark side are. I was warned they were coming lol so I prepared my protection days ago.
Use anger and the worst language you can and the Anger becomes your shield and your words your sword.
You will never be more protected this way and anything they try to send gets bounced right off you and sent back to them ten fold.
So while he’ll be trying to conjure up big bad demons that don’t exist even scientifically to come and teach me a lesson three days ago when it stood outside my back door pacing I prepared my protection lol
I surround my home and heart, family and friends with the purest of white light.
Your darkness has no power over me and has the strength of a single grain of sand in a beach of positive light.
Anything you send to me I send back ten fold and I use the power of three to protect me and my family.
You never have and never will have any power of me.
By the power of Spirit, the Universe and my Ancestors I surround myself with love and light and anything that comes near me or my family with anything less than the same will be destroyed.
The Power of Three protects me.

In short Dark Side Loser.
Bring it on. I’m gonna destroy me some demons.
Yippe Ki yayee Mother Fucker!!! *cocks imaginary shot gun of love and light*

Who’s with me?

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Um……….ooooookay. The strangeness continues

I know J Dub will have a good read with this.

So last night for some reason I couldn’t sleep. I was utterly exhausted and had been almost falling asleep throughout the day so I was what we call ‘dog tired’.

Hubby was fast asleep next to me. Snoring his beautiful head off and I turned my laptop and TV off so I could ease into a slumber when I heard someone come into the house.

I clearly heard them step through my door as the part of my front door flooring has a distinctive sound. But my hair stood on end so I knew instantly it was Spirit. So I did a blessing over and over to make sure my family was protected. Got the Ancestors in on the action.

But there was an electrical charge to the atmosphere.

I heard it make it’s way up the stairs and into my room. When it got into my room it moved around our bed and kind of not paced but positioned itself next to me. I had the distinct feeling it was making sure my Mr was asleep before coming back to my side.

I was NOT afraid oddly. Not a bit. But something was beginning to happen to me. I was fully conscious. I tested myself. I made myself sit up and touch my feet. I made myself check all my senses and had total free movement and will.

I knew I was to lay back down. So I did.

Then it started……………………….I became aware of my vision seeing everything in green. Everything my eyes could see turned green. I fuzzed and pinged all over then suddenly became aware that I was very heavy. Like I was being slowly sucked down into the bed and floor under the bed but again I wasn’t afraid.

I said to Spirit ‘Don’t scare me, if your gonna do it don’t let it be scary’ and they said ‘Daughter, just relax, trust us’. I said ‘Okay but just make sure I remember it all, if I’ve got to do this please let me see everything clearly so I know I’m not losing my mind’.

With that said I lay back down and I could see everything through the green in perfect 3D vision. The vision of my bedroom became a street. Where was once my wall with my scarves hanging up over my Fozzie Bear bag and Totoro Bag became a street with a row of Tenement houses. About 20 stuck together, all in a row. I could see everything with perfect vision. I could see the paving, the tiles, the bubbles in the paint, everything. The lace of the curtains hanging up, even though I was at least 60-100 feet away standing across the street.

There were trees out the front of the houses. I can still see the leaves and bark patterns it was so vivid.

Also the dutiful student I made myself stop what I was doing and sit up and touch my toes then sit on the end of the bed just to make sure I was conscious. I had total free will.

I lay back down and as I was starting to pay attention to the vision of what was on my wall. But then I felt myself being pulled down, it was so heavy. My body was fighting gravity and then all of a sudden blue holes began to appear in my vision but in the middle of the air about 3 feet up off the bed.

As I was being pulled down blue holes popped up looking like a cigarette burn in video tape. It was burning but ripping open in or over the green vision I had instead of a bedroom wall.

I had so many holes pop open in the air of my vision above my bed (does that make sense?) that I was losing the green. The blue was overlapping the green. So my eyes were seeing a green green, green house, green road, everything was green. Like I was looking at a photo and someone tipped green water over the photo so the whole image on the photo became the same colour green. Not an inch of colour. However, I could see colour through the green.

So imagine your wearing night vision goggles. Everything is green but if you looked at something in particular like a bit of the wall for example you could see the grey stone, the brown dirt etc…in super mega high def detail.

BUT then the blue was over lapping and I ended up having vision not unlike a fly. You know when you see through a flies eyes on a movie or those science movies you were forced to watch at school? Just like that….BUT WAIT THERE’S MORE J DUB!!!!

Fascinated yet Babe? hahahahahaha And by the way while this was happening to me my husband was dreaming of stealing gold from the Devil :) How fucking cool is that? Something incredible is coming for my hubby. WOOHOO!!!

Anyway…………(I’m trying to build up suspense because this next bit is unbelievable)

So by now imagine your wearing night vision goggles but holes were popping out of no where. But they were a bright purplish blue colour and they were now saturating the green. However I became aware that I felt my body being on two different levels above me. Does make sense?

One of myself was in the green time, and above that I felt myself in the blue time also. The blue then began to overlap the green and as it did it I felt my self in the blue time overlap and cover the me that was in the green time so we were becoming one. Three became one because don’t forget I was still aware of myself being in my room.

I again sat up and touched my toes and sat of the end of the bed. Looked around the room. My hubby was still snoring. lol

I lay back down and the blue self and green self began to merge into one. I felt floaty. Like I was floating in space without the need for a space suit or anything.

But when I started to pay attention I noticed each blue hole that appeared, each one had an individual vision DA DA DAAAAAAAAA!!!

Yip, each blue was a vision different from the next. I could focus on each vision individually and the incredible bit is this…..they were visions of my childhood.

I focused on one up to the left of my door where it was the car we had when I was 6. A blue hole in the middle where the wedding photo of my Mum and Dad was hanging on my wall I saw the salt and pepper shakers we had when I was about 10-11 yrs old.

But the thing was I could see it perfectly. I could make out the bumps in the plastic. The grains of the salt and pepper individually. I could see the red plastic and white plastic on the back lights of my Dads black car. It was so familiar to me it felt incredible. I felt elated. And not once was I frightened.

I wanted to see all of them….I wanted to sit and watch all these memories, or vision of memories but I became aware of my husband moving to cuddle me. Then the blue lay over the green and it became black and white like a photo and I felt so heavy I thought I was going to fall through the ground but kind of cave in on myself like someone pushes me into the dirt grave but the grave bottom is never ending. So I’m just going down down down and everything was black and white and extremely heavy. The bed felt heavy, the walls felt heavy, the clothes on my chair felt heavy etc……

And it was over……………………………….or so I thought. Because I had to go to the toilet and when I stood up I couldn’t move my legs.

I had to consciously tell my brain to move my legs and it felt like from the thigh down someone had attached weights to my legs. Like 200 pound weights on each leg. I almost fell over with my top half being normal like my front end was going to move forward but my legs don’t move so my front end falls over but your legs don’t move. I would of hit the floor bending over but I landed on the chair and it stopped my fall.

I went to the bathroom trying to make sense of it all and I came back to bed and Mr was awake and so I told him what happened and he sat quietly and said ‘That’s how Scientists think black holes act.’.

We talked for an hour. Passed out and woke up utterly exhausted but not tired lol

I love my Man. He never laughs at me. Never judges me.

As I type this I had a thought though and J Dub this will explode your brians (brains but we say Brians because of one of my favourite movies Igor lol )

I thought to myself (or was it me?)



J Dub!!!? You may now pick yourself up off the floor :)

I wish I could get some Scientists to help me study me and what’s going on. I know it’s like a Quantum Leap thing but it’s not as other people, it is as me.

But that’s me ever the student lol

I’m such a Parageek. lol

You know who would know this? Dr Who would know this lol I need to find David Tennant lol (he’s my favourite)

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